Profile__________
>HUANG XIAOQI
>6 April 1989
>Aries
>dancer, ballerina
>Tumble Tots 1991-1992, Pats Schoolhouse 1993-1994 (Dalvey, Protoceratops), Pats Schoolhouse 1995 (Whitley), Henry Park Primary School 1996-2001 (1A,2A,3G,4C,5B,6B), Crescent Girls' School 2002-2005 (keller, 1G2, 2G2, 3C1, 4C1), National Junior College 2006-2007 (og26 solaris, 06S24 terra), National University of Singapore 2007 semester 2 (LSM1103, A7, B5), Nanyang Technological University - Nanyang Business School 2008-2009 (Group B)
>PwC 2008 IAS 7 Team A

Likes__________
ballet, dancing, figure skating, shopping, watching romantic comedies and chinese drama serials, blogging, spanish, psychology, hairstyling, piano, baking, most water sports, go karting

Wishlist__________
>PwC audit internship
>1st class honours
>Masters
>Financial Freedom
>perfect eyesight
>white gold heart shaped diamond ring ;)
>lisa harris: my favourite ballet class cd
>songs in wu dong quan cheng (the whole city is dancing: steps)
>a new leotard
>a dance partner
>learn pointe
>sponsorship for driving lessons
>a guinea pig
>a dwarf bunny
>baby pink vaio laptop!
>sasha cohen's autograph

Tag here!__________

Events __________

>practical test 13 march 2009
>internship may 2009

Links__________

| Blogger|

| sis| | bro |

| cousin|

| 06S24| | ang si min |

| chendrawati ong | | sabrina wong |

| ain| | julie ong |

| lu yuan mei | | ivy wong |

| crystal soh| | yu lu |

| tasya| | eunice ho |

| qiu xin hui| | tay siang hong |

| jasmine sim| | pauline hwang |

| marcia andriani| | esther teo |

| jack lim| | ho jia yi |

| eileen poh | | yeoh yun jie |

| janice chen (aka tortuga)| | ke cai ling |

| samantha eng| | jean chong |

| ode kakeru| | wang yueh hsin |

| lim xian yong| | jie lin |

| jessica lo| | tsai zhenling |

| li sha | | teresa tay |

| debra han | | lim peiyi |

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Monday, October 30, 2006

why do i still hope when i know that i cant change the fact that this has to happen? i dont want anyone else. i jus want you. yes, u will still be around. but it wun be the same. coz u wun be around me anymore. u will no longer be near me. no longer by my side anymore. it isnt the same.

i dont like seperations. i dont like it. but everytime it has to happen. and every single time without fail it is always such a painful process to me. sometimes i think its better to not feel anything. i dont want feelings. i dont want emotions.

i want to turn back the clock. i want to go back.

i dont want you to go away.

dont leave me.

dont go...



tag replies:

janice: ya ya ya watever...my knee still hurts though. but yea gracias =)

crystal: hey! haha thanks! i saw ur "blank post". it isnt blank ;) i hope things work out for u =)

mar: finally! yea ok thanks *hugs* and uh why a smoky trail? wats the link? heh. ur deshi hopeless haha..

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 6:10 PM

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Sunday, October 29, 2006

i officially declare i hate my body.

alright i know it was supposed to be a 28 day cycle but mine used to be a 35 day cycle. and for watever reason it is now a 15 day cycle with extra heavy flow and longer days. is this a make up?? coz i dont like it.

lack of sleep. i hate my body reason number 2 - i always wake up before 630 no matter how late i sleep.

didnt blog yest coz i practically wasnt home the whole day.

SAT 1st. bleh. i think im pretty screwed. saw my results and almost died. even if i study 24/7 SAT for one month i dun even think i'll reach my 2200 target. haiz. i have never written an SAT essay before. the style is different from our usual gp essay. so yest was my 1st. n i actually scored better on my writing section compared to my critical reading

but one reason why i did so badly coz it was so noisy!! the teachers were so talking so loud while i did the test. stupid. i think they did it on purpose. to lower ur pre-course score to show u that it does go up -_-" i keep reading the same sentence 10 times. couldnt concentrate! plus the test was on the com. which killed my eyes. 3.5 freaking hrs staring at the screen. i am in need of carrots now.



then we went shopping. or so called "shopping". coz we didnt buy anything. oh the "we" refers to my mum and i. places like tangs and taka seems to cater to women abt 25-30 years old. the clothes there are too matured for me and too young for my mum.

and at tangs we visited this shop called the singapore shawl. im doing free advertising for the owner coz the shop was set up for the jobless and unemployed. the shawls there are really really very very nice!! i wanna buy!! but its like $100+++. yea u get it. but the quality is really really good. so if ur looking for presents for ur mum or watever, yea the shawl is good. really easy to wear. sticks in place. wun fall off. and u wun strangle urself trying to put on the shawl. the prints and colours are nice too! very classy.

she even gave us (the crowd) dressing tips. uh ladies only heh. if ur top and bottom is of the same colour then it is 1 point. top and bottom diff colour 3 points. matching accessories 1 point each. not matching 3 points in total. shoes 1 point. floral prints 3 points. so u shld always be abt 6-8 pts. <6>8 u are an early christmas tree. she made us count the our pts on the spot. i was at 7.

she also taught us how to fold a rose using a scarf. nice! so if u r jus passing buy can jus go over to peng chang. know what i mean? yea show ur support if u cant buy the shawl =) very nice lady. management consultant but has her own training company. i was asking my mum u sure u dun want to hire her for ur company's training and development?

oh n she does micro franchising. meaning she charges very little fees. coz its all for charity.

after that we came home then went to sicc. and chen, yw, si min and janice all sms me at the same time -_-" chen, yw and si min even better. all ask the same qn. i got to repeat the ans 3 times. and jus now yyw sms me to get more info again. im gonna have to reply the same ans i replied to chen. they all ask me how to study for chinese. so i told them go buy the lian xi. but i think its a little too late already.

i think staying out is great. coz i can control my diet more. staying at home = staying in the kitchen -_-"

chinese tmr. 2 hr transport for 1.5hrs lesson. wat a waste of time. initially it was 1 hr a day SIAO LA! i requested to combine the days. so she combined to 2. i asked her combine all in 1 day can? she say cannot. like have all these lessons for show. no use one. cannot combine otherwise she will seem like she isnt doing her job!

i miss crescent chinese teachers. and their 2 wk intensive chinese lessons from morning till 3+. morning in sch do chinese. come home still got so much chinese hw. do chinese the whole day. repeats everyday for 2 wks until so shiok! those who never been through it think im insane. those who went for it share the same sentiments as me. it isnt that easy to understand.

oh and i remembered wrongly. i was so young then la. but neways my name means river. so it is "rio" in spanish. but i dunno how to pronounce it yet. i always thought water but actually i got mixed up. coz i lack the water element so my dad took it from a river for me. my 淇 is from some river. usually ppl's one is this 琪. mine special. so remember!

