step into the world i call my own

half full or half empty

2009-02-24T21:43:00.004+08:00

im not exactly in the blogging mood now either. my blog is dead. yes i know. but im blind from staring at the com doing biz law assignment. or was it coz of the hours of tv ive been catching up on? =X

anways it has been a rough year. with the tumour, my grandfather's passing, my dad's freak accident and my cousin's brain haemorrage. gee what more can happen? but my mum always says the cup is either half full or half empty. so i guess we are still lucky. at least the tumour is not maglinant, my grandfather is relieved from his bedridden days, my dad's helmet cracked instead of his skull and my cousin survived though we are still unsure of the extent of brain damaged she suffered.

alright enough of the family tragedies.

school is as usual. except for week 7 which had 4 tests in 2.5 days and where i screwed up my IT with the worst grade i obtained in my entire uni life. yeah i was that unlucky to get so many out-of-textbook-questions. at least give me something from the textbook which i cant answer then i'll kick myself for a better reason. argh.

recess week now but its ladden with assignments and projects. whats new.

my commitments are making me fall out of love.

i need to fall in love again.

with dance.

the road ahead

2009-01-18T10:13:00.003+08:00

i dont know why but ive suddenly lost interest in blogging. though my past entries did help me in closing my own accounts heh.

anyways im CANCER FREE =) didnt feel much when the doc told me that coz i psyched myself to think that theres no way i can get cancer coz i dont have time to go for the chemo, surgery etc or even stay in hospital. my mum was like thank god! and she hugged me. i think she was more worried than i was =P

after 2 weeks of no driving i forgot most of the circuit stuff =X and this girl in the circuit almost crashed into me. i told my mum that the girl was the one in the wrong. but it would be kinda fun if she did crash into me hee. we were both travelling at very slow speed so there wont be any major damage. i havent sat bumper cars in ages!

and sigh. our fm group got split. im gonna miss jing and tsh *sobs*

red and blue

2009-01-12T12:46:00.004+08:00

almost died from the itch caused by the pressure bandage. i was counting down to sat 1pm so that i can remove it. and when i did it was all red. apparently my skin is allergic to that plaster -_-" on fri night it was so itchy i almost cried =(

oh and my waterproof plaster? the ends opened up when i was bathing -_-" so much for waterproof! the plaster got wet so the dried blood came trickling down. the smell of the dried blood and iodine and the sight of that depression that has turn blue made me feel like i was gonna faint. and no im not kidding. i had to lie down after that. my mum took the waterproof plaster out to keep the tape dry. the tissue had better grow back otherwise im gonna need reconstructive surgery and im gonna dieeeeeeee. no silicon nooooooooooooooooooooooooo

and i read that the surgery i was supposed to have is a day surgery plus a night stay in the hospital. im still so glad i got away without it =P

went to auntie nancy's house on sat night for dinner. she cooked this awesome seafood fare WHICH I COULDNT HAVE BECAUSE OF THE STUPID OP. rahhhh.

and i swear i hate wearing bra. hmph.

mammotomy

2009-01-09T20:34:00.003+08:00

i dont know exactly where to start. but im so glad the radiologist screwed up. thanks to her my surgery wound is 1.9cm and not 10cm and thanks to her i can be here typing right now and not lying in the hospital.

okay so it was 1 big one and not two joined together (like the radiologist thought). so total length is about 2.5cm and not 1.59 and 0.83cm. like my doc said its actually quite big. and coz its 2.5cm while the needle is only 2cm, it was very challenging to do the small incision procedure. she said she would have recommended surgery if she knew the actual length. and that means general anesthesia and not local anesthesia. but my doc administered loads of local anesthesia coz of the size. and by loads i really mean loads. ive lost count of how many times she injected me with that 10cm long needle O_O

alright backtrack a little. i woke up at 7 and thought it was too early so i went back to sleep (surprisingly i could). and i dreamt that i was going for my op but i forgot my x ray films. gee. then my mum came in to wake me at 8:40 and the op was at 9am. yeah so i was late for my op. but its alright coz my doc was even later. which was kinda expected from the consultation i had so good thing i slept more ;)

the nurse made me change into this green gown and put on this green cap. after i was done i sat on the bed. when she walked in she laughed. guess i looked kinda cute =P administering the LA was horribly painful. before she did i was like you know...actually...im quite afraid of injections. and my arms and legs were numb before the whole thing even started =X i guess partly from the position but mostly from the fear heh.

so the machine sliced it and removed it in strips. wasnt a bloody sight so it was quite okay. i imagined it to be a really gruesome sight haha.

the 2nd worst part came later on when i had to lie on my front to add pressure for like an hour. it was horribly annoying coz im the kind who gets restless after sitting in the steam room for 5 min. like just sit there and do nothing?? yea i talked to my mum a little but it was so uncomfortable i just wanted to sit up. and then i decided to make a trip to the toilet coz the doc was doing another op so she couldnt check on me. after i came back the nurse said its alright to sit up already so when the doc came in and saw me she said oh shes sitting up and smiling! thats good for me!

haha okay i think ive been smiling a lot lately. not just today but the whole week in school. its good right? =)

maybe the above wasnt the 2nd worst part. the 2nd worst part is to keep my bra on for the next 168 hours. oh crap. i cant even describe how annoying its gonna be when usually the only time i keep it on is when i have to and that is when im out of the house. and no showering for the first 24 hours with half my chest bounded. its tough even breathing.

funny thing is ive always wanted a long mc to escape from pe. now i have 8 days of mc but nothing to use in on. grr.

but im pissed coz i went for tuition after my op and my student wasnt even there! like have the courtesy to inform me? i just did my op and i made my way there for you! argh.

goodbyes

2008-12-31T19:50:00.002+08:00

i didnt intend to blog but since its new year eve and this is gonna be my last chance to post something in 08 so might as well.

lets see..i remember getting disconnected with my mum in jb and the horrifying 1.5 hour jb taxi ride on the 22nd. the taxi driver just couldnt find the place. he kept going round in circles! -_-"

on the 24th i had lunch at st regis. italian buffet lunch! they had really nice lamb chop. i dont like lamb coz of the smell but this one barely had any trace of it. plus they had pretty pretty desserts! and it costs only 42 bucks after tax and service charge which is kinda cheap for a hotel. oh and i love their lifts!

christmas was spent at aunty nancy's house. my mum's friend. we played scrabble. aunty nancy is damn good! gee shes like some word whiz! at night my mum went to meet her friends then she came home and told me that her friend's son is hall 1 president. i was like oh that guy that came knocking for votes? i told her how i made him justify why i should vote for him and my mum called her friend to tell him how i gave his son a hard time -_-"

finally visited my aunt over the weekend. she cooked this really yummy fish soup noodles. reminds me that im gonna have to cook my meals the whole of next sem. 5 days in hall. omg.

mon and tues was spent shopping with my mum. she had 1 night free stay in hilton. we met my aunt for dinner on mon night. my beef noodles soup. my dad brought me there once and i fell in love with it ever since. i dont know if it is the same store after so many years but it was good enough =) bought sushi back for supper. and hilton's steam room is awesome! its well ventilated unlike sicc. and it was so steamy i didnt have to lie on my front. if you get what i mean ;)

stayed over at zhenling's place last night. when i met her she asked me about my results and i was like isnt it the 12th? then she told me her friends in ntu already got their results. i thought it was 29th but when i logged in they said 12th so apparently i logged in in the wrong place. good thing andrew helped me out. haha. my dad scolded me for being overly confident about stats. i knew i screwed up my finals. my mind just wasnt there. given my coursework i could have easily gotten at least an A. sigh. but oh wells i didnt expect to do so well for marketing. the thing about marketing is there isnt any guidelines. so it was hard to predict what the examiners were looking for. guess i got lucky heh.

played wii with zhenling. dancing rabbits! hee

driving is going well. did perpendicular parking today. finally mastered directional change and s shaped course. but my turning on the road is still falling short. bah.

i just wanna stay in 2008. i dont want to go into 2009. coz its gonna be a tough year ahead.

more to come

2008-12-21T21:38:00.003+08:00

yawns. im exhausted from lots of partying recently.

farewell party at admore park clubhouse last night. gosh the toilets are really posh! and the catered indian food was really good! plus the jokes were kinda funny. just that watching people play pool is boring haha.

went out today with my parents. first to ntu to check if my fridge exploded or something. had lunch there. then we went to jurong point and west mall to shop. got back home just in time for steamboat and tang yuan coz today is dong zhi. yups. my mum wanted to drink wine tonight but i was like wine last night, wine tonight then wine tomorrow too?? ive been eating loads of cold stuff lately. im so in for it next week. sigh.

and my mum's dragging me for her company's walk cum breakfast cum lunch bbq tomorrow. then at night i have to go to jb for my maternal grandparents' 80th birthday celebration. gonna miss the pwc vt gathering. i was telling my mum its at ECP and we are going to JB. so she said ahh you rather come with me? and i told her uh it takes almost the same time for me to go to ECP and JB. funny huh?

so it will only be 1 day break from partying before more christmas partying. gee im gonna have to diet after christmas!

i know this sounds ironic but now i hate that the test dates are not moving! hmph.

driving 1

2008-12-18T20:23:00.001+08:00

had my first official driving lesson today. driving is tiring! my instructor kept saying i dont have strength, turn the wheel too slowly. then i told him the wheel very hard to turn! and he said heavy ah? you never exercise is it? come here to do eca?? -_-"

and i knocked over one of the poles coz i turned too early =X and and i almost lost control over the car while overtaking. oops. i was multi-tasking..trying to turn back into the left lane, checking the mirrors and cancelling the signal. my instructor was like woah woah! haha =P

he kept complaining i was going too fast. he was stepping on the brake while i was stepping on the accelerator. rahh. i was only at 60. and the speed limit was 70. but at one point the speed limit was at 60 and i was at 65 ;) he didnt realise coz he was too busy on the phone. then when the lights suddenly turned amber, i was like oh shit!!!!! and my first reaction was to hit the brakes. hard. my instructor was like not so hard not so hard! damn if i had my license i would be stepping on the accelerator and not the brake heh.

still waiting to book my prac test coz the available dates now arent what im looking for.

midway

2008-12-16T09:40:00.001+08:00

passed my FTT! =) really scary coz i wasnt sure of 6 of my ans and i could only get 5 wrong. gotten too used to open book exams le. things that go in, flow out too fast -_-"

went to newton after that to meet the c1s. a mini gathering coz mar was back. finally got to taste my newton duck rice again after so many years!

