Profile__________
>HUANG XIAOQI
>6 April 1989
>Aries
>dancer, ballerina
>Tumble Tots 1991-1992, Pats Schoolhouse 1993-1994 (Dalvey, Protoceratops), Pats Schoolhouse 1995 (Whitley), Henry Park Primary School 1996-2001 (1A,2A,3G,4C,5B,6B), Crescent Girls' School 2002-2005 (keller, 1G2, 2G2, 3C1, 4C1), National Junior College 2006-2007 (og26 solaris, 06S24 terra), National University of Singapore 2007 semester 2 (LSM1103, A7, B5), Nanyang Technological University - Nanyang Business School 2008-2009 (Group B)
>PwC 2008 IAS 7 Team A
>internship may 2009
>HUANG XIAOQI
>6 April 1989
>Aries
>dancer, ballerina
>Tumble Tots 1991-1992, Pats Schoolhouse 1993-1994 (Dalvey, Protoceratops), Pats Schoolhouse 1995 (Whitley), Henry Park Primary School 1996-2001 (1A,2A,3G,4C,5B,6B), Crescent Girls' School 2002-2005 (keller, 1G2, 2G2, 3C1, 4C1), National Junior College 2006-2007 (og26 solaris, 06S24 terra), National University of Singapore 2007 semester 2 (LSM1103, A7, B5), Nanyang Technological University - Nanyang Business School 2008-2009 (Group B)
>PwC 2008 IAS 7 Team A
Likes__________
ballet, dancing, figure skating, shopping, watching romantic comedies and chinese drama serials, blogging, spanish, psychology, hairstyling, piano, baking, most water sports, go karting
Wishlist__________
>PwC audit internship
>1st class honours
>Masters
>Financial Freedom
>perfect eyesight
>white gold heart shaped diamond ring ;)
>lisa harris: my favourite ballet class cd
>songs in wu dong quan cheng (the whole city is dancing: steps)
>a new leotard
>a dance partner
>learn pointe
>sponsorship for driving lessons
>a guinea pig
>a dwarf bunny
>baby pink vaio laptop!
>sasha cohen's autograph
Tag here!__________
Events __________
>practical test 13 march 2009>internship may 2009
Links__________
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Monday, May 28, 2007
argh every time my menses come i get pimples all over my face. i dont even wanna step out of the house. yuck.
im getting new furniture for my room!! im getting this table which is slanted at an angle. better for eyes. ive always always wanted one like tat but never saw it before. and yest i saw one! its a must buy! but coz the table is slanted...my com has a prob. so i got to get a com table. then i need a new carpet. and a new standing lamp for my tables. and i really need to change my curtains! and my tv gets in the way when i try to rearrange everything.
then im thinking of changing my matress which is 12 yrs old already. but im so used to it. what i really want is a queen sized bed! but my dad says no queen size bed until after uni. coz if i get used to the big bed then i cant get used to living in a hostel. hes already so worried i cant survive in the hostel coz im so "spoilt" with a huge room, toilet and so many big tables. its a headache trying to refurnish ur room when u want to keep some stuff and get rid of some. if its starting from scratch then its a lot easier. this is neither here nor there.
and my parents have this whole level to themselves. so theres this master room with toilet attached, guest toilet, a small room, a huge area my parents use as their working place and a big study room. but now the study room is like a store. i mean its always been like that. coz the ventilation is so bad in there. so i suggested that we knock down the entire wall and extend their working place. but since pandan valley is discussing en block sales, we dont really know how much longer we will stay here. if its another 10 yrs then its worth knocking down the wall and re-tile everything to make it one extended room. otherwise...i could really use a dance studio at home u know? heh. but just that the floor is ceramic tiles. i need the wood kind. parquet? i have no idea how to spell that weird name.
im aching from ballet. coz after ballet we went to shop for furniture. then we went to sicc where i practised ballet for another hour under the guidance of my dad. yea my dad learnt ballet in uni! coz his roommate dragged him. and i didnt even know abt it until quite recently. gg to miss ballet this sun so i must practise even harder! oh and we ate sushi!
and come to think of it..tat will never apply for co. skipping co is like yay! prac even harder? siao! neways co today. LT 5 was like 0 degrees. practically frozen. even my neck. now its stiff and my brain feels detached. i hate the song. i can only play the 1st page and the last part of the 6th page. grr. and everyone played so badly mr lum said we dont even deserve bronze. oh and he implied that the co room is haunted =X he said this very abstractly but wat i infered was that we didnt get gold with honours coz njco room is cursed *gulps*
and and my dad is gonna reserve one part of his new business for me to run. i came up with the idea mah. so i jus piggyback. ahem. yea haha. and he will appoint me as..shucks i forgot my position! wait i go find out again then i write abt it. how could i forget such a thing?!? must be the stupid freezer LT. neways it'll sparkle on my portfolio. but he says if i dont produce results then i'll get fired by the other shareholders. uh oh. and one part of the web page is for me to write stuff and do affliate marketing. but only after As. if only studying could be half as fun as this! whee i cant wait for As to be over!