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 11:53 AM

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Friday, October 27, 2006

my dad scolded me this morning for not studying for SAT. tmr's the test by high q. i lied i did study. but tmr's result will reflect the truth.

im jus so so tired. like after the Os. the same feeling. i dun feel like doing anything except lying in the grass under the blue sky and sleeping forever. one whole year of jc is really exhausting. i dun dare imagine how next year is gg to be like.

i was telling si min so fast less than 1 wk and we will be taking chinese As. seems like we jus took Os yest. so im supposed to be studying for chinese now. and ppl ask me why bother studying when u sure get A? i have no idea. makes me feel more at ease? well at least for this year i did crescent's chinese proud =)

i havent showed anybody at home my progress report.


my dog pee on my carpet yest. then i found out that my carpet had a hole so i got a new carpet heh.

oh n my chem marks wasnt right. added 2 marks. and they printed the progress report before we saw the script. smart right?? my percentile supposed to be so much higher. it is a lot ok? more than 5%. stupid great idea of nj's.



XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 2:48 PM

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Thursday, October 26, 2006

im so tired i jus wanna glue my butt to the chair forever.

i went up all the way to sigma lab to hand in the h3 nus form. then all the way down 5 storeys. and then i realised i didnt have my waterbottle. so i went up to the LT then down to the letter tray then up to TA12 then up to sigma lab again where i found it.

and then from sigma lab i climbed all the way down then walked out of main gate all the way to the bus stop. i got home so tired i jus wanted to collapse and die.

sch today was a waste of time again. as usual. principal contact in the morning followed by lectures. turn up rate was so bad. like 80% of the j1s pon lectures. i wonder why i went.

bio prac was cancelled. mr tiew went for home relief so econs cancelled. phy cancelled too. or basically there was nothing to teach coz we are so ahead. so i sort of ended sch after maths lec which was at like 11+.

ate lunch at home yay!!

i think the nus ppl are gonna laugh at my application. bio although B but below average still dare apply for h3. even my maths percentile higher than bio. crap. sigh. i jus hope i'll get it so i wun have a chance of getting physical chem. coz i will jus die with physical chem.

i was helping janice sort the progress report. then someone didnt have it. and i was like is it coz no progress? XD

oh n i brought the card but forgot to bring the pressent -_-" joycelyn was like u blur sotong!

my dad bought this $600 de-humidifier from tangs. siao. i rather buy a gown.


we got so much hol hw haiz.

why is it guys find it so hard to express their feelings? is it they think by hiding those emotions they will be a real man? i think it turns them into cowards. i really want to open up his brain and see who does he really like.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 1:57 PM

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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

im glad i didnt listen to wyc. she said we had to go to sch in the morning today for temp taking and wait till 2:15 for our tech run. gg to sch for 15 min for a tech run in the afternoon is dumb enough. gg to sch in the morning for temp taking is even more dumb.

janice later on told me that wyc informed her at 10+ that we dun need to go for assembly. but janice couldnt inform everybody in time. im glad i slept my fill coz it was such a nice cold morning =)

MATHS TEACHERS! sigh...

so i made it to the celebration last night coz the security guard chased us out of the meeting room heh. we were supposed to start at 2 but ended up starting at 2:30 only. ended at 4pm. and that janice keep clicking on every photo and replaying the dancing scenes. argh.

and jus now she told me over msn that xl behind her now and asked if i wanted to show him the video. i was like NOOOOOOO! i think i'll jus die on dry run and the actual thing when everyone sees it.

and sick la! the dinner was vegetarian buffet -_-" im supposed to lose weight not put on somemore! oh and my grandpa keep eating jelly. gosh he ate so many of them. we were getting so worried coz he only ate jelly. pay so much for the buffet and he only ate jelly. plus old ppl shldnt take in so much sugar right? so we wanted to take the plate of jelly away from him. then he was so afraid we wun let him eat so he ate them faster! oh freak -_-" took a lot of pics. if nice then i upload heh.

i kept drinking the herbal soup. i love soup! and i kept feeding my grandma soup too since she said she wanted hot stuff. so my grandparents sat in the room while we went out to get food for them. i filled the entire table with foodie! yay! got scolded by everyone for that. hees. but yea it was nice family bonding. i think i shld starve myself for 3 days =(

tech run was stupid. and uh we forgot to request for disk drive. so we are gonna use external hard disc. we blasted the music for our ad hees.

oh my guppy gave birth to so many babies. i didnt manage to see them popping out. my maid did. but later on the guppy died. sob. and my maid went to squeeze the dead guppy's stomach and out came another baby guppy. but its dead already. sigh.

i was so afraid my maid would disect it!

and that day bio lec the documentary we saw said that men use more parts of the brain to read emotions. i was like oh no wonder they are so insensitive!

n jus now when i got into the lift this guy came in too. then i asked him which floor. he said 13, thank you. then before he got out, he turned around and looked into my eyes and said thanks. gosh i was so stunned i could only smile back. ahahaha...

yea to get rid of one addiction u have to get another addiction. im so in love with princess hours! i dun usually watch korean dramas coz they are so so so slow. but this one is fast enough ;) and it is so funny! the highlight of my day...

i keep dwelling in fantasy i think my soul will never come back to reality!

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 6:32 PM

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Tuesday, October 24, 2006

i dont know if i'll make it tonight. sigh. my grandpa's 89th bdae and coz of pw i might have to give his celebration a miss. i dun like the thought of it. 89th bdae and im not there for him...

i'll be at home ALL BY MYSELF (meant to be sarcastic).

on the bright side, i'll get to watch the fairy of the chalice and princess hours. yes i watch 2 channels at a time. sometimes 3 ;) and i dun have to eat the vegetarian meal at the celebration coz vegetarian meals makes me hungrier for watever reason. and i get to sleep at 9:30pm. then i'll wake ppl up tmr with my smses as i did to pei tsung this morning ;)

ok i fail at comforting others and i fail at comforting myself. i still feel upset.

when my mum expected As it drove me insane. but when my mum is happy with my horrible grades it makes me wonder if she's given up on me =( instead of me having to explain my grades as i usually have to, she came up with excuses for me. like i picked the wrong qn to do. RIGHT.

oh n jus now instead of writing 笨鸟先飞 i wrote 笨鸡先飞! gosh no matter how smart the chicken it also wun be able to fly la *slaps forhead*
alrights. lunch time.


lets make this work

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 12:01 PM

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Monday, October 23, 2006

OH WOW! next year's good fri falls on my birthday! OH YAY OH YAY!! i've been waiting for this day ever since i could think independently. yea. I LOVE 2007!

why did i suddenly go check the calendar? good qn.

i checked the biodiveristy course outside ph11 today. it is tues 4-6pm lecture, fri 2-6pm prac. i wonder why they have 4 hrs prac. i hope it is like a field trip or something. then maybe i'll get to catch fishes!! XD and since mon and wed are CO days then mon, tues, wed, fri i end sch so freaking late. so my best day is thurs! i hope.

i was telling janice that now i have 4 days for public hols to fall on. and she said but i heard a lot of public hols next year on thurs. OH FREAK! and it is true. CRAP! 4 against 1 and yet...im so unlucky!