came home and watched little nonya till 1am. i was like eh why so many ads de? coz i recorded it. then i realised oh yea today is the 2 hour show. im sad coz i wish yueniang will marry chen xi. but since the xiao qi in the show called chen xi "chen xi" and not "grandpa" means yueniang and chen xi probably wont get married =(

August Rush

2008-12-15T11:08:00.000+08:00

the old goes and the new comes

2008-12-12T19:23:00.001+08:00

had lunch with li wen and rui fen today. yong tao fu! =) im gonna eat my ban mian the next time heh. anna was too busy to join us.

went up to see the newly renovated office. feels kinda..exposed. everyone is reshuffled. i kept walking to and fro to find people. i miss working there =( must must get into pwc audit for intern next year otherwise my mum is gonna pack me off to kpmg. im so jealous of rui fen. bahh. she got into pwc audit! perm staff! rahhhh

i love IAS7 but if i do tax then its gonna be tax for life. which isnt exactly what i want. but i sure miss my 7 months there. though its never gonna be the same again. our batch of vts is gone. and so many perm staff left =(

oh speaking of which...now the vts have their own area. right outside all the managers room. and they dont have cubicles. no walls to give privacy. its just one long bench to be shared by 5 of them. gee. that means no excessive sametiming, msn, facebook, personal calls, smsing...ahem ahem. hahaha =P

i hung around coz i was supposed to have tuition at 4pm but my student's mum messaged to say that something cropped up so tuition has to be rescheduled. i left shortly after getting her message. i remember walking on those streets. and the ride home was...nostalgic.

at home i lazed around on my bed. looked up at my ceiling and thought hey life's pretty good =)

cant wait for 11 may 08. INTERNSHIP!

shanghai 08

2008-12-09T11:53:00.002+08:00

winter came early this year.

okay let me recall first...

tues was my mum's birthday. i spent 3 hours in the kitchen preparing dinner and baking her birthday cake. so i only started packing my stuff at 1115pm and my flight was at 735am. usually i start packing like 2 weeks before my trip. but this time maybe coz it was really rush. after exams i still had some stuff to settle and i wasnt really in the holiday mood. for whatever reason. when the taxi drove out of PV i was like shit im starting to miss home already.

i think the aircraft is new. the seats are like wider. and since the plane was only 2/3 full, my baby hippo got its own seat too! haha. i couldnt sleep so i spent the 5 hours watching movies. and they were supposed to serve brunch. and shouldnt brunch be at like 11 or something? they served brunch at 8:30am!

okay so we got there. checked in. and my mum went to work while my dad and i went to da mu zi. ate lunch then went to shop at carefour. the toilet was gross. i went in and refused to pee. yeah it was that bad.

my mum and sis came to pick us and we went to eat xiao yang shen jian and bbq stuff for dinner. i almost stepped on a dead rat! my dad was like dont step dont step! then when i looked down i saw this rat..squished. i was like eew and i screamed and jumped over it and grabbed my dad's hand. yuck.

eating bbq ba zhua yu!

i sure hope china cleaned up its milk mess coz i drank loads of milk tea there.

hippo was freezing at night too.

on thurs we went to the tailor then went to eat xiao long bao at chen huan miao. my hands were shaking from the cold, i couldnt even pick up the xiao long baos with the chopsticks. my dad had to feed me hahaha. then we went shopping and i bought a bag heh.

dinner was on a cruise. traffic to the jetty was so bad i had motion sickness. then this boat was moving and i was supposed to eat on a moving boat. the combination was horrible. i was all giddy. couldnt wait for the boat to stop.

then on fri we went to fu dan university. my sis' school. we ate la mian and shopped around the area. it was freezing. the second i stepped out of the car i became this block of ice. i had to hide behind my dad coz the wind was so strong. my sis bought egg tarts for me. its called ke neng shi shang hai di yi dan ta. really delicious. but the egg was so soft i made a mess hee.

went to shop for shoes with my sis before having dinner with my mum's colleague at the si chuan restuarant. then we went to lotus to shop for more food stuff. and i bought long john coz i really couldnt take the cold. my sis pushed me around in the cart like she used too. just that i think her driving skills got worse hahaha

sat was spent at the factory outlet. bought reebok running shoes! i saw this really cool silver and baby blue pair that was really comfy. it was like moulded for my feet or something. but it was too shallow for running and it was way too expensive for walking. that kind of price is only justified for a running pair. i bought a total of 4 shoes in that 1.5 days hee.

after shopping was sightseeing.

had dinner at zhang sheng ji with my mum's other colleague and his family. awesome view of the shanghai tan. oh yes and we bought some dvds before dinner haha. but i couldnt find any nice HK drama serials. bahh. my sis tried to pick out some dance serials but they didnt really interest me. and somehow china's tv channels didnt have any nice shows too. i remembered when i went there at the end of sec 2 we were all glued to the tv coz every channel had something good. but every night and morning in the hotel i flip the 50 channels 5 times and still couldnt find something nice to watch. hmph.

on sun we moved out early. went sightseeing. uhhh okay i cant recall the first place we visited. crap. anyways we bought honey and ginko nuts! and saw the beautiful tai hu. but it was damn cold. my sis wanted to sit the speed boat and i was like noooo im already freezing!

beehives!

then we went to yang chen hu to eat hairy crabs. that lunch lasted for 2.5 hours. i was starving then i filled up my tummy but by the time we left, digestion was complete so i was hungry again -_-"

went to some ancient place after that. again i cant recall the name. took scenic photos there. but the sun had already set by then so we couldnt see much. left after a short while to go back to my sis' apartment in shanghai to repack our stuff before going to the airport. i must say i love the loophole in their system heh.

i slept half of the flight back to sg. again hippo got its own seat with 3 pillows! haha.

reached sg at about 535am. got home at around 6+? i went to bed at 645am and woke up at 1045am. that has got to be my new record. my last was probably 9am or so?

woke up to eat brunch. my maid told me that someone from the 17th floor in our block jumped. i live on the 19th floor.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RWwYj6vf3c8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5-ctIC65PV0&feature=related

i hate the embedding disabled function on youtube. argh.

伤痕

2008-11-29T21:18:00.001+08:00

the reason why i record 1 whole hour of "so you think you can dance" on my dvd recorder only to fast forward and watch just 5 min of it is coz i dont wanna miss a dance like this

夜已深还有什麽人让你这样醒着数伤痕为何临睡前会想要留一盏灯

若爱得深会不能平衡为情困折磨了灵魂

有时爱美在无法永恒爱有多销魂就有多伤人

cold weakness

2008-11-29T12:21:00.000+08:00

this sucks.

i cancelled lunch date with jan and jas coz my grade 11 student and sec 3 student wanted sat sessions.

and my grade 11 student called to cancel. then my sec 3 student's mum called to cancel. ARGH.

i wasted the whole of yesterday rolling and screaming about in pain. i hate the weakness that hits me after me throw up. my limbs go cold and i feel like some kind of corpse >.<

holidays 08! =)

2008-11-28T08:38:00.000+08:00

okay i somehow think i do a lot better for morning papers than afternoon papers. good thing my coursework for marketing and stats is good coz i think i screwed up my finals. argh.

anyways im just really glad its all over and done with! next sem's gonna be tougher with 5 papers in 2 weeks. this time was 4 in 3 weeks.

HOLIDAYS! =)

its biased

2008-11-21T10:42:00.003+08:00

i feel like i didnt do well for marketing.

stupid gender biased paper.

can't they ask something on like beauty products or apparels??

argh.

cashmere mafia is making me miss going to work every morning. my same routine every morning. step into pwc building, take a copy of the newspaper, take the lift up to 18th floor, tap my card, walk to my desk, switch on my table light and my laptop, go to the pantry to fill up my mug with water and get a cup of milo, come back and start generating computations before everyone comes in to clog up the server. it beats waking up in hall and going for lectures and tutorials. and i miss the people there =(

al la nanita nana

2008-11-16T14:21:00.002+08:00

i hope i got it right.

close your eyes and believe

one whole week to study for one paper. thats way too long. it gets very very draggy.

its over

2008-11-15T22:28:00.003+08:00

this is a sadness i've never known
how did i let the sweetest of dreams slip away?
and i'm afraid the hurt is here to stay

people always say the first one is better. well that happens most of the time. but in this case i like the second one a lot more. maybe coz of the tango heh ;)

cheetah!

Follow me into my world
Let your worries fade with every step you take
Baby,
Whatcha' waiting for
Let the tango take control
Feel the music inside your soul (Oh)
My hand is out, just grab a hold

Watch time fade away
My arms will keep you safe
It's just you and me
Dancing in this dream

Whatever you do, don't wake me up
The feelings real, won't let it
stop, no

Don't be afraid, take my hand
Forget the world
Will you dance, dance with me
Puedomos bailar eternamente

Now I have you next to me
Everything is how it should be
Baby, don't fight the feeling
We're floating on the clouds,
If I could I'd never come back down
Baby,
Let's just keep on groovin'

As time fades away
My arms will keep you safe
It's just you and me
Dancing in this dream

Whatever you do,
don't wake me up
The feeling's real, won't let it
stop, no

Dance with me
(I'm dancing with you)
For this moment in time
(My dreams have come true)
Dance with me
If only for one night

whatever

2008-11-15T17:53:00.000+08:00

sigh.

whatever.

i cant be bothered anymore.

advanced

2008-11-14T19:02:00.002+08:00

i just found out during tuition that O level bio students are learning taxonomy, advanced cell membrane (phosopholipid bilayer) and cell division. gee i was struggling with meiosis and mitosis in jc and they are learning it in sec 4?? gosh. poor lil things...

went to sicc for dinner last night. then swensons for ice cream! =) and after that to my grandma's newly renovated house.

in the car my mum was saying that if you want to find me at home, theres only a few places i'll be.

1. on my chair with my legs crossed - studying
2. at the computer - surfing
3. on my bed - watching tv / eating / sleeping / lazing around
4. in the kitchen - looking for food
5. at the dining area - eating

oh and my dad says he wants to buy the wii. i was like huh! for what! why not you just give me the 600 bucks to shop!?

here i am

2008-11-13T13:07:00.000+08:00

oh man i hate feeling like this. nov 27 11:30am please come quick!

Perhaps so

2008-11-12T19:44:00.002+08:00

okay i hope i got my matric number right. if i wrote the wrong matric number...im so damn screwed.