im getting new furniture for my room!! im getting this table which is slanted at an angle. better for eyes. ive always always wanted one like tat but never saw it before. and yest i saw one! its a must buy! but coz the table is slanted...my com has a prob. so i got to get a com table. then i need a new carpet. and a new standing lamp for my tables. and i really need to change my curtains! and my tv gets in the way when i try to rearrange everything.
then im thinking of changing my matress which is 12 yrs old already. but im so used to it. what i really want is a queen sized bed! but my dad says no queen size bed until after uni. coz if i get used to the big bed then i cant get used to living in a hostel. hes already so worried i cant survive in the hostel coz im so "spoilt" with a huge room, toilet and so many big tables. its a headache trying to refurnish ur room when u want to keep some stuff and get rid of some. if its starting from scratch then its a lot easier. this is neither here nor there.
and my parents have this whole level to themselves. so theres this master room with toilet attached, guest toilet, a small room, a huge area my parents use as their working place and a big study room. but now the study room is like a store. i mean its always been like that. coz the ventilation is so bad in there. so i suggested that we knock down the entire wall and extend their working place. but since pandan valley is discussing en block sales, we dont really know how much longer we will stay here. if its another 10 yrs then its worth knocking down the wall and re-tile everything to make it one extended room. otherwise...i could really use a dance studio at home u know? heh. but just that the floor is ceramic tiles. i need the wood kind. parquet? i have no idea how to spell that weird name.
im aching from ballet. coz after ballet we went to shop for furniture. then we went to sicc where i practised ballet for another hour under the guidance of my dad. yea my dad learnt ballet in uni! coz his roommate dragged him. and i didnt even know abt it until quite recently. gg to miss ballet this sun so i must practise even harder! oh and we ate sushi!
and come to think of it..tat will never apply for co. skipping co is like yay! prac even harder? siao! neways co today. LT 5 was like 0 degrees. practically frozen. even my neck. now its stiff and my brain feels detached. i hate the song. i can only play the 1st page and the last part of the 6th page. grr. and everyone played so badly mr lum said we dont even deserve bronze. oh and he implied that the co room is haunted =X he said this very abstractly but wat i infered was that we didnt get gold with honours coz njco room is cursed *gulps*
and and my dad is gonna reserve one part of his new business for me to run. i came up with the idea mah. so i jus piggyback. ahem. yea haha. and he will appoint me as..shucks i forgot my position! wait i go find out again then i write abt it. how could i forget such a thing?!? must be the stupid freezer LT. neways it'll sparkle on my portfolio. but he says if i dont produce results then i'll get fired by the other shareholders. uh oh. and one part of the web page is for me to write stuff and do affliate marketing. but only after As. if only studying could be half as fun as this! whee i cant wait for As to be over!
Saturday, May 26, 2007
the weather has been such a killer lately. summer time i guess. i hate summers and winters. i like spring and autumn. cool weather and beautiful flowers.
havent gotten the ultima card. means no using of it this weekend. and so no using of it nxt weekend either. camp from 8am to 1145pm. i dont even wonder how im supposed to sleep since i take like more than 1 hr to go there and the same to come back. plus i still gotta bathe. i think i'll only manage to squeeze out 5 hrs of sleep. after tat im jus gonna sleep like a pig for 24 hrs. i dont wanna miss ballet...
mars vs venus ending on mon =(
oh and so as not to shock u all but im gonna change my blog skin to the pink one. mar's so gonna kill me XD reason for choosing the pink one over the black one is coz i think the pink one is loads more reader friendly. im getting sick of puny words. but changing blog skin is such a bother.
Joyce: hahaha yea it is kinda freaky weirdos like that actually exist!
sunny: hey! yup thats right. oh im still not sure abt law. maybe still accounting coz i wanna do investments haha but yea thanks =)
crystal: i have to take it too but i got my friend to tell them im not interested in PSC scholarships. i cant imagine working for the gov. i wanna go private not public ;) ministry of finance. eek no thanks.
mar: yesh sensei we are brainwashed by taxonomy! i definitely have an advanced cephalisation as like most other homo sapiens unlike the toad. thanks mar! and dont forget to hire me as ur manager nxt time if im still free ;)
havent gotten the ultima card. means no using of it this weekend. and so no using of it nxt weekend either. camp from 8am to 1145pm. i dont even wonder how im supposed to sleep since i take like more than 1 hr to go there and the same to come back. plus i still gotta bathe. i think i'll only manage to squeeze out 5 hrs of sleep. after tat im jus gonna sleep like a pig for 24 hrs. i dont wanna miss ballet...
mars vs venus ending on mon =(
oh and so as not to shock u all but im gonna change my blog skin to the pink one. mar's so gonna kill me XD reason for choosing the pink one over the black one is coz i think the pink one is loads more reader friendly. im getting sick of puny words. but changing blog skin is such a bother.