Scheduled Public Holidays for 2007
New Year's Day
*Monday 1 January
Chinese New Year
**Sunday 18 February Monday 19 February
Good Friday
Friday 6 April
Labour Day
Tuesday 1 May
Vesak Day
Thursday 31 May
National Day
Thursday 9 August
Hari Raya Puasa
Saturday 13 October
Deepavali
Thursday 8 November
Hari Raya Haji
Thursday 20 December
Christmas Day
Tuesday 25 December
* The following Tuesday, 2 Jan 2007, will be a public holiday in view of the Hari Raya Haji on 31 Dec 2006 falling on a Sunday. ** The following Tuesday, 20 February 2007, will be a public holiday.


and i wun be looking forward to next year's sch hols. coz after EVERY hol we have exam. so why call it hol? shld call it mugging days -_-"

sch is such a waste of time. i sneaked out during gp. jus for a little while. watching some dumb movie we couldnt even understand -_-" masnidah taste is so bad.

climbed all the way up to sigma lab to take back my h3 application form. last time i handed in so hurridly it was kinda incomplete. so now i have until thurs to finish it off.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 5:01 PM

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Sunday, October 22, 2006

RETAIL THERAPY!

i bought 8 blouses in 1 day! yea i know GOSH! sooooo niceeeeeeee! even bought 1 FILA shirt to entice me to exercise. cool yea? and i bought a pair of black pants too. yay! I LOVE SHOPING!

now i need the influx of functions to parade. esp my nice oh so nice red blouse. hees XD i'll upload pics when i get the chance to wear them!

wanted to buy this tommy pants. size 2p. my size. but coz i put on weight. i couldnt fit into it. OH FREAK! now i gotta lose weight. i need monthly NAFA and road run!!

many thanks to those who tagged and smsed encouraging words. someone loves you. yes. and it isnt jus 1 but so many of them. i love all of u =)

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 8:58 PM

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Saturday, October 21, 2006

i still dun want to talk abt it. and today there are more things that i dont want to talk abt. i wonder why i keep loving ppl who constantly hurt me. isnt it better to jus love myself?

i translated the meaning of my name to spanish. and it turned out to be "agua" which is pronounced as ah-goo-ah. EEW!

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 7:34 PM

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Friday, October 20, 2006

i dont want to talk abt it

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 4:39 PM

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Thursday, October 19, 2006

ok i remembered i had something burning to say but i kinda forgot heh.

neways im binging now. yikes! coz tmr is doom's day. and it starts off with the doom paper. i provided irrelevant ans to the cancer essay qn. so im pretty screwed =(

got back phy paper. everyone improved by more than 5 marks, some even 10+. and yet i got the same marks for promos as i did for common test. so i did a lot worse =(

wyc was asking me for someone's no. coz she failed overall. couldnt promote. i was so shocked coz i wasnt expecting the person to be her. neways i was the 1st to know. and i was so freaked out. made me even more scared. i hope they will reconsider her coz i really dun want to lose a classmate and see next year's class list with only 23 ppl's names. it hurts.

my maid wanted to learn spanish too so i taught her. and this morning before i left i said bye, she said adios XD

mood swing last night. maybe im putting myself under a lot of pressure. but i cant help it. and i dunno what i'll do tmr if i cant meet h3 criteria. so if i uh cry, jus ignore me coz the more u say, the more i cry.

janice and i are suffering from dry lips. and no we havent been sharing food and drinks. we think its the haze. but we see no connection. so uh anybody else suffering from it? or both of us are the only weird ones?

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 5:42 PM

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Wednesday, October 18, 2006

started off the morning with diarrhea after chem. then headache in the afternoon. tortuga was sick and absent. made me feel even worse. but yea i think its the weather and the stupid haze.

hardly anyone understands wat Advanced Placement credits are abt -_-" they think it is h3 courses -_-"""" ok fine i'll explain it. sigh.

spore unis are failures coz they basically dun offer these courses. but SMU does coz it is like a US uni. so advanced placement courses are like uni courses. jus that u take them before entering uni so u can claim credits. in other words, u complete some courses ahead of others so u can slack in uni or u can graduate earlier. up to u. so very flexible.

BUT since only SMU offers AP therefore u cant transfer credits from one uni to another uni, like in the states. so unless in the end u really go to SMU, ur credits are otherwise rendered useless unless other business schs decide to take them into account.

those who take h3 may be able to claim AP credits. this was mentioned during all briefings. and i thought everyone knew. but apparently they didnt. and the worse thing, they didnt even bother to ask -_-"

neways chinese teacher didnt come today. argh. i shld have pon sch la. bleh. did 1 lian xi only coz the rest were making so much noise. i had to pluck in my mp3. but it later on died =(

oh yes the compre in there. idiotic. i feel like bashing up the writer. he made our problems seem so simple. like so easy to solve. he talked abt why teenagers shldnt commit suicide. family problems: we cant do anything abt it. studies problems: we jus have to wait till we graduate. relationship problems: makes love more valuable. wth.

pe was kickboxing. dumb. i dun like it.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 5:35 PM

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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

physics today CANCELLED! OH YEAY!

uh i wonder why chinese lesson group discussions the teacher always asks me to present and not the rest of the members =( loads of chinese hw to complete gahhh

got back chem mcq. sigh. so many mistakes. oh man...mr goh said some classes had 100% pass rate and 80% As and Bs GOSH!

i got more YES (youth employment singapore) stuff to write. more cip hrs to enter ;)

i was doing SAT last night. subject verb agreement. loads of stuff to do for SAT too. pre-test aim is 1900! i doubt i'll make it though.

oh yea the other day my grandma was saying the news reported 3 people drank fruit juice then ended up paralysed. i was like en en tan huan tan huan and continued drinking it XD

saw my acjc neighbour jus now. she ends sch at like 2pm latest. reason? post promos what! yea right i wished! nj's teachers and students are overworked. im tired. esp when the crow woke me up again this morning at 6am. argh. and it was esp loud this time. RAH I WANNA KILL U!