NOT ENOUGH TIME!

argh. i spent too much time on the first question which was question 3. i looked at question 1 and i was like uh okay what the hell does the question want!?? so i did 3, 2 then 1. and the teacher. gosh shes really annoying. the whole 2 hours she was talking non-stop. i wanted to go SHHH CAN YOU PLEASE SHUT UP! grr.

okay back to my point. i spent almost 1 whole hour on question 3 doing i dont know what. i was like i should move on i should move on but my hand...it couldnt stop writing. DISCIPLINE. sigh.

anyways pai seh for the "slam" at 10:58am. haha i didnt mean too. its just that i was left with 2 min and trying to complete question 1 and flipping through my stuff. it didnt help that my file was so freaking thick, it just slipped from my fingers.

i thought combined science meant like half of each pure subject. but no its like the whole syllabus. how am i supposed to teach all 4 subjects, 1 whole year worth of stuff in 1.5 months? gee i might have to outsource...

and i had a nightmare last night. someone was trying to kill me =(

i cant forgive you for the things you said because every word hurts and i dont think you understand the gravity of it all. it has happened way too many times. i've let it pass not once, not twice, not thrice but so many more times. the words honestly, spare me the rhetoric..stop thinking in grandiose are still ringing in my head. am i supposed to keep smiling and tell myself to let it pass? you know it's alright if you dont believe in me but don't make me doubt myself. i can't let you go on ruining my life. that's not what friends are for. friends help you get back on your feet when you fall but you, you keep stand in my way, you trip me over and you watch me fall.

yours and mine

2008-11-10T19:51:00.000+08:00

my bio student says this time she feels a lot more prepared for her bio test! =)

today was on statistics. again i was supposed to do revision with her but well i had to make sure i cover the grounds first. i would add another lesson so that ~~she~~ i will feel more secure but i have my own ob exam on wed and i already added 2 extra lessons for her so thats really the max i can do. hope she does well. at least a lot better than before i started to teach her heh.

this morning i had to glue my butt to the chair to read the chapter on leadership. yes i had no clue what the path goal theory etc was on and i was too lazy to think. but no choice. had to sit down and read it. and after that i felt accomplished! haha

i like my papers spaced out, yes. but it gets really boring when its 6 days of ob. and the final exam is only 40%. i need a miracle to get an A for ob. 60% A- already even if i get A+ for the other 40% i dont think i can get an A =(

Cells

2008-11-09T16:31:00.001+08:00

i remember i kinda hated cell membranes and cell division but it was surprisingly fun today haha. it was supposed to be a revision session but i just found out that membranes, transport and division are tested and she was involved in some exhibition thing when those topics were taught in school. so she basically knows nuts about those topics. good thing my memory didnt fail me coz i didnt do any revision beforehand. im starting to remember why i used to love bio haha

ob exam in 2.5 days and im not fretting..it seems abnormal! HELP! i need to feel the adrenaline rush!

departure

2008-11-07T19:24:00.002+08:00

Flight No. : SQ828
Aircraft : B777-200
From : Singapore(SIN - Changi Intl Terminal 3)
To : Shanghai(PVG - Pu Dong)
Date : 03 December 2008
Departure : 07:35

Flight No. : SQ825
Aircraft : B777-300
From : Shanghai(PVG - Pu Dong Terminal 2)
To : Singapore(SIN - Changi Intl)
Date : 08 December 2008
Departure : 00:10

man i hate those timings. hate being sleep deprived.

so yes thats where im going in dec. shanghai again. to visit my sis. while my bro gets to go with my parents to HONG KONG while i have to sit for my marketing paper. argh. if not coz my sis is in china we would be going to australia! its been 6 years since i last went to australia? and australia currency depreciated so much. i want my gummy bears and jelly beans!

new student this afternoon. when his mum opened the door she was like ms huang you are so young! okay you know this is where i really wish i were older. coz parents always think young = inexperienced = cannot teach. but that is so not true.

she said she speaks to him in chinese and her husband speaks to him in mandarin so his languages very good. she proudly showed me his result slip. 59 for english 61 for chinese. i was like erm..haha. then i looked down and saw..maths f9, combined science (phy/chem) f9, bio f9. and its not just nice f9. its 30+ each! gee. so when i told her as long as he works hard and do my homework, As and Bs not difficult to get, her jaws dropped. come on you think you hired me for your son to get Cs? i added the Bs behind coz im not sure he can get As. his learning pace quite slow. and hes not sharp enough.

oh and on my way down, i stepped into this lift which had a pool of blood. i was like okay i didnt see anything. i dont know anything. im not thinking of anything. but should i call the police or something just in case?

anyways went for bio tuition after that. she seems to be improving! =) today she asked me how to study for bio and specifically how to make notes. haha

and its coca cola x 2 today haha.

but im really annoyed with sbs. peak hour means buses should come more frequently yes? but i waited 25 min each for 2 buses. my dad was telling me they say their transport system very good coz they depart on time. like HELLO THAT IS EXPECTED? in japan, they reach each station and each bus stop on time. not just depart on time. geez. it is like when i reach school late and i get a demerit point i say you cant give me a demerit point coz i left home on time. i got here late but yes i left home on time didnt i?

okay im a little cranky. maybe it is coz i woke up at 6:30am. dont ask me why i woke up before sunrise.

it has got to be my worst nightmare ever

2008-11-06T18:59:00.000+08:00

oh my this is amusing.

my sec 2 boy's mum asked me if i knew about correlation, t test, z test etc. i was like uh kinda. then she said good, i need tuition. are you free this weekend?

it was like the time she said son ah can i hijack your teacher for a while?

hahaha.

and i cant believe the things that were said is real. tell me that was just a nightmare. it has got to be my worst nightmare ever.

leave my life forever.

from this very instant.

i dont want to have anything to do with you anymore for the rest of my life.

okay breathe. this isnt going to affect me. exams are round the corner. i cant afford to be distracted. focus. focus. focus.

last presentation for the year =)

2008-11-05T20:02:00.002+08:00

so today was the last presentation for the year! =)

good thing jonathan's torch idea went well. andrew says i worry too much hahaha =P come to think of it, we met face to face only 3 times and a total of 2 hours only. pretty efficient! and i have the 2 guys that the tutor likes in my team. lucky girl huh? haha.

after our presentation then i realised that q&a not graded. i spend a hell lot of time calculating those values la. mel was like pogvmawoprawmrpompr wt xiao qi toking about ar? hahaha.

more than 3 months in hall and i still havent mastered the art of sleeping in hall. bleh. my dad says he pays for 5 months, i stay 3 months. he pays for 7 days a week, i stay 3 days only. costs a bomb! haha yeah it averages out to almost 20 bucks a day. but still not enough for cab fare to and fro heh.

and tomorrow will mark the end of the semester and exactly 5 months to the big-two-oh >.<

i want that moment to become every second of my life.

hotline

2008-11-04T19:23:00.001+08:00

since when did my number become a hotline for distressed parents?

apparently my sec 2 boy's mum has been recommending me to loads of parents. i really appreciate it when she goes around telling others how i helped her son to improve so much in such a short period of time.

then comes my flaw - i have a problem with saying no.

taking new students during my own exam period?

gee i spent the whole of last night completing the o level phy tys.

but how can i say no when a parent tried calling me for days and when i finally pick up she goes ms huang my son got 30 for maths can you please help? i heard from XXX that her son's math improved a lot! my son will be sec 4 next year and im very worried!

call me soft hearted or maybe a tad foolish. but how can i turn down a request like that?

on a side note..it feels great to be in demand haha. and the thing is i discovered that with experience and maturity...you dont really have to read the questions to know what is required. i barely read any of the tys questions before answering. and that explains the speed. but dont worry, accuracy is there too ;)

oh and stats this morning. we major changed all the values in our report. but its still wrong. bleh.

i sure hope he's right.

lectures and exams

2008-11-03T18:33:00.002+08:00

the exam venues look very strange to me. shall go venue hunting on wed since theres no lectures so im quite free haha.

its a mon night and im sleeping at home! awesome =)

i was asking around for stats and econs notes. come to think of it...gee i skipped a total of 4 lectures and 1 seminar this sem. i've been bad =X

and so maybe it has finally worn off.

ballet in pink and red

2008-11-02T18:22:00.000+08:00

teresa has requested for this post. haha

well dear you didnt miss much coz our ballet teacher didnt come =( it was that cheena guy again. and his centre work was really complicated. we did pirouette starting with the right. and that set of exercise had BOTH en dedans and en dehors and in BOTH directions. OMG. i bet you can imagine the horror of it. and we did left side too!

he scolded us for not wanting to take up the challenge. and in the end when i could do it he was like see you can do but dont dare to try! SAYS WHO! i dont know how to do your complicated set of pirouette its just that along the way i figure stuff out. i dont know the transitions between right and left but i know the direction so need time to get the position right. oh wells at least i got it and not many did haha =)

but after that he made us do 8 turns in 8 counts and 2 sets of that continously. that one left me very dizzy and nauseous. i was like sprawling all over the piano after that. the fluid in my head was swirling. even till now im still suffering from the after effects =(

and this pro woman came for class today. in bright PINK pointe shoes. i wanted to tell her uh..you know we havent quite mastered turning on demi pointe. and she snagged all the attention! we were on single and she was on DOUBLE! damn. i really just dai dai watch her turn. shes really good. and shes in her late 40s but her bar work, extensions, turns etc all so pro! i think when she was young she probably went up to RAD advanced. no shit.

so yes thats about it. i'll cya next year then! and btw the wed that just passed was our 1.5 year anniversary =)

FTT booking

2008-11-02T09:43:00.001+08:00

damn it.

yes i was busy so i didnt check so it is my fault but HOW COULD THE DATES JUMP SO FAST!??!

argh.

wanted to book final theory in first week of dec. last i checked nov dates werent even open for booking. and today when i went in suddenly the earliest date is mid dec. OMG. 15th dec 4:30pm. means by the time i book my prac test (assuming i pass my final theory) it would be sometime in march already. this sucks.

right smack in the middle of dec.

grr.

i was in a rather good mood before i came online coz i finally completed my stats tutorial 12 and it wasnt that tough.

hmph. i feel like strangling myself now.

part of your world

2008-11-01T12:48:00.000+08:00

my wisdom tooth is growing below my molar again. hurts like crazy. so much so that im starting to hate eating =(

belief

2008-10-31T10:10:00.000+08:00

yes i know i shouldnt be here coz im way way behind schedule. but im too exhausted to do anything else.

i need a vacation =(

so i survived week 13. my gosh thats like my biggest achievement in sem 1 hahaha.

my marketing group pulled an all nighter for walmart. left canteen A at 7:30am to go back and change. all of us went for presentation like zombies. i could barely process anything. 51.5 trillion rubies. omg.

stats report and com fund group presentation next week before finals.

its almost november. 27 days to the end of finals =)

because for once i feel like the world revolves around me and not the other way around. it is the little things that add colours and sparkle to the days where i find it hard to believe in myself.

sparkling!

2008-10-28T19:40:00.000+08:00

okay i know i shouldnt be blogging...but just a quick one. haha

the day started off with ob lecture at 830. i assumed it was at LKC. and when i got there i met qiu shui. we couldnt find the rest so we thought they were all late. until we sat down and saw "direct circuits" on the screen. then we were like eh are we learning this?? -_-"

stewart arnold is very lame but who cares as long as the 2 hours didnt feel anywhere close to 2 hours. see the message he posted up after the lecture:

I circulated two plastic "little men" in the lecture today, and have only received one back...
This will lead to stress, conflict and power struggles in the Arnold household, as the little men have other professional uses.

and marketing was brr cold. apparently jeans arent enough. but got to see my favourite lecturer again =) just that i didnt know there were 2 sets of notes for marketing. good thing i have my all time sem 1 bible with me haha

stats test went well =) i went to calculate the t values then i was like but hor doesnt make sense leh. so eventually i figured out that damn all those info given is pretty much useless. i shall not say much coz im not supposed to tell anyone about it let alone BLOG about it. so lets play safe. haha

i came back and i cooked porridge. whee okay this time the rice wasnt HARD anymore but i made a mess out of the kitchen downstairs. oops =X and then i swept and mopped my floor, wiped my table and my sis' too and my chair, the switches, door knobs etc. and i cleaned the sink too coz it had stuff growing on the tap. eew.

but now my room and sink is sparkling clean and im proud of it =)

okay enough yaking. i must get ~~back~~ down (since i have yet to start) to studying econs and com mgmt.

thurs is almost here =)

i need to get those dance thoughts out of my head so that i can study in peace.

stats 2

2008-10-27T19:00:00.001+08:00

stats sucks. argh.

and theres ob lecture tmr. bah. by the time we get to stats test i think my brains would already be deep fried.

okay breathe.

3 days.

im counting down to thurs 10am.

my week ends on thurs 230pm and then im gonna go partiiieee =)

known!

2008-10-26T16:59:00.000+08:00

oh oh my ballet teacher knows my name!! =)

i wonder if its a good thing or a bad thing coz she was calling my name throughout the whole lesson. and i think she gave up on my fingers. she made me hold a piece of paper -_-" and i did for the first 2 sets of exercises then i thought hmm should be okay ba so i put it down. then she was like fingers! and she put the paper back -_-"

but but mwahaha i finally got my left pirouette right! =)) coz she was observing me the most throughout the lesson so she finally managed to correct it. love my teacher! =)

oh and i was early for ballet so i managed to catch the jazz ballet. i swear i could have cried dancing to that music.

and this morning i fell down and bruised my butt. i blamed my parents for it. haha. i told them see if you sent me then i wouldnt have fallen down. one big blue black leh. and i went for ballet like that. bah.

damn my ass does hurt =(

hush now sweetie

2008-10-26T10:01:00.002+08:00

it is raining and i have to go for ballet myself. darn this sucks.

had marketing meeting at starbucks last night. came home smelling like coffee >.<

and here comes the killer week. stats test, com mgmt written assessment, econs test and marketing case presentation. oh what wouldnt i give for now to be december.

i didn't think it would hurt THAT MUCH.

hush now sweetie. dreams are well, dreams. that's why it is called the land of fantasy. baby, you will make it through like always. trust yourself will you?

head or heart

2008-10-24T20:43:00.000+08:00

head or heart?

maybe i ought to start believing in what they say.

every time she skates she takes my breath away, leaving me feeling like i could drop the whole world and just dance the rest of my life away.

you may say im a dreamer. but im not the only one.

the end draws near

2008-10-24T09:53:00.000+08:00

im sleepy. bleh.

got home late last night. my mum was supposed to pick me at 830 then it became 1030 -_-"

i feel relieved but kinda sad that ob is over. loads of thanks to my ob group mates! i enjoyed working with all of you =)

60% of our ob grades are already in and its 2 more weeks to finals and after those 4 papers sem 1 is done and over with! so thats something to look forward to i guess. haha

okies a little update.

tues was the usual lessons and ob group meeting. where they all bullied me and made me the victim coz they said i was looking weak and pale =( towards the end i couldnt contain my laughter so i burst out laughing and i told li jing to cut the end. she was like yeah otherwise NG. hahaha. good thing we didnt end up showing that video on thurs. filmed another one on wed after com fund. and i was like gee can see my eye bags leh. then they said good mah! (coz im supposed to be this stressed out employee)

oh and wed night i was supposed to see the monster for the last time but i cancelled it coz he had fever. then i spent the time doing all the ob recommendations and q&a prep. wah. i did from 645pm till 1030pm. almost went blind >.<

and thurs morning was marketing tutorial. mel's group planned the seating arrangements. we all knew what it was about but i think mr boey didnt. he must be wondering. hee. then after marketing tutorial we had ob rehearsal. and the fly kissed sze han. hahaha XD

after econs tutorial we had ob presentation. our last ob presentation. did flash, video, comic strip etc. i think we spent a lot more time on presentation than our report. which explains the B+ for our report which makes up 20% of our final grade. argh.

and after ob we had class dinner at canteen 5. steamboat. and i was in formal attire. it was so darn warm. but it was loads of fun. loads of gossips hahaha. and the uncle was really nice! he gave us a free big ice kachang! heh.

then during dinner my sec 2 boy's mum called me. and i was like oh no why she call me? then she asked if i could tutor her nephew for his physics Os which is on 29th oct and 10 nov. i was like uh i have to check my schedule first. wah i next week wanna die le. really dont have time to go revise my sec 4 physics and tutor him. but my sec 2 boy's mum has been really nice to me. i will feel bad turning her down. dilemma! sigh.

anyways by the time dinner ended i was really tired and i was feeling lazy so i bullied gabriel to help me carry my bag. hee hee.

it was a really tiring week again but i kinda enjoyed it. for all the little things *smiles*

vanish

2008-10-22T07:59:00.000+08:00

so its true. next week is stats case deadline, stats quiz 2, com mgmt written assessment, econs quiz 2 and marketing case presentation.

>.<

omg i wonder how im gonna pull through all that.

when it rains, it pours.

i feel like i just wanna run away from everything, vanish from the surface of this earth.

right now i belong to this moment, to my dreams

2008-10-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

cramps >.<

right now i belong to this moment, to my dreams

heaven and hell

2008-10-20T09:47:00.000+08:00

my body hurts like hell. this is what happens when theres a break from ballet. okay my fault. i didnt practise on my own. which is also why yesterday's session was pretty screwed up. but it was also due to the noise caused by that singing carnival at fort canning and so we closed up all the doors and windows. and the room isnt air conditioned. imagine the HEAT. yes. i was hot, tired, frustrated and i could barely concentrate. i can feel my neck, back, arms, abdominal and calf muscles aching like crap now.

but i had a really nice talk with my mum after lunch =)

and last night's dream was another night in the land of fantasy. i love sweet dreams haha ;)

free fall

2008-10-19T09:10:00.003+08:00

im exhausted. yes i know. again. i woke up this morning and i was like oh no its sunday. means its hall again tomorrow. sigh.

well at least i made my week at ntu worth it since we had com fund meeting on thurs night and ob meeting on fri for almost 4 hrs until we were all brain dead.

and i was really close to strangling the person who woke me up 3 times on sat morning leaving me awake in my bed from 1215am to almost 245am. argh. im not gonna tolerate her nonsense anymore. at least be a bit more discreet. dont SLAM the door. and THREE times. grr.

teaching grade 11th bio is tough tough tough. need to do a lot of prep work. hmm maybe i'll just stay at the secondary level instead. haha

and its one more lesson with the monster and no more for the rest of the year! mwahaha. his mum was telling him next jan then we continue lessons. and i was thinking no way! i really tried but my patience is running low and he cant be bothered to study. so i rather spend that same amount of time doing something else that i like or teaching another student who can appreciate my effort. like my sec 2 boy who scored 73% for maths final and 88% for science final. so he finally beat me at science hahaha. still far away for maths but he worked really hard and im proud of him =)

im so glad scube is done. almost 3am at canteen A on thurs morning and class was at 830am. i think it was a miracle that i could still speak. but when it came to Q&A i really couldnt think already. and not just couldnt think. i could barely process the questions.

and on wed jon sabo-ed me for the interview. i was like a zombie le then still have to think on my feet. blurted out all sorts of nonsense. haha

so yes thats my whole week in a nutshell.

my sis bought loads of russian stuff for us. i was having a choco night out last night hahaha

ballet later! im gonna get new leotard and tights after exams! =) i think my ballet shoes can still last. hopefully till pointe heh.

it feels like free fall again.

dreams

2008-10-17T21:53:00.000+08:00

if only last night's dream was real.

its been a long time since i've felt like this.

deadlines

2008-10-13T10:35:00.000+08:00

i dont know why people have problems working with deadlines. its just a date that is set aside to complete something. so just keep in line with it. is it so hard??

dreams

2008-10-12T19:02:00.001+08:00

i'm not letting you take my dreams away from me.

Plantae

2008-10-11T18:52:00.000+08:00

my maid says sometimes im moody sometimes im happy. so she gets very confused. hahaha. well im moody when i dont get enough sleep and when im stressed. im happy when its food time ;)

my mum and i made a mess in the kitchen when we tried to fry nuggets. i love nuggets with mcdonalds curry sauce heh.

and i cant remember plant and animal evolution. its like relearn from the start. AGAIN.

bryophytes. pteriodophytes. gymosperms. angiosperms.

plantae. HELP!

im so glad im not seeing all the fungi and algae.

those two. especially fungi. will give me nightmares.

thank goodness.