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 3:35 PM

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Monday, October 16, 2006

when i looked outside this morning, for a sec i thought i was in the states during winter. the nice fog in the early morning. except that this fog smelt bad.

my neighbour gave me a lift to sch. yay! and i only realised that i forgot to tie my seatbelt after like 10 min. coz yea i usually do away with it ;)

i requested to be excused from CO till after chinese paper. siao la! didnt even give us a break at all! argh i tot after open day can finally breathe then who knows they took away my oxygen tank yet again.

chem lec started new chp -_-" maths tutorial tmr also new chp -_-" bio lec showed cloning video. made me feel so threatened.

my dad wants me to go for SAT classes. oh crap. there goes my whole nov. starts on 3rd and ends on 29th. every mon, wed, fri 6:30-10:00pm. 3.5 freaking hrs! plus my brain switches to hibernation mode from 9pm onwards. sigh. n the course is like $1500 excluding test fees which is another 70+.

heh i was suaning janice jus now with ahemS. haha! well he did act like he OWNED u! eek gross!!

so as long as chem do ok. bio overall get B then i'll get my H3. oh come on bio pls dun let me down! oh n mr tsang said too late to add 1 mark to my promos paper =(

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 4:29 PM

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Sunday, October 15, 2006

lake house was good!

although the plot was quite ridiculous, it was so romantic i could jus melt. sigh. niceeee.

i couldnt settle on an outfit. ended up wearing a dress i havent worn in 3 years. bought it 3.5years ago. sec 2. yea i can still wear it. jus lengthen the strap =)

i kept admiring my pink toenails. nice. esp when my heels are silver. i think i'll continue painting my toenails.

but uh i watched it alone. again. coz my parents watched it yest while i had co performance. doesnt anyone reading this have sicc membership? i mean anyone! not jus ppl i know. i really could use some company. no high expectations. jus someone decent enough. yea.

my dad was talking abt all the rich men sending their kids to private banking and investment houses to manage the family's fortune. no wonder he wants me to do banking. but nah im not interested. uh thats ur fortune not mine, i dun need it, so yea manage it urself.

and he said ppl keep trying to go into banking to marry into rich families. he made it sound as if marriage was jus a business deal...

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 6:16 PM

do you not see? do you not feel? can you not tell?

was awaken last night when my parents came back n the stupid tiga kept barking. argh. last sat night the same thing happened and i scolded them the next day. but they didnt stop that tiga again!

so this morning after i woke up at 630. i took out my er hu and played. n since my katie doesnt like me playing er hu, she kept barking. nice eh? since i didnt get to sleep u can forget abt sleeping too. my mum came down a few min later. she stood by my door. but she didnt say anything. then she left.

went up to my dad's com (right outside his room) and blasted the music. wahahaha! then he came out and yelled how come so noisy out here?! and i scolded him back. so i told him if this happens again every sat night, u can forget abt sleeping every sun morning.

there, i think i got my point across now. when i said something i mean it ok? so register it. if u cant, i can always lend a helping hand.

and well, my dad's reaction? he scolded tiga.

was supposed to watch lake house yest. but thanks to my sis again. her interest always the first. my parents put her unknown plans before my known plans. argh. idiotic. so im gg to watch it today.

im trying this thing. cant really explain it. uh something like sending out my emotions...

tortuga says my smses are cryptic. wells hmm explain in sch. if i feel like talking abt it. but yea gracias mi tortuga!

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 12:53 PM

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Saturday, October 14, 2006

I GOT GOOD NEWS! met mr tsang at sch. couldnt help but ask him what did i get for maths. he gave me his no and asked me to sms him later on. he had to go back to staffroom to check. and guess what? i got 60 for promos! 80 for VA! and so overall 59! im gonna get that 1 mark to make it a B. i'll beg mr tsang =)

and see didnt i say lecture tests all not counted? and no one believed me? they rather believe the teachers? i knew the teachers were lying. coz i saw unmarked lecture tests in mr tsang's tray. and would any teacher leave them like that if they were counted? NO! so they jus wanted to scare us so that we will work harder for maths promos. i knew it! but even janice didnt believe me. wells...i make a pretty good detective u know! haha!

when he replied to my sms with a 59c i thought it was my promos mark. i was like OH NO short by a few marks! coz i calculated i needed 62/63 with my lecture test (just in case). but lec test not counted. i got 32% for that -_-" and my VA got higher than expected. i was expecting worst case 40% best case 60%. but 80% that was WOAH!

im glad janice and i did our VA ourselves. someone said he flipped the coin which told him he should do his va himself. so fine i dun need u anyway! thanks mar for drawing all those circles and for teaching me photoshop so that i could do decorate it sooo sooo nicely! but i haf a feeling i didnt learn anything from the VA. oops.

neways 60 for promos is a big improvement considering i've been failing all tests and exams except the 1st lecture test held in the 1st 3 months. not bad right? big improvement! there i told u A was elusive ;)

so CO performance today for open day. they wanted to put me in the front row! GOSH! front row is gao hu ppl leh. (er hu section is divided into another 4 sections. gao hu, zhong hu, er hu 1 and er hu 2) im playing er hu 2. means they play different notes. then i'll be all on my own. i was so freaked out i requested to change seats. zhi wen was like u sa jiao also no use! but yea he couldnt take all my pestering so he gave up and demoted me to the last row. im not ready to be in the front row. really. i rather be demoted to the last row than play wrongly during the performance.

oh yea i wanted to kapok the balloons. couldnt resist. but in the end i forgot. rahhh.

oh and yest i watch the video of xl and i dancing. i was asking janice what were u feeling when u were filming? she was like shiok! i asked her why and she said coz 1st time film such a scandalous scene

-_-"

so i really wanna thank mr tsang, ms wong, janice, esther, mar, tasya, sonia and whoever else who helped me in maths. thanks a lot ppl. i appreciate everything u've done for me =)

so i guess good grades doesnt give u eternal happiness. but rather, it gives u satisfaction that ur hardwork wasnt wasted. or at least i hope so!

oh yea i stained my parents' bedsheet jus now while watching tv on their bed. my maid yelled at me and made me sit on the floor =(

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 5:23 PM

i got drunk last night. my mum brought me to dinner coz she thought that i could drink. but coz my waterbottle ran out of water, i was so thirsty, i gulped down the whole glass of wine in a few seconds. shldnt have done that!

neways i ordered this cheese soup which turned out to be too cheesy. then this baked scallop in champagne sauce. oo that was nice =) and lastly, warm chocolate cake with ice cream. i didnt know i was supposed to eat the bitter cake with the sweet ice cream. i ate the ice cream 1st then later on couldnt eat the cake coz it was too bitter.

our WR exceeded by 1000+ words and we were rushing to cut down on thurs. like how to cut so much la! daniel wong also helped. and janice did the most. stayed up till 2 am to help check the final copy before printing. gracias mi amiga!

friday the 13th. of course unlucky. esp coz of someone.

so in the morning i was under so much pressure trying to compile everything to bind. coz janice not in sch and stuff with her so couldnt bind it yet. it was jus total hell coz deadline was 1pm and janice could only come at 2pm.

and then this person had the guts to irritate me from bio class all the way to maths class. he kept saying he shld keep for janice coz he will be seeing her tmr for open day and blah blah blah..NON STOP! cant even let me breathe u know! acted like he knew everything abt mi amiga! so full of himself! hello? i know her better than u do! i was so fed up ok? i wanted to throw everything at his face and yell u want to give to her is it?? then give la!

one thing i learnt from philosophy: we all know ONE THING and that is NOTHING! i was gg to see janice during pw wat! even before he can see her so what is his sickening problem??

like thats not enough. more to come.