Choanoflagellate

2008-10-10T21:08:00.000+08:00

i never imagined i would be seeing these terms ever again.

parazoa, radiata, acoelomates, pseudocoelomates, protostomia.

how did i ever survive.

its thai express

2008-10-07T19:42:00.000+08:00

i had a wonderful 19.5 birthday yesterday and the joy mostly came from eating all my favourite thai food! haha. we ordered tom yum steamboat, seafood green curry, pineapple salad, seafood glass noodles, beef noodles, kway teow and sweet tapioca! =) initially we planned to go to swensons after that but we were too full haha.

so its less than half a year to the big TWO-OH >.<

and i came back to hall at 2pm today but im missing home already =(

just now my dad sent out a mass email looking for his cookies with his yellow clip and my mum replied to say she ate it.

me: mummy you greedy pig
mum: i was stressed out with the US
dad: where's my clip? don't consume it. i already lost my cookies.
mum: i don't need melamin
me (i almost cried from laughing): why are you two acting like KIDS

underground

2008-10-06T12:15:00.000+08:00

my ballet teacher said my pirouette was good! =) thats like the first time. okay so now i know what she wants. doesnt matter if my landing is compromised as long as theres that "moment of glory" haha. but i cant get my left pirouette right. somehow it doesnt flow. hmph.

practise practise.

i had a nightmare last night. someone. i shall not name the person. but i do know the person in real life. kidnapped me and some others. locked us up in her house. i tried to run away but i was caught. i called the police but dialled an extra 9 so it was 9999 and she laughed at me. then my second attempt was going through this underground escape route (which i read from her blog) pass the spa in the basement and i hid inside the cupboard. and she found me. but just when she opened the cupboard door i became invisible. so she couldnt see me. then i called the cops and she got arrested. the end.

i woke up and saw something wrong with my baby hippo. i dont know how come its "skin" ended up like that. like it was bitten or something. i hope i didnt end up bitting it coz of the nightmare >.<

its a feeling

2008-10-05T10:21:00.001+08:00

i was up till 1230am this morning watching "the ring" with my mum in my room. i shouldnt have turned on the tv last night. i was shaking in bed >.<

spent the entire morning doing the marketing plan draft coz things werent moving and its due for presentation in 2 weeks. i have this immense need to be in control of stuff around me. coz uncertainty and change will stress me out like crazy.

my mum said i lost weight =) i was like yeah try 5 days of fever and see how. then she said but thats 2 weeks ago, what did you do the past week? and i told her uh...all i have been doing the past week was eat and eat and eat? my maid always say you never stop eating! =X

had a very nice family bonding time last night. i'll give you all some peaks into my family life ;)

my dad comes over with this book on gems claiming that he is a shareholder of this company. he asks if i like the stones. and i said duh of course, are you gonna buy any for me? then i flip the pages, ask my mum which one she likes and i pass the book back to my dad.

me: mummy says she likes sapphires and i like diamonds so the next time you step into a jewellry store, you know what to do ;)

hee XD

dad comes to chase me off the com. i refuse to budge. i say a while more a while more but my "a while more" doesnt end. then he goes to get those party stuff and blows that party thing (i cant remember what its called).

me: mummy why is your husband like a kid?
papa: coz you refuse to move away so i have to irritate you hee hee

-_-"

me to mum: you're drinking coffee at night? how do you sleep!?
mummy: oh i dont get that effect. my problem is that i cant stay awake.
me: i wish i had that problem! i could swap mine for yours!

haha.

and last night i was lamenting that IF my dad had listened to me. i wont be stuck in the reds. IF he had sold citibank at 42 (which he bought at 35) when i told him to then i would have made US$7 per share before the tumble all the way down. and IF he had bought AIG at 42 like i told him to then sold it at 55 i would be able to vs shop more. and IF he bought BAC at 24+ when i told him to and sold it at 32+ i would have my white gold diamond ring sitting pretty on my finger right now and i wont have to deal with the fact that my credit card bills are in thousands. hmph.

so he asked me when are you gonna help me manage? what am i supposed to buy next?

haha well now i dont have any market feel. when the time comes heh.

okay brunch and then ballet =)

a shorter route

2008-10-04T18:41:00.002+08:00

i just found a shorter route from ntu to my p2 boy's house.

means i have been TRAVELLING BY A LONGER ROUTE FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS!

been such a fool.

hmph.

uh oh

2008-10-03T20:10:00.000+08:00

i broke my mummy's bottle of massage oil >.<

and i finally got down to doing the spreadsheet that my dad has been chasing me for months but i have no idea where to start and i cant find some documents.

uh oh. i had better just lock myself up in my room tonight.

winters here

2008-10-01T09:59:00.000+08:00

its only morning but im already so dead tired. its the 5am effect. i swear its the hall. or maybe just my room. i slept at 11pm on mon night but woke up at 5am on tues morning and i couldnt go back to sleep!

and i had stats test on tues. i ALMOST completed my paper. dr chen said no one managed to complete it. well if not for all the DISTRACTIONS i WOULD HAVE made HISTORY and be the FIRST to complete. ARGH. i solved the last problem but didnt have time to key in. or rather i blanked out when i saw the "you have one minute left" and it took me ages to actually register the fact that im supposed to submit it. and i did before changing my answer on the com to my answer on my paper. i COULD HAVE COULD HAVE COULD HAVE gotten 12. HMPH.

everyone told me that it is really difficult. but i think the questions are okay. the only thing is there isnt enough time. 12 questions 14 marks in 25 min. that is really insane. it requires both speed and accuracy. and a little luck coz the questions are random.

my dad thinks im overdoing tuition.

maybe i am.

less than 2 months to go. i must must hang on. esp for october.

happy children's day =)

october in the distant, or maybe not

2008-09-29T09:34:00.001+08:00

i realised that my events list is outdated so i updated it for october. 31 days and all of that. i wonder how im gonna get through october. i'll probably need anti-anxiety and anti-depressant and sleeping pills >.<

#4

2008-09-28T21:14:00.000+08:00

everything will be fine right?

when consumer confidence falls

2008-09-27T19:14:00.000+08:00

todays the 13th. so i rather not talk about it.

im gonna hide my phone in the closet and sleep with my diary tonight.

if only the talking parrot could be my voice.

when consumer confidence falls.

EP, PO, OV

2008-09-27T09:13:00.000+08:00

my sec 2 boy got full marks for his maths test! =) i love teaching him coz effort-to-performance expectancy is high, performance-to-outcome is high and outcome valence is quite alright. as for my monster EP is high but PO is low and OV is bottom rock.

see ive been seeing too much ob lately haha

and i was reading the papers just now. allswell ad is really sucky but they get free advertisement in the newspapers everyday coz people are talking about it. cunning. haha

okay time for more tuition. and im really tired of talking non-stop during lessons =(

40 hours marathon

2008-09-26T18:33:00.000+08:00

ob is done done done! =)

took me at least 40 hours to finish those 2 cases. the 40 hour OB marathon >.<

my mum said the cases very good. should ask you to present during my management summit. i was like you can ask HR to employ me as your company's ethics trainer hahaha

anyways i just got back from bio tuition. wah she asked me about plant and animal kingdoms. and the last i saw of those sponges, angiosperm, etc was in april 2007. my h3 final exam. so you can imagine how much i could actually recall. IF i recalled anything at all. haha. too bad the first 2 lesson fees goes to the agent =(

and my mummy ate the freddie choco li jing gave me *sobs* i asked her to keep it for me then she said oh it melted so i ate it for you. hmph.

okay got to rush to my sec 2 boy's house now.

ta ta

ps: my dad asked me do you have time to revise for exams? and im like revise?!? i can barely finish my tutorials and projects!

ob ob ob

2008-09-24T16:06:00.001+08:00

stupid ob case study is driving me INSANE

HOME

2008-09-23T18:13:00.001+08:00

home is still the best.

although ive been running all around spore and there wont be a day where i will get to stay at home the entire day but it beats staying in the hall. coz it feels like home =)

i went back to school yesterday to do a presentation for student leaders on how to file taxes. and it was the first time i actually used a mike. pretty cool experience. but took up so much of my time just going there and coming back.

then at night my sec 2 boy's mum came up to the room and was like boy ah can i hijack your teacher? hahaha. she needed help on excel but i was well...clueless. i know linear programming can solve it but other than that...ahem. haha.

ob today at KAP. its been a really long time since i stepped in there. i remember when i was young, on my dad's good-mood-days he would bring us down to KAP at night when he gets back from work and buy us happy meals =)

oh and the weather has been giving me headaces but tonight's water will be perfect for the long awaited swim.

spring =)

2008-09-21T21:19:00.000+08:00

ok so it was 5 days of fever on and off. when my mum came to pick me i was like see you two go to phuket to have fun and dump your sick daughter in the hall. then my mum asked if you had fever for 5 days, how did you study? and before i could say anything..my dad went study?! she was watching the stock market! hahaha yeah i was. esp thurs night. it was a really fast and crazy market.

ballet today was taken over by this non-english speaking male dancer. so he was sprouting all sorts of technical terms. okay it wasnt really technical technical but you know i have to get used to terms in chinese when my brain is quite retarded from all the medications. and his exercises left my back aching. i bet i wont be able to stand straight tomorrow and theres the tax presentation thing which i have yet to rehearse again. ahem.

and i have had enough of microsoft and boeing. like solve your own problems ok!? argh. freaking case is so many pages long. and requires all kind of extra research.

oh yes i didnt see my monster for the entire week. so my blood pressure for the week is normal ;) i was explaining electricity to my sec 2 boy. and one of the questions asked for the source of electricity in the mrt station. or was it the trains. but anyways the answer was wet cell and dynamo. and i was like uh actually i have no idea what a wet cell is. i think its out of syllabus.

the kind of things i teach my students. hee. but im glad that he transformed from this low self esteem boy to this really cheerful and confident boy under my teaching. i think it was a really long time since he got 80+ heh.

i think im starting to fall in love with teaching =)

but what is recess week when theres no time for fun? =( i need more time for myself and to get down to practising ballet. hmph.

and thanks to yi heng, i changed my font in msn to a really cool one haha

satisfaction

2008-09-19T16:19:00.001+08:00

go on and mock me stupid chocolate.

im having a craving for choco but i cant eat it coz im still sick =(

but who cares coz im happy =) my sec 2 boy messaged me to say he got 26/30 for his science test! =) he was getting 66% then i helped him revise for his common test. took 3 lessons only but he improved by 20%! omg =)

ahhh so this is what it feels like. its more satisfying when your students get good grades haha. but it still cant erase the thought of how i blew my A+ for econs by one careless mistake. multiplication and division. argh.

anyways, anyone wants to teach p3 eng at jurong east st 13? fri night. 1.5hr. 28/hr. if interested contact me at xiaoqi2001@yahoo.com.sg

the colour blue

2008-09-18T20:37:00.000+08:00

right. so i had fever on sat till tues morning. then it came back after ob meeting. but went away this morning only to come back again after skipping dinner coz i was too engrossed with my marketing slides.

being sick and medicated makes you depressed. but being sick and alone makes it even more depressing.

i actually cried just now coz im sick and my parents arent with me and im missing home so much =(

combinations

2008-09-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

a combination of both flu and cramps really does suck >.<

when the tables turn

2008-09-13T21:02:00.001+08:00

i think im coming down with flu. been sneezing away the whole day and my nose is still feeling uncomfortable =(

its definitely not the right time to fall sick.

but since when is it the right time to fall sick.

oh and guys...dress does not equal hot date. come on cant girls dress up for themselves? guys are meant to add a little colour, a little spice but they are much less important than ourselves hahaha. im feeling feministic today.

or maybe its the flu bug.

anyways i met chen just now. have fun in uk dear! its a brand new experience. and if you wanna spend more on clothes...just ship yourself home ;)

oh and someone sent me a quiz. and i somehow like quizzes. well most girls do.

gee i just realised ive been generalising a lot lately. makes me think of perceptual errors, projection, stereotyping. must be all the ob concepts floating in my brain. like just now when i saw swensons new menu with chicken rice and laksa, i started thinking about their marketing tactics.

okay i digressed a little. quiz results!

Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust In your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.

and with that im shouting out that im back to feeling normal! crying is an awesome feeling =)

im so glad to finally get my tear ducts back haha.

so a little update about the past week. econs test had a few tricky questions. i cant believe i multiplied by 2 when im supposed to divide by 2. and the worst thing is that i actually checked. sigh.

ob was some pretty nice cat fight. its really nice to sit back and watch. before we entered the sem room, we saw the debaters pacing up and down practising their speeches inside and outside the class room. and jonathan went eh did i come to the right class? why is everyone talking to themselves?

hahaha. i still find it pretty funny.

and my R&T director signed me up for some tax competition thing. i have no idea what it is. i guess i will find out soon enough. but somethings telling me that ignorance is bliss.

profs

2008-09-09T20:42:00.000+08:00

prof hooi's last marketing lecture today =(

when i read his announcement i felt my heart sink. reminded me of my fav nus plant lecturer. haha come to think of it..they are quite similar.

neways just a few days ago my dad was talking abt childcare when i asked him to buy me the tuition centre that was up for sale (haha yes). and he said that my university education is so much cheaper than my kindergarten education. i was like huh really? and then today prof hooi showed us pats schoolhouse yearly fees which is 16+K OMG! and i studied there for 4 years. must have been really really ex. but i really enjoyed it. loads of fond memories which money cannot buy =)

stats tutorial was so draggy. and he always ends class half an hour late! coz he wastes a lot of time repeating the same thing over and over again or he does unnecessary stuff. grr.

cravings.

and more cravings.

i think im becoming a pig =(

???...!!!

2008-09-08T09:34:00.001+08:00

its a monday =(

and mondays are bad because you wake up knowing is the last day of your so called long weekend. when you wake up on friday you would think theres still sat, sun and mon. then it goes on and on until mon you tell yourself school starts again tmr.

it gets rather depressing dont you think so?

ballet yesterday was intensive. i could barely catch my breath. teacher ended the class with assemble, fifth position jump, assemble, fifth position jump, glissade, assemble, assemble, fifth position jump, assemble, fifth position jump, glissade, assemble. i can do the whole routine but slowly. not at the pace she set. so it got really jumbled up and i think she gave up hahaha

but well only 8 people turned up so each of us got quite a bit of attention =)

i know its an advanced class but when she gives us really tough routines i will have the OMG we are so gonna die look on my face. and my ballet teacher said i like that face! -_-"

revival

2008-09-07T10:25:00.002+08:00

i actually had a nice long sleep despite the very eerie disruption in the middle of the night.

coz i left my charger in the hall so i had to use my old phone (but i cant find the charger either). so there was only 1 bar left. then it died while i tried to msg someone. but it revived in the middle of the night only to die yet again. it can get really freaky. to hear your phone turn on by itself then turn off by itself again. i seriously hope it was some hui guang fan zhao and not due to some external force...

okay enough of scaring myself. i got to live today and tmr without a phone =(

its nearing that time of the month and i have econs test on wed *fingers crossed*

ps: it sucks when you get all sorts of cravings before IT comes but then when IT really does come, you lose all appetite and ppl tell you to eat all you want during that time of the month coz you wont put on weight.

its black and white

2008-09-06T09:19:00.001+08:00

my sec 2 boy's math improved from 60 to 77 after 6 lessons only!! =) at first he said 23/30 then i was thinking huh so low 60+% only? i thought i did a lot of revision with him? (my brain wasnt really working. hasnt been since debate ended) only until i left his house then i punched in the calculator in my phone then realised it was 76.7%. then i had 2 reactions. first was being really glad he made such a major improvement in such a short time. second was hello i got 90+% for math in sec 2 so he is still so far away! =(

neways i wore my really cute new black dress with white pipping to my grandma's 90th bdae! its been a long time since we had a family gathering. but too bad piggy, auntie and xy werent there =(

i told my parents i wanna tutor econs to revise for my own exams. then nxt yr when i take my bio elective i shall tutor bio to revise for my bio exams. haha. but you get the best of both worlds in such cases right? =)

dissonance

2008-09-05T10:18:00.000+08:00

i think all the moving is leaving my mind confused and disoriented.

i woke up yesterday thinking that im at home only to realise that im in the hall. and today i woke up thinking im in the hall only to realise that im back at home. gee.

neways i think im pmsing. got really irritated by some people yesterday. and the worst thing is that they dont really get the signal when i try to shut them out. forth coming can be really annoying when its over done.

i was underprepared for marketing. i knew it. spent most of my time on ob. so i was really shaky during the marketing presentation. hearing my own voice shakes makes me even more nervous. sigh. but at least ob wasnt that bad. a little fumble here and there but hey we made it through! =)

the highs and the lows

2008-08-31T12:49:00.000+08:00

is starting to hate herself for vs shopping too early.

why are they having better and better sales??

damn.

ballet lesson was cancelled. apparently they sent out an email which i didnt get. gee so much for being their loyal customer. thankfully i happened to be surfing the web so i went to check sdt website and saw 31 aug sun no class. phew.

p2 tuition is off the entire week. muacks! haha. but got to add a make up lesson for my sec 2 boy. but thats alright coz i enjoy teaching him since hes willing to learn. unlike that little monster of mine who makes my life oh so very difficult. haha

in breakdown terms

2008-08-30T16:29:00.000+08:00

when ppl ask me about sch, i always tell them its insane. and some of them just somehow cant believe it when i say its worse than jc. well trust me, i didnt believe it either.

my past week was like this:

tues
1030-1230 marketing lect
1230-230 lunch
230-430 stats tutorial
430-630 ob discussion
630-8 dinner + shower
8-1030 ob discussion
1030-1130 typing out discussion notes

wed:
830-1030 marketing discussion
1030-1230 com mgmt fundamentals
1230-230 lunch
230-430 stats lect
430-630 econs lect
630-830 tac meeting
830-1030 dinner + shower
1030-1145 ob proposal

thurs:
830-1030 marketing tut
1030-1230 lunch
1230-230 econ tut
230-630 ob sem
630-645 ob discussion
645-8 dinner + shower
8-9 pack stuff

yes its a 3 day week but do u see that i really just go there and pia all the way? study study study meeting meeting meeting? and that was the week w/o weekday tuition and any quizzes/tests/presentations. imagine what it would be like with all that.

sanity

2008-08-29T13:38:00.000+08:00

you know i think it is so tough to remain sane in NBS. your to-do list just keeps growing.

im losing my sanity.

its a higher level

2008-08-28T20:12:00.000+08:00

i know ive been saying this the past few weeks but im really so dead tired. and every week seems to bring exhaustion to a higher level.

was there really something seriously wrong? coz i really dont see it! sigh.

oh and melissa and i found our source of ob entertainment ;)

2008-08-26T19:56:00.000+08:00

left my baby hippo at home. sleeping without it for the first time in more than 10 years feels like theres something, some part of me missing. i even had an half an hour dream of it. not to mention, coupled with that immense guilt, i could barely sleep. slept at 1am then woke up at 4am this morning. 3 hrs of sleep. sigh.

came back to hall after marketing lecture. wanted to take a nap. but when i looked at the empty bed without my baby hippo...i couldnt sleep =(

left hall at about 210. it was pouring so heavily. my slippers were like soaked. so i happily sat through stats tutorial barefooted. haha

had ob discussion after stats until 630. and still have some stuff on proposal to discuss so meeting again at 8 later.

cant imagine how tmrs gonna be like. marketing discussion tmr at 830am. then com mgmt fundamentals until 1230. then stats and econs lecture until 630. and then tac r&t welcome tea. gee i have a feeling im gonna need loads of mental stamina to get me through tmr.

refreshers

2008-08-24T21:42:00.000+08:00

okay i really cant recall how to key in normal distribution. its been what 9 months? sheesh. i need my notes but they are packed away somewhere....

had proj discussion until like almost 12pm last night. ended up sleeping at 1230 and woke up at 630. so i was like sleepy the whole day. went for ballet and even got the first position exercise wrong. my teacher was like wake up wake up! sigh. i hate my body clock.

i need a gc refresher course =(

for now

2008-08-21T18:53:00.001+08:00

im so glad the week is over.

thanks to marketing proj, havent really been sleeping much. thank goodness its all over. even if its only for 1 week.

went for hall dinner last night. haha actually i didnt know abt it. or knew. but i conveniently ignored it. until my toiletmate told me during the econs lect time slot. so yes i finally ponned econs lect. haha.

neways it was an 8 course dinner at executive cafe. started really late and ended really late. but i guess it was nice to meet neighbours and stuff. and the food was quite okay so yups. only thing was that it left me with no time to edit slides and prepare speech. so it was an impromptu thing for me. didnt even rehearse. my hands were like shaking -_-"

i need a nice break before i handle ob proposal next week and ob debate, marketing case and com resume on week 5.

its a nice long weekend =)

oh and perdon tortuga. tagboard is down. i have no idea why and i havent gotten down to figuring it out so erm flood my phone ba haha ;)

is that it

2008-08-17T10:39:00.000+08:00

my right feet hurts. i wonder how im gonna do ballet later when pointing hurts like nuts =(

im sleep deprived again. came home at like midnight on thurs night. had to wake up early on sat morning. and had project discussion till quite late last night. and and i havent started on my hw. wk 2 and i feel like im behind already. oh no oh no.

wrong decisions

2008-08-15T21:02:00.001+08:00

and with that red blouse goes my 2 other white blouses and 3 skirts. omg omg omg. SIGH.

why didnt anyone tell me that doing laundry requires a certain skill?

im never gonna do my own laundry again.

grr.

went back for lunch with li wen, li ling and ruifen. then cabbed to see shidah and the baby. the baby was really cute haha =) had a really tough time finding my way back. i heard my sis say something abt a straight bus from thomson. so i thought i might find one. but there wasnt any. so i had to take a bus from thomson to orchard then orchard back home. journey took like almost 2 hrs la. and i was in heels. walking around in orchard in heels. ended up with blisters and sore toes coz of all the wrong decisions made =(

came home and was too tired to do anything productive. and im still too tired. plus got to sleep early to send sha off tmr morning. so im just gonna heck and pia hw on sunday and monday. anyway thats what the long weekend is for right? haha

okay not that good afterall

2008-08-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

and in addition to that last post. ok not such a good day afterall. coz i just MACHINE WASHED my red blouse thats supposed to be HANDWASHED. and the blouse was freaking expensive and ive only worn it once. OMG OMG OMG

what a day

2008-08-14T22:03:00.001+08:00

im waiting for my dad to pick me up now so i shall blog a little about today. well despite the lack of sleep and having 8 hour lessons today..today was probaby the best day of my ntu life =) maybe it was due to my red blouse haha

my day went like this

1. started off with...wishing the freaking marketing tutorial didnt start at 830 (although i was wide awake at 6am i still didnt want to get up)

2. prayed at 7am that my toiletmates arent awake yet so they wont come into the toilet and catch me half dressed.