OP workshop he tried to arrow us. but sad to say he didnt dig his ears and asked us a so invalid qn. argh! dun listen properly then dun act smart and ask! so when it was his turn janice and i arrowed him too. i threw my fire ball at him. full of anger. he jus totally spoilt my whole friday! i wasnt prepared to let him off yet but the teacher stopped me. whatever.

during lunch i was asking jun shi, " dont u ever get fed up with him?" she rolled her eyes and went ALL THE TIME!

enough. i shall no longer see this person nor hear this person. yea u know who u are and if u still wanna tag, go ahead, but i wun entertain ur tags. i think i might so add a password to restrict access to my blog.

i told u when u really hit the right spot and really anger me, i can turn into ur worst nightmare. even my parents dun dare to anger me coz they know that they cant handle it. esp when this time it was accumulated from the morning.

next year pls oh pls change the timetable! 10 months already i haf had enough seeing this person for almost every single tutorial class!

wong yu ching says i dont have to worry my maths promo grade. but i wonder if her "dun haf to worry" equals to my "dun haf to worry". oh and she gave the class committee presents! no wonder that day she ask me to count the no of ppl in the class committee...

got back bio mcq. blah. saw my chinese final marks. blah. coz i didnt know they didnt count oral and listening for mid year. only count papers. rah. my oral and listening helps pull up my grades. but yea at least theres an A for the year.

im glad that im not having a hangover this morning. not even the HIGH feeling u know! i was dead drunk! most of last night's dinner was spent trying to keep myself awake! i went to the toilet to wash up. n my face was already all red. luckily the lighting in the restuarant not bright enough nobody really noticed. and the toilets ah the best sia! called dames and something. i was like eh so which is the female toilet? had to ask the waitress -_-"
oh and i was drinking in sch uni ;) at 1st they didnt serve me wine but i looked at them with those innocent eyes and so they asked would you like some wine?

but the wine tasting booked really helped me to appreciate wine more. especially red wine.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 7:22 AM

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Thursday, October 12, 2006

back from chinese. ended at 11:30pm. i love it when sch ends before lunch, it makes the rest of the day seem longer and better!

so yea got back the paper =) pretty decent mark. im happy =))))

most ppl didnt have to go to sch today. even my bro. argh. could have gotten my mum to send me in the morning but decided to let her sleep in. afterall she's been waking up pretty early every year. and now, even weekends thanks to my sis. besides, i got 8.5 hrs of sleep last night.

tmr afternoon im real busy. chinese from 1:10-2:30. OP workshop 2-5pm. rehearsal 2-5pm. everything clashes! and normal lessons start tmr morning rahhhhhh. i hate lessons. i cant even remember where i placed my timetable. sigh tortuga...a little help here?

and even though im home early today, theres so many things i gotta rush out by today. sigh. and we havent rehearsed our pw. and we dun intend to. we jus plan to die tmr ;)

my com went nuts last night from attaching all the photos to xl. he was like alamak u didnt resize ar? and he wanted to post them on friendster until i told him they were too scandalous hahaha...

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 12:33 PM

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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

student profiling talk in the morning followed by this NS talk which was really an eye opener! i am so for NS now! go guys! go for NS coz its really good for u! ahaha but count me out yea? hees.

so that NS guy. pretty cute for an ex nj guy =) chess n bridge club huh? plus low profile eh? i was suprised coz he didnt look like a nerd and he seemed to be one of those in sports like canoeing or something like that heh. see how much NS can actually do? it makes guys much more attractive hahaha!

scott actually had the nerve to ask him such a qn? gosh...

wong yu ching was saying if i get an A for maths then got to give her a treat. if i can get an A for maths i really wun mind! who would right? but yea A is really impossible. i failed maths for common test by 2 marks. A is elusive!

after lunch i slacked around and did some SAT before gg for rehearsal. i played better during pracs. at 1st the crowd there didnt scare me but when i sat down, i was starting to tremble already. but its still alright neways. and i love the open day song the most coz it is the easiest and it doesnt sound too artistic yayy!

oh and tasya, ur dance was NICEEEE! and u danced very well =)

but ah that zi wei rushed us then we ended up still waiting for like half an hr for our turn. i stand until my feet so sore. and the ppl placed the chairs so wrong!! grr they jus cant get it right!

ok so if thats what u really want me to do then fine i shall do it. but u better not regret it!

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 6:40 PM

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Tuesday, October 10, 2006

PW DAY IS SO FUN! ahahaha pw rocks! it rocks!! for once sch was fun ;) doing pw the whole day from morning till 4:30 was jus so darn great! free and easy it jus rocks!

boring pw briefing in the morning. then headed off to CA 5. stayed there until 2 then moved to TB31. but why the move? nobody used CA 5 right? plus CA 5 was better coz it had more sockets to charge coms!

we finished 2 parts of our ad! and it is so so nice! janice and i are so proud of ourselves! 3 more parts to go. the script is almost complete save for the middle portion. i still dunno abt that part. i've been thinking abt it a month ago. and i still have no idea sigh. janice chose the mild transition effects while i chose the really big ones heh.

when we asked others to view our ad, they wanted to see the scandalous pics more than anything else -_-"

oh yea ppl were so jealous that our grp had 4 coms. well we wanted 5 but library ran out of coms so no choice. the more coms the more efficient mah! carrying the com to sch was so tiring! at my hse bus stop i was already saying im never gonna bring the com to sch again. hahaha! oh and yes my tablet pc is so darn cute. janice doddled 6 pages!

we sought help in brainstorming for gifts. guys are so boring. so hard to find gifts for them! neways thanks to those who chipped in ideas for us =)

janice was asking me abt what happened last night that was so urgent. oh wells since i pretty much kind of settled it then dun haf to worry her. so in the end i still didnt say.

time to flood pw-mates' mails wahahaha! who ask them all didnt bring thumbdrive then everything save inside my thumbdrive! whee!

pw lifts my spirits XD

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 5:32 PM

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Monday, October 09, 2006

oh finally. sick site advisor. cant even access my blog. keep redirecting to this site advisor. and the instructions they gave to access my blog didnt work. i got so fed up i jus disable the whole sick thing. ARGH!

my mood is spoilt.

neways today we had games day. but i pretty much ran off to the canteen to read sophie's world. it enthralled me but drained my brain. took so many hrs to read a hundred pages! so many philo qns, so deep, it makes my head spin.

then we had chinese lessons. getting back papers on thurs. sobs. for once i dun want my chinese paper back. i really dun want it back. *cries*

went for co prac. played open day song. rehearsal at linkway on wed. the day which i end at 12pm. rahh. shi jun was the conductor today. expectations so high we all got rather pissed.

i was on the com yest for 15 straight hrs. gahh my eyes!!

janice regretted not snapping a photo of what happened. haha yea i think i shocked myself too when i did that. oh wells it is done already so yea.

better halves ended today. nice happy ending. yayyy. for love they could sacrifice everything...