3. rushed through breakfast which consisted of milk, yoghurt and plum.

4. went for markteting tutorial which i really enjoyed.

5. climbed 150 steps from the bottom of the hill back to my room.

6. took out stuff to cook my lunch.

7. burnt some of the stuff so i had a hell of a time scrubbing the pot.

8. gave up scrubbing and decided heck just carry on cooking.

9. finished lunch and blasted the hall 1 office with a pwc-trained-email.

10. realised it was 12:12pm so i hurried along for econs tutorial.

11. went in saw the teacher. jaws dropped and went OMG

12. econs tutorial ended at 2:07pm. loved the teacher (for ending early) MUACKS! haha

13. went for OB with the sinking feeling knowing that lessons end at 6:30pm

14. but guess what? we got SEM group 12 and SEM ROOM 3 mixed up -_-"

15. counted down till 420 which was breaktime

16. wondered why 420 was still such a long time away

17. 420 came and we had tea break outside SR3

18. went back and counted down till 620

19. when lesson ended i thought gee why is ethics so grey (so i should prob read up)

20. went for pwc dinner

21. brought ex collegues back to view my attached bathroom

22. turn on com and saw hall 1 office reply and smiled to myself. haha

23. went over to bond with toiletmates

24. showered and while showering, wondered why people said uni is slack when i feel like im so behind already

25. went to the laundry room 3 times with a heavy basket of laundry coz the washing machines were all full

26. told myself i should have just brought my dirty laundry back

27. is sitting here blogging and falling asleep

alright goodnight =)

personal touches

2008-08-13T19:41:00.000+08:00

i just stepped into my room and then this happens:

sees the link sze han sent.
remembers the IT fair which ends on friday.
thinks oh no oh no.

digs into bag looking for phone.
dials home number.
no one picks up.

dials daddy's hp.
transferred to voicemail.
mutters oh shit.

calls mummy.
mummy picks up.
goes OMG thank goodness!

me: uh where are you now?
mummy: at the carpark going up. why?
me: oh so youre in spore?
mummy: yes
me: uh then is papa in spore? i called home but nobody picked up.
mummy: hes still in spore. leaving on fri morning.
me: oh then can u get him to call me urgently?
mummy: call u?
me: yes urgent! ok bye!

okay im really losing touch with stuff thats happening at home.

back haunting

2008-08-12T18:13:00.001+08:00

i thought my worst nightmare was over but now its back to haunt me again. barely slept the whole of last night. was in agony the whole time. sigh.

came back to hall after marketing lect to rush stats tutorial. then went to meet melissa to buy stats text. and the queue at popular was so freaking long. and we couldnt find com lab 3. so we ended up 20min late for stats tutorial. gee. ive never been so late for class before.

neways im back in the hall now. supposed to read up on stats but im so tired from the lack of sleep that my brain isnt functioning at all.

oh and i just ate my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner haha. a lot of people told me you wont grow fat during this period so can eat as much as you want. but unfortunately for me im just way too nauseous to eat anything. sigh.

hitch

2008-08-11T08:46:00.000+08:00

ballet was ahem expected. i needa get some tape to tape my fingers. i mean im busy thinking about my feet so i naturally neglect my fingers?? and it doesnt help that the position is so well..unnatural? hmph.

went to shop for cookware after ballet. im cooking this week. my first time w/o supervision of any sort =)

i watched hitch again last night.

sara: maybe you are right. we should go our separate ways and we will end up fine.
hitch: what if fine isnt enough?
hitch: what if i want extraordinary?
sara: there's no such thing.

Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it's the moments that take your breath away.

i had a really sweet dream last night. the best in months. and that sorted out everything for me =)

show me how it feels

2008-08-09T17:33:00.000+08:00

my vs shipment arrived! yay =)

i lost my patience with my p2 boy today coz he refused to understand multiplication and division. he said oh i just anyhow ans lor. i got so so frustrated i scolded him in front of his parents. but at least tuition with my sec 2 boy was enjoyable. inequalities. my favourite. haha.

ballet tomorrow. after a 3 week break. i think i know whats gonna happen. ahem. haha

show me how it feels.

mars and venus

2008-08-08T10:26:00.000+08:00

mar: altho i always wonder why ud come to me saying stuff as though its really bad/annoys you at all
mar: then eventually you'll have a whole nice rationalle where ur comfortable with it
me: well thats girls in a nutshell
mar: i noticed tt my girl friends do that a lot
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mar: it takes awhile to not only understand girls, bt know how to respond to the differences as well
me: hahaha
mar: do men baffle u as much?
me: so the most difficult thing to comprehend would be women
me: hmm sometimes
me: but i just take it that they are stupid
me: hahaha
mar: HAHAHA
mar: how meeeannn
me: haha oh too bad

campus life

2008-08-07T11:05:00.002+08:00

im waiting for my mum to pick me. cant wait to go home! finally =)

had stats and econs lects yest. stats was by this indian prof. i swear its the most boring lect ive ever attended. econs was more like hello whats the link between econs and ur idea of clip on mikes? dont waste my time. sheesh.

nicole's right. if its anything i take away from pwc compliance, that would be the effective utilisation of my time. so yes maybe i should pon econs lect and view the online version then fast forward all her nonsense. haha

went for tuition after econs lect. i guess weekday nights are good coz my p2 boy was quite tired from sch so he could sit still. well most of the time. haha.

my mum went to ask my dad for the credit card statement for 2nd half of july so that she can do her expense claims. and he saw the amount i signed for vs. and he made it a really huge issue. then he asked my mum who signed. and my mum replied xq signed. wth. im so in for it tonight la =( hello mummy, that sum included YOUR purchase??? she conveniently put the entire blame on me. how nice.

but yeah my friends are right. im spending what i earned myself so why the complaints since its MY money and not yours?

i was telling melissa i bought those stuff during the clearance sale. and the bras there cost slightly more than triumph? so i dont mind paying a little premium for the vs brand. haha

went to the hall office just now to get the fridge declaration form. they said they will mail it to us and we have to return it. and im like can i email instead? coz i live at block 12 which is all the way up. its quite a long distance to and fro. (its a 45 min walk up and down the other side of the hill. not the NBS side)

btw i did my own laundry this morning and it was a success! =) i called my mum and i was like uh how much powder to put? where do i put it? uh how to start the machine? how long does it take to complete? after it was done i looked into the machine and i was like hmm it looks kinda weird..all kinda wrinkled and compact. i guess thats erm normal? right? haha

so anyways i walked into NBS this morning in my nbs tee and fbt shorts. and ppl gave me the omg-why is your shorts so short-look. well honey its not my fault that they always run out of S sizes and refuse to increase the number of S sizes (im pretty sure it happens all the time).

household chores attempt 1

2008-08-06T10:18:00.000+08:00

hmm i think i needa buy kiwis next week coz i just cant sleep at night =( slept at 11pm. woke up at 2 am. slept at 3 am. woke up at 4 am. slept at 5 am. woke up at 730am (coz i forgot to turn off my alarm) -_- if the kiwis dont churn miracles...im gonna reach for the pills and hope that i dont end up hallucinating.

oh yes i swept my floor just now. i took the broom and dustban and i was like ok so how do people sweep floors? and i was like uh shit. and i emptied my dustbin haha. but i still have no clue on how mops work. so i shall go home and consult my maid on that. im calling my maid tomorrow morning on how to operate washing machines heh. i should buy an idiot's guide on household chores soon. im gonna attempt to clean the toilet and the other parts of my room tomorrow after i learn how to operate that washing machine. i remember my sis brought home soapy clothes coz she didnt know how to use the machine too hahaha

Day 1

2008-08-05T18:59:00.000+08:00

day 1 of school.

shall not talk about the walk from hall to LT2A haha

anyways OB lect was well OB. her voice wasnt clear coz she clipped the mike too far away. video was blur. and her accent was strong. but good thing maketing was kinda funny haha. makes me miss my plant lecturer. too bad hes in nus and retired =( went for lunch at hall 2 with tutorial mates. 6 degrees of separation huh mar? haha.

oh then on the way to get dinner, i ran into this girl who looked very familiar and then she came up to me and went are you from nj? and i was like yea haha

i called home just now and my maid picked up. she screamed when she heard my voice haha. i miss home. been here for less than 2 days and im already homesick =(

ntu day 1

2008-08-04T18:11:00.000+08:00

im blogging coz i really have nothing to do right now bleh. my sis friend was supposed to return me the texts but she didnt. grr.

neways orientation wasnt that bad. haha. left after lunch to collect my room keys. took me almost 45min to find the hall office? coz its not on the freaking map. grr. by the time i was done, i decided to come back and shower. geez i dont know why they enjoy hiding the hall office.

oh and i think i have to climb almost 200 steps from LKC to my room. shall count tmr ;) i probably climbed a thousand today. but i guess its worth it since my block's feng shui very good. and i get the lake view =)

i decided that i shall bring in a fridge and cook dinner, lunch out. since by the time i get back to my room im way too tired to move my butt to the canteen. haha

ok im just ranting nonsense. i told you im really bored. stuck in the hall alone. with 4 hours to kill and i still cant sleep. sigh. the sleeping pills on my shelf are mocking me =(

but yet again

2008-08-03T16:11:00.000+08:00

ok a quick one since vs site is down. just when im about to key in my credit card number. sheesh.