REASON aspires to wisdom, WILL aspires to courage, and APPETITE must be curbed so that temperance can be exercised.

faith and belief not superstition

宋玉妮觉得自己陷入一个很矛盾的局面. 她无可否认, 对漂亮大个子的的确确是有好感, 并且有一定的印象. 当她静下来, 或一个人独处的时候, 她的脑海里便不期然出现了他那双充满感情的眼睛. 她常感觉他在附近偷偷的看她, 因而令她心跳.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 8:08 PM

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Sunday, October 08, 2006





my dad's bdae oreo ca
ke which i baked.




my grandma's 88th bdae celebration. the rest of ppl were around the house somwhere.














i do look pro huh?














which one nicer ah? using it for pw ad.

slept at 9pm last nite. woke up at 6. thanks "crow". my dad came into my room last night and said sleep so early? i wasnt sure if i was exactly dreaming or conscious. so i asked him this morning. he said yea he went in at 9:20.

psi last night hit 150. i want schs to close. CLOSE! tmr's games day outdoors. how smart can nj get?? read yueh hsin's blog and learnt that in 1997 when PSI was 226 spore closed schs for 1 day. really? i cant remember...

im still wearing my mum's silver diamond sapphire ring. she said the more i look at it the nicer it will be. so im looking. had so much difficulty trying to find a silver one. hers are all gold. gahh. she said if i want any of her jewellery then jus take n wear it coz next time it'll be my sis and mine. i was like all gold so old fashioned i dun want.

me: why u buy gold ah? gold was in fashion last time ah?

my mum: by the time i could afford to buy it, i was old enough to wear gold.

me: oh...

my dad was scaring me over how fingers come out due to the ring being caught somewhere. i was totally grossed out. and yest i wore it for dancing. so he said be careful not to get robbed, later they chop off ur finger...*rolls eyes*

i was typing this word jus now. typed one alphabet wrongly. saw that word and froze. my thoughts were drawn back to reality. no i cant. i cant and shldnt.

gah i dun feel like typing my chinese compo. i think if i really edit it, it'll be like 2000 words since no limit. but it'll take me 5 hrs to type it..

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 11:34 AM

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Saturday, October 07, 2006

yawns im so tired. ok juicy details later on. save the best for last yea? ahahaha...

neways i slept 6 hrs last night. im sleeping at 8pm tonight. dun bother me.

opened champagne. i drank 4 glasses i think. my parents keep stopping me from drinking more. grr. had mooncake festival. lighted the whole garden. burnt a few laterns too heh. my dad blew the candles for his bdae cake there. the cake tasted nicer than my 1st one.

we played sparklers. my dad tried to be a big baby and lighted one. my grandma watched her son (my dad) in utter dismay. HAHAHA!

i swallowed down this soft skin mooncake with lotus paste. oooo niceeee. then my mum said the box cost her almost $30. and there was only 9 pieces. i was like ooh i shld have enjoyed it more then!

drank too much tea. too much caffeine. couldnt sleep. slept at 12 midnite. woke up at 6am thanks to the stupid crow. no wait, janice and my dad says it isnt a crow. i'll find out what bird that is and shoot it myself.

my dad came home after golf jus now. complained abt the ministers playing at sentosa golf club. mentioned abt richard woo. 70+ and has a son taking PSLE this year. my dad was being sarcastic and said to my mum, "very good ah my friend? so old can still make man?" i yelled "hello! underage here! pls screen the stuff u say!" yea im one innocent little girl who doesnt want her mind corrupted ;)

then he talked abt this funny incident which happened before they played their game.

staff: PM playing today.
man: lee hsien long plays golf?
staff: oh sorry SM playing.


ok filming.

my make up was so much nicer this time round but i looked so fat in the gown. 1-coz it wasnt tied properly, my mum was in a rush. 2-i grew fatter so my figure went out of shape. yea my mum is gloating. she thinks im obese -_-"

oh i painted my toe nails pink. but i bet no one noticed. argh wasted.

so we filmed other scenes 1st then xl came and we filmed the dancing scene. he kept apologizing for stepping on my gown haha. i stepped on it myself quite a few times. he tried to introduce variations, one included tilting me but i was so afraid i didnt want to try it heh. i know i was supposed to look at him while dancing but he too tall sia my neck will ache. plus i was feeling quite awkward and embarrassed as it is. im glad i had rouge on so even if i did blush no one could tell hahaha!

took some photos at the garden. had to act like lovers. xl kept thinking of poses. there was one scene where janice wanted us to laugh HAHA loudly. so xl was trying to laugh HAHA and made me giggle until my whole body shook! oh yea we saw the bridal couple but the bride's gown not nice.

then i changed to casual clothes and we walked down to orchard for casual photo taking. along the way xl asked me, "if wearing heels are so painful then why u still wear them?" then i replied, "coz u guys like them what!" he argued, "i didnt say i like!" and janice jus kept laughing at us.

xl was better at acting than i was. janice kept saying i was so tensed. how am i supposed to pretend the cam not there? oh wells at xl tried to keep the conversation gg.

at toys r us janice wanted us to "fight" with the halloween stuff there. in the end xl posed for one photo where he pretended he was beheading me. then we headed off to borders and pretended to read philosophy bks.

that was the last scene then we parted. xl was really such a great help, janice and i felt so bad for everything he did to help us. neways if u are reading this, thank you so so much =)

the haze made my eyes watery, my nose runny. i think im falling sick. plus since after promos my appetite has been rather poor i skipped so many meals. is it coz less stressed so dun haf to 拿肚子来出气?

no im not uploading the photos. too scandalous XD

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 7:43 PM

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Friday, October 06, 2006

i think socializing really drains my energy.

woke up at 6am coz of the stupid crow. tried to sleep with all the noise. then at 715 the garbage collector was making so much noise i gave up trying to fall asleep. took my doggie out for a walk. tried to read the spirit of meditation but ended up feeding so many mosquitoes i came back home. with 10 mosquito bites.

slacked a bit then changed and went to meet yu lu. i found my way there yay!! we ate at pasta mania. i only ate half of wat i ordered. coz the mushroom taste was too strong it made me feel like puking. im never gg back there.

we talked a lot mainly abt last time, jc life, her scholarship criteria, common tests, promos, relationships, life plans and marriage. and she tried to stop me from comparing every guy i meet with that him. coz she said everyone is different so if i do that then i'll see every guy as wrong for me. her com is now her bf. and she is sending her bf back to china next year. so she is pretty upset abt it haha!

it is so not fair vj gets 1 whole week off sch as marking days!! she kept suaning me. stupid nj doesnt even give us a half day! crap!

then we went shopping. no wait, it was yu lu who went shopping and i was being dragged along.

i was so tired so bored i jus kept smsing xianglong while yu lu went from store to store buying all kinds of presents. i was like how come i suddenly lost interest in shopping? my mum later on told me that watching someone shop is really boring. i was like oh no wonder.

had a great time catching up. left at abt 230. yu lu sent me off and not the other way around. heh she knows spore better than i do! and no, im not ashamed haha..

slept the whole way home! i was really so drained. i never sleep on buses! before i slept i managed to get another glimpse of SMU...

i burnt my finger jus now while baking. the cake is still in the oven. my finger is all red and it hurts like nuts.

my mum's friend called me to say we can dance in the garden tmr yay! see, that is what i call efficiency! shangri la rocks! hilton and four seasons suck! they didnt even respond to my email! i saw pics of the garden. it is really really soo niceee gosh im amazed!

im still wondering how im supposed to dance in my gown and heels even though xianglong said it is only a 4 step dance. gotta try and practise walking tonight.

i saw my dad charging his video cam. does he intend to lend it to me? maybe it was coz i gave him a bdae kiss ;)

neways happy mooncake festival ppl! its gonna be one romantic night with 600 candles lighted up oh yeah...