ah yes that department screwed up again. duh. they called to "explain" how they arrived at 70.8. and im like if for 2 timesheets its 70.8, isnt it pretty OBVIOUS that when i add another timesheet the 70.8 figure will change??

she said you got to know that we have to calculate blah blah blah and i told her yes i understand so i personally calculated everything for you and sent you an email of all the breakdown which you can use as a reference but you disregarded it. so tell me, understand what when ive been so accommodating?!

then she said wah you poor thing ot so much. and i said well the worst part is calculating my ot hours and explaining it to you. my mum asked me if i really said that. and i told her of course i did, i couldnt tolerate them anymore. im only human right? theres a limit to what i can take. once or twice is fine. but seriously, its just way too much nonsense. i told my mum im not asking them to be smart. im just asking them to not be stupid. now is that too much to ask for?

so neways i went back for lunch with my seniors and ruifen on fri. went up to the office to say hi to everyone =)

and yest my p2 boy refused to sit still. i told im gonna bring superglue to glue his butt to the chair. and guess what? he moved around even more and said you can bring superglue next week! *grins* i was like omg..then towards the end i said you dont want to sit right? ok then stand. and i pulled away his chair. geez im gonna bring a string next lesson. no wonder shidah said better to have kids earlier otherwise you wont have energy to run around after them. right now they are already way too hyperactive for me. imgaine 11 years down the road.

im moving in this evening. and i think ok yeah i shall just grit my teeth and go for orientation tmr. but i really really hate ice breaker games. i dont just dont like them. i HATE them. sigh. and no its not about being shy (tsk) i just dont like new environments. they stress me out somehow. maybe you're right, i resist change too much.

to solve or to create?

2008-07-31T09:50:00.001+08:00

argh. i thought they could do better but they never fail to disappoint. honestly they really make my blood boil.

first time was when they computed wrongly and i wrote an email to inform them about it. and they denied. duh. so they said well you could come down to the dept to sort it out. so i went down and then oh suddenly they realised that yeah they left out something. ok 1st mistake. wasted one and a half hour of my time. i can forgive the error (human nature) but i cant forgive their attitude.

second time was when it was nearing my last day and i had to personally send an email to remind them that my last day was coming and ask whens the deadline to hand in all the forms since they conveniently forgot to send out an email. ok you forgot. i can somewhat let it go.

third time was when i went down personally to hand in the forms so that it gives you time to compute. but oh what happened this time? you lost it. but fortunately, i knew that somehow such a thing could happen so i always kept my own records. thumbs up for me =) they still had the cheek to say oh in this case we would accept a copy. no apologies whatsoever. so i told them okay but please go and zap a copy coz im keeping one in case you guys lose it again.

and if that wasnt enough...you computed wrongly AGAIN. then you say oh its not much of a difference. well if 54 bucks isnt a big difference to you, you could always give it to me you know. coz i freaking came back over a weekend to slog. and that time was when i argued with my parents over my ot-ing hours. yeah so the least you could do is really to erm brush up on your maths??

and thats not the end. i received a phone call. you gave me some stupid numbers that didnt make any sense to me. then you say oh we cannot delay already we have to get it signed by this morning. im like "yes i understand so can you scan me a copy of your workings and i will verify it immediately so that you get a written confirmation from me instead of a verbal one?" coz i really dont trust them. let alone let them sign on MY behalf OMG. literal chinese translation: i do know how the word "die" is written.

so what if there was another error (very high probability). you are gonna revise? and then you cant issue cheques for amounts under $200? then are you gonna say oh its not a big sum. or are you gonna make me come down again like the other department coz they took so freaking long to process my claim. well if you choose the latter, you will have to reimburse my taxi claims to and fro and compensate me for my time wasted due to your lack of efficiency and well, brains. it is not the least bit unreasonable isnt it?

it got me thinking...didnt that department exist to SOLVE problems? how come they seem to be CREATING problems? and im like SOLVING their PROBLEMS for THEM!?? well then shouldnt you hire me instead of them?

up in the air

2008-07-30T16:18:00.000+08:00

everythings still up in the air =(

love her first two jumps in this! =)

post pwc days

2008-07-29T19:06:00.000+08:00

no no Li Wen i havent been slacking. unfortunately. ive been pretty busy actually. i thought work stress was the reason for my interrupted sleep. but nope. gah i really shouldnt touch the sleeping pills. not yet not yet. im not desperate enough to risk amnesia and hallucinations.

the past few days were spent like this:

sat..went for a jog in the morning then tuition tuition till late afternoon. managed to find my sec 2 boy's house on my own! well yeah i got a little lost but i made it in the end =))

sun morning was spent packing away all the stuff i brought back from pwc then met zhenling for lunch and shopping. both of us spent quite a bit haha. went to paris miki to get my trial daily contacts. i got the biweekly ones a couple of weeks back but i lost the left one the very next day. yes. grr. neways sorry dear for all the last minute changes heh.

went to uncle kim's house for bbq on sun night. the otah, crayfish and sweet potato were yummy! =) my mum kept sending back stuff to thomas for recooking hahaha

oh and the stupid ntu website. matriculation started from 10am on mon so i sat in front of my com and opened up all the necessary windows but then the server was down. wth. i called the help desk like 8 times? and it was either unavailable or no one picked up. grr. ended up matriculating successfully only after noon. neways im in group b =( but on the bright side..mines a 3 day week! tues to thurs! but yeah its fully packed from morning till evening. not late afternoon. its EVENING. so i will end up spending mondays and fridays completing tutorials haha.

went to NUH this morning. laser hair removal is really really really expensive. but i guess if i live till 75..it would be uh sorta worth it? hmm.

and weather's been really hot the past few days. had a really bad headache just now. i shall go for a swim later to cool off. didnt shidah say that its the monsoon season now? =(

PwC IAS7 2008

2008-07-26T16:22:00.001+08:00

a 7 month journey (well almost) at pwc. i really love working there. with those amazing people who are more than just colleagues. im gonna miss them loads! =(

had a pretty grand farewell. a lot of people came to give me my farewell present. many thanks to all for the very wonderful and touching card (all of them are guilty of making me cry) and the paris miki vouchers. not to mention all the lunch treats by Li Wen, Anna, Michelle, Shidah and May -HUGS-

Cindy and May said that they are gonna blacklist me in the audit, assurance and corporate tax depts so that i can only go back to personal tax. hahaha.

i spent the whole of yest passing on work heh. and clearance was really so troublesome. but i walked out of pwc building at 8pm last night. pricewaterhouse coopers. thank you so much for the amazing 7 months. i will be back ;)

its a cycle

2008-07-23T20:24:00.000+08:00

when you get to the end, you start to think about the beginning. those fond memories. if only things could always be so simple and innocent. unfortunately, reality is often harsh. times like those come and go. it will never be the same again.

the dark night

2008-07-19T19:11:00.001+08:00

took mc yest to see the doc. she saw me for 3 min, prescribed antibiotics and charged me 48 bucks for that. geez.

neways had a pretty eventful day today. started off with tuition at 1030. and my p2 boy's mum told me that tuition shortened to 1 hr only when i got there. like wth. i take a bus and a train and then another bus to get to the ulu location. i wont do it for 1 hr. if she does it again im gonna tell her the min i do is 1.5 hr. for 1 hr she can go find someone else coz my fixed cost and time cost are way too high and i cannot guarantee anything with just an hr a wk. and i absolutely abhore last minute notifications. i had to change my sec 2 tuition from 2pm to 1pm and i hate changing tuition session last minute esp when its the first lesson. grr.

and i was supposed to alight at beauty world but i went all the way to nj. and i was like isnt KAP the other direction? did i erm miss the bus stop like a really long time ago?? so by the time i got there it was almost 130. but my sec 2 boy is a really really nice boy. on fri night i asked him what topics would he like me to go through since its the first lesson and he said algebra and linear graph. so i did a mindmap on algebra for him and he said actually thank you! my p2 boy doesnt thank me so i was quite amazed haha. and he goes teacher teacher teacher or miss huang. i feel kinda old when he calls me that coz my p2 boy calls me by my name. hmm maybe thats why my p2 boy doesnt really give me as much respect as my sec 2 boy does.

then my mum came to pick me to go watch the dark knight. someone asked me to watch that on thurs night. and i was like come on its batman its not my type of movie. but i must say i was really impressed by the dark knight. though i feel its a pity that the bad guy becomes the hero and the good guy has to take the blame =( but its definitely a show worth watching. a lot of unexpected twists in it. you really dont know whats going to happen next. well provided you dont read all the spoilers. granted that i went in there only knowing that its a batman show heh.

i really wanted to go for a swim tonight but thanks to the usual thing, there goes my plan. bleh. though i think i will settle for a night in after being out the whole day.

you know i grew up thinking that im going to get my masters. but now im asking myself why do i need a masters? then i think shit if i werent doing my masters i should have taken double degree acc and biz. and its too late for that. maybe i should just stop thinking and stick to the plan. i never really liked change coz it comes with uncertainty and with that, risk. and i dont like taking unnecessary risk that i havent really gotten down to calculating the standard deviation.

ok i sound really crappy today. so i better stop here haha

shut up please

2008-07-16T20:57:00.000+08:00

forget it im just gonna wait for the next big sale. i dont need that vs dress. i have my pretty white dress from japan. i just need to hold that thought and keep it there.

NOOOOOOOO HOW COULD I MISS IT

ok voice at the back of my head shut up please.

work is piling up and im not the least bit bothered. kinda unusual. neways HR confirmed that my mc cannot supersede my unpaid leave. grr. stupid policy. funny thing is i can work like crazy and not fall sick but when i go on a vacation, i end up falling sick. it makes me wonder if work is my health supplements or something.

and and the mangers wont be in tomorrow! im leaving at 530 sharp ;)

hate that i love you

2008-07-15T21:35:00.000+08:00

i was flipping through my calendar. did i miss a month or was i too busy i forgot to mark the dates? and my blog shows no records. argh.

its nightfall and im wondering how i spent my day. doesnt sound too good does it?

beyond the reason why and it just aint right

feeling worse

2008-07-14T21:31:00.001+08:00

made a huge mistake to go to work today. now i feel really horrible. people were like are u sick? coz u look sick? ok crap i feel like shit. i think im gonna mc tomorrow. anyway they gave me so many sick leave. but i maxed out my medical claim already so i made full use of that thanks to the heart scan thing haha.

i had my eye on this really nice vs white and pink bra and now its gone and im sad coz if i hadnt ding-dong-ed around, i would have gotten it. regrets regrets SIGH =(