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 5:14 PM

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Thursday, October 05, 2006

rahh my mum's not coming home early tonight. and im having a headache. dumb alcohol. so i guess i'll blog, bathe and sleep early tonight. i was so terrified this morning i wanted to go upstairs and sleep with my mum.

my mum jus called to say she is talking to shangrila hotel manager. i called her earlier on to ask her to see if she can directly contact any hotel managers. the staff at hilton and four seasons couldnt make a simple decision. made us go through so many channels. and still havent even obtained permission. either they cant be bothered or they were simply incompetent. im glad i decided against gg into hotel management coz if i had such staff under me, i would fire every single one of them. and i wun batt an eyelid.

yea working with me is really tough. coz i do things so fast u gotta catch up. and not only do u have to do it fast, i expect it to be perfect too. and once u fail to meet my expectations, i will never trust ur ability again. and i can haunt u 24/7 so u cannot hand in ur work late. trust from me is not given but earned. and when u have it, i trust u with my entire heart. i can condemn u to hell but i can bring paradise to u. same as what water can do. remember that saying? and guess what? the meaning of my name is water. so yea thats how i work. i cant change that so live with it ahaha..i bet my pw-mates are always under a lot of pressure.

the start of verbal diarrhea.

fri 22/9:

i went dancing at the gym. was really high. maybe coz i knew i screwed up my gp paper.

at night i was smsing janice and telling her that i was feeling so lost so disorientated i cant control my emotions. she replied go sleep and think of me instead. haha..yea i was thinking of someone i shldnt be thinking of.

sat 23/9:

my grandma's 88th bdae celebration. i baked my 1st cake. the process was hilarious. coz instructions said when baked completely, toothpick stuck in middle will come out clean. so i baked the cake with the toothpick in the middle thinking it would pop out or something. my mum said NO! supposed to be i stick the toothpick in and see whether any chocolate stuck to it. if got means not baked yet. i was like ooohh.

but it turned out nice of course! called oreo cake. but it is actually chocolate with vanilla frosting coz the stupid cold storage at jelita didnt have chocolate frosting bleh. but it looked like oreo cake. my grandma was so touched =)

opened a 1988 red wine yums.

sun 29/9:

i wanted to go swimming then realise my mum stole my slippers and brought it to puket. oh crap. i scolded her over smses. yea overseas. she keeps stealing my slippers! everytime i buy a nice pair she takes it then i have to buy another one. then the new one i buy turns out nicer so she takes that one too. the cycle repeats. i was so fed up. (in the end she came back to spore and bought me the same design to break the cycle. thank goodness. next time buy shoes must buy 2 same ones)

mon 26/9:

watched the prince and me. janice was like got time to watch show not studying? i was like i cant study non-stop wat must have breaks mah.

i keep dwelling in fantasy...

tues 27/9:

i made one big mistake. i picked up a chinese novel to get into the mood of writing for chinese compo. and ended up so addicted i read it for the whole day. even slept late coz i couldnt tear myself away from the bk. woke up the next day and read it until the end. so many hrs wasted.

but i love study days coz even though it was supposed to be stressful studying for promos, i felt that it was like a hol. pretty nice to study at home by myself. doing maths with music blasting. home is always the best.

thurs 28/9:

i screwed up my chinese paper. the only paper that i was confident of. i came home and cried the night away. sigh.

they didnt let us check paper. say cannot flip over. when start already then i realise no qn! i was yelling for the teachers but they couldnt hear. by the time i got the paper it was like 5 min later. ppl already started. i was so flustered, mood all affected i couldnt concentrate. compo went out of point. misread qn.

compo was the only component of the paper to score. now i think i wun get my A. not a single A for promo. im so heartbroken...

my twisted knee hurt. how i twisted it? i tried to retrieve something from below the table, landed wrongly and twisted it. yea.

after chinese tried to study econs but failed. coz my brain was so dead. janice and i were talking abt ahem menses. ***WARNING: guys dun read the rest of this para pls. haf some self respect yea?*** coz mine jus ended a week ago and started again! CRAP! and it came in drops argh!! but im glad mine has always been a 5 week cycle yay!!

then janice talked abt the white dress she needed. then i visualized this long sleeved white gown. all the way to the floor. v-necked. clinging to ur body. not revealing at all but very sexy. coz it is a sophisticated kind of elegance. brings sexiness to a higher level. u dun haf to dress like a whore to appear sexy.

wrote so much for chinese compo that during econs my hands were trembling. had to stop so many times coz i couldnt write. neck ached like crazy too. but the paper was ok. at 1st the teacher wrote 2 hrs on the board. then amelia heng told her it is 1.5 hrs. and she turned around to say, "and no one told me? what integrity!" i was like talking to myself. i said huh? i didnt even see the board la!

waited for my parents to pick me.

of course i knew u walked past. so close i could hear u breathing. jus that i didnt see the need to turn around. so what if i did? would that change anything? no.

fri 29/9:

maths paper. wong yu ching stood behind me for like half an hr during the paper. is she freaking insane? hello im stressed out already u didnt have to add to my pressure. then at night she called to ask, "how come u spend so much time on the parametric eqn? what were u trying to draw? dun need to draw anything wat!" i wonder who was sitting for the paper -_-"

maths was tough.

sat 30/9:

a stupid crow crowed in the morning and woke me up at 6am. oh freak! i was so tired the whole day i couldnt study. if i had a gun, i swear the 1st thing i shoot would be that stupid idiotic crow!

my maid fried potato wedges. my grandma ate so many she couldnt stop. i ask her nice? she was like still edible la -_-"

watched jasmine women. regretted dragging my mum there. now she has a reason to interfer with my future relationships. but since when did she not have a reason to?

why is it no one else have sicc membership? i cant even find someone to accompany me to watch movies and go to the gym! lake house showing next week. anybody has sicc membership? coz i really could use a companion!

pet r'us is unscrupulous. dun buy from them. they breech contracts. my dad's gonna write in to science diet. not a small amt they cheated us. i was like why dun complain to consumer association or something like that? my dad said the gov smarter, ask u to pay $30 1st before they look into ur case. i was like WHAT?! in the states where got like that??

i was so amazed to see the 4 day old guppy baby =)

sun 1/10:

woah its oct already. did my life jus whizzed by or something? and i didnt even realise it was childrens' day.

smsed janice a lot of qns. and she so cute. sms back: "you are now embarking on a fascinating journey of learning. sit tight yay here we go..." ahahaha!

i was so bored the whole sun.

mon 2/10:

janice was so sweet. she gave me this present and this postcard. made me cry before chem paper. ahaha but tian zai xin li. gracias tortuga!

i was so careless for chem. esp mcq. but at least the paper was alright.

i keep getting spam emails i wonder why.

my mum saw oso in the morning. ask me to ask him to cut his hair. she said it was so ugly. i laughed. coz last time he said my hair was weird and i said no urs weirder! and we argued over that. now who's hair is truly weird huh? wahaha!

i dont know why i did that. maybe i was jus being mean. maybe i was stressed. maybe i was pissed. or maybe i was jus plain jealous of her. i have no idea where that hatred started to stem from.

saw km's notice for SMU advanced placement program 07. i wanna join! but i dont want to go for it alone..i dunno anybody joining. and i dunno if i qualify. i doubt my promo results will be the top 20% of nj.

How do u hold on to someone you’ve never met?
How do u miss someone you’ve never spoken to?
How do u fall for someone you don’t actually know in person?


3/10:

3rd paper i screwed up - phy. paper 2 i had more than 20 marks blank. and it was upon 60. great. i do even worse for paper 1. jus great.

i totally couldnt make head and tail of the superman qn. i think mr goh watched too many cartoons already. i didnt even know which topic that was. i jus stared and stoned. plus the haze resulted in breathing difficulty. and upstairs ppl were moving tables and chairs. what the. inconsiderate freaks! and it was raining. freezing cold. and i didnt bring my jacket.

stayed back to pass the dvd to xianglong. saw so many happy faces. i was so jealous. so angry. but that subsided after bio paper coz it was easier than phy muahaha! i waited till the side gate opened coz the lazy me refused to walk by the main gate.

read chen's blog which said studying is a student's job. i was like, "Can I retire? Coz my heart is really heavy and tired…"

i wonder if everything i fought for was worth it. coz i missed out so much that i can never gain back. how many nights and days i cried for promos. how much stressed i was under. how many hours were put into studying. was it even worth it? so what if i get all As? will that give me eternal happiness?


there didnt i say verbal diarrhea? =)

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 8:28 PM

it is 650 and my show on channel 8 starts at 7pm. ok i'll see how much i can conjure up today.

i had a pretty bad nightmare last night. this guy killed the daughter of his lover. chopped her legs and tied them below the elevator. and i had to take the elevator so many times. and no, i havent been watching horrors.

chem spa: alcohol stinks and it gives me a headache which results in loss of memory. but there was so much time i nearly fell asleep.

orchard library: i thought seoul gardens opened at 11 but it was 1130. so we went to the library 1st. borrowed books on psychology, making videos, spirit of meditation (buddhism), wine appreciation (another one on my hol list. such a waste if i keep drinking but not appreciating it to the fullest) and image quotient. i asked janice if she needed bks on stress management. and she replied no with a smile. haha..

lunch: targeted time to leave was 430. we left at 330. coz we were so bloated. and towards the end we were wondering if we even ate anything. we tried making omelet but failed and devised ways to get rid of it. one included acting. gosh. janice's the only lucky one besides my family who has tried my soups, cooking and baking. econs, chem, bio stuff sprouted from us even though promos were over and we tried not to say them. we also turned psycho coz of the psychology book we borrowed.

conciousness is but an evolutionary functionalism, a materialistic view of the mind. our conscious world is a grand illusion. in other words, whatever we see is jus an illusion. it is not reality but how we perceive the world to be. and we are all hallucinating.

i told janice that the buns were apples and the plate was not yellow but red. and i wasnt exactly there with her. man...

filming: filiming at crossroads were so tough. and we met njcians. went to hilton and four seasons. four seasons not any less grand than hilton. hilton was too small. four seasons had that nice stairs for me to walk down. the thing is i think ive grown too fat to fit into the gown and my figure is so out of shape i will look like a potato sack in it. gahhh. and the ppl there couldnt make decisions for us to film. what the. had to email. and we are schedule for filming on sat. i dont know if we will make it.

my mum was so darn pro to get me all the equipment coz my dad didnt want to lend me his precious video cam coz he havent downloaded the movies. i quarreled with him over it and i ended off saying u shld have just let me go to the US. im still thinking if i shld bake his cake tmr. im still so angry.

home: i was so tired from carrying all the equipment and books i almost fell asleep on the bus. came home, tried to read the psychology book again but it was really very chim so i gave up. finished the image quotient book. yay! smsed yu lu and finalized to meet her tmr at bugis at 11am.

7:03pm now. i dun want to miss the show la. tonight i got other stuff to do. tmr morning i've set aside time for my katie. verbal diarrhea another day. so sorry my dear readers.

all but a memory can this love become.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 6:57 PM

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006

ok im breaking the hiatus 1 day earlier. but this entry will be short. the verbal diarrhea will be up late tmr.

my brain is so exhausted. bio stuff killed all my brain cells. a lot of things in the end all cannot remember coz info overload. and the application questions were so gross. i was like skip skip skip then later come back. coz so wordy i didnt feel like reading.

and the qn on amino acid sequence. idiotic. 2 marks and i spent 15 min trying to decipher how u read the stupid thing. argh. bio qns are always like that. u spend more time trying to understand than writing. sickening. and they had to clarify so many qns. i keep cancelling my ans. then the P and R thing even better. both DNA what am i suppose to label as?

finished bio mcq 10 min before time. had loads of time to check. found 2 mistakes heh. but still couldnt recall where the amino acid binds to tRNA. gahhh.

oh wells at least it was so much easier than phy. yayy!

and while bio students celebrate today, i got to study for chem spa tonight. crap. neways after that i gg to orchard with tortuga. buffet time! then we gonna check out hilton and other scenes for pw ad.

fri morning i gotta bake my dad's bdae cake. lunch im meeting yu lu. dinner is celebration then mooncake festival!! finally able to celebrate it properly! last yr clashed with prelims. im gonna really enjoy this one coz next yr will clash with prelims again. i got like 600+ candles to light wahaha!

oh yea i saw my dad's accounts for the banks and CPF. and the sum shocked me. even i was shocked so imagine the number i saw. so they are worth more than i thought huh?

its gonna be busy again. busy dating, busying pw-ing, studying for chinese, SAT...well at least this time it will be much more enjoyable ;)

me: why doesnt the air smell fresher after promos?
qing yun: coz got haze!

if u can decipher my code then u r really awesome. what does 2428122614 29341236 2734 mean? i hope i typed the nos right. heh.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 5:42 PM

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