Joyce: hahaha yea it is kinda freaky weirdos like that actually exist!
sunny: hey! yup thats right. oh im still not sure abt law. maybe still accounting coz i wanna do investments haha but yea thanks =)
crystal: i have to take it too but i got my friend to tell them im not interested in PSC scholarships. i cant imagine working for the gov. i wanna go private not public ;) ministry of finance. eek no thanks.
mar: yesh sensei we are brainwashed by taxonomy! i definitely have an advanced cephalisation as like most other homo sapiens unlike the toad. thanks mar! and dont forget to hire me as ur manager nxt time if im still free ;)
Friday, May 25, 2007
i want to attain financial freedom by 30 and with a lavish lifestyle where monthly expenses easily come up to S$30 000-$50 000. thats my financial goal for now =)
Thursday, May 24, 2007
wahaha the frog admits it is a frog! means it is convinced by me! something i like abt this tagboard is i can edit stuff. and so here goes. delete. there. i dun need the frog's poo on my already cluttered tagboard. and i dont need unnecessary fame. oh and btw ur slamming didnt have the effect u wanted on me. if u call that slamming at all. coz slamming is saying stuff thats untrue. i didnt say untrue stuff. and watever u said abt me is thus void coz it aint even true. and wat happened to the point abt portfolio? havent gathered enough amnuition? stumped yea? and didnt i say my right to rest and leisure was snatched away 1st? thus im not the root cause and in fact the 1st victim? is ur bird brain working?
im actually more than happy to address ur concerns over my writing. and my gp tuition teacher is more than happy to see u replying to stimulate my critical thinking and use my gp knowledge so i can do even better on AQ and appreciate gp more. thank you so very much! but dont even dream that i will restrict my thoughts and writing coz of u. i dont even know why u read my blog at wee hours past midnight. wat kind of motive do u have since ur not a friend. stalker?? pervert??
and btw if u have so much free time and enjoy being such a hero...go stop the person who is spreading those untrue rumours around the whole sch. as mentioned earlier untrue stuff then equals real slamming. that damage is very great coz the entire sch knows abt it. including teachers. and they all believe its true. my readers only consist of a relatively small popln. and as u said, multiply the no. i hope ur bird brain can do math though. since ur reasoning and logic seems to have some probs. or maybe u dont even have cephalisation. maybe urs is ganglia. no wait even ganglia is simple cephalisation. and i dont even think u understand wat im talking abt.
neways if u decide to respond some other time, i urge u appear in front of me and stop being a coward, hiding behind froggy's identity. im starting to think the nickname frog is too superior for u. coz frog is in the same phylum as humans. dont act hero when u dont even have the guts to admit what u have said. it makes me wanna laugh. and everyone shares my setiments too. if u think wat u write is valid then u shldnt have reason to hide. nameless creature.
and yup sha. nice one =) wat a vengeful person to say i slam u coz u slam others. go around trying to hurt others coz they have their own opinions that it doesnt like. ya lor this is my blog somemore. but actually i love arguing. for watever reason. it gets my adrenaline gg ;) but not with something that doesnt even have a complete brain. anger only has effect on things like the incomplete brain who cant manage its feelings since it implied that it did feel anger. if its untrue then why feel anger? unless it is true and u dont want it revealed! and wavelength huh? yea im of a different wavelength from most of them hahaha! neways i hope i dont have to take the PSC psychometric test. its like 4 hrs long!
and tats the end of the entire episode since my readers are jealous i devote too much time to the incomplete brain frog. i shall go back to writing more interesting stuff.
cramps. every 30 days i lose 2 days. argh. why must we have menses?!?
yest had lessons from like 8 till 430?!? champagne showed us a model AQ which wrote abt taxonomy. oh oh gilbert lee said i dont have to redo qn 1! yay =) lets keep it this way for the nxt 4. then went for co. coz i didnt go on tues. coz i didnt want to stay back and wait like a fool for 4 long hrs. anyway it was such a waste of time. barely did anything. mr lum kept telling us stories after stories abt his childhood and army life. and i was there like starving. zhi wen told me end at 630 de lor. his info was like wrong. it was supposed to end at 730. grr. then at like 7 i waved to him coz he was opp the room. then he wave back -_-" but in the end he told mr lum i havent had lunch so mr lum let me go and mr lum said nxt time if dun eat lunch cannot come for co. like say so earlier! then i rather starve myself every lunch ;)
oh ya and i realised i forgot to add something else the banker said. he said investing in education is a sure make. come to think of it..yea. provided the person is willing to learn.
the other night i dreamt i was gonna dance at fort canning. they were building this structure with a stage right smack in the middle and i was gg to be on it. how much i miss dancing on stage. soon soon soon. nxt year.
my parents are making me go for another similar talk this sat. and a millionaire talk tonight. argh. its the same content la. they jus dont get it. and they say i dont get it -_-" ok ok i must remind myself to go for the camp with a really open mind. that $1400 better be life changing enough. must learn to enjoy doing weirdo activities with strangers. no i think hypnotism would work better than self-convincing...
im actually more than happy to address ur concerns over my writing. and my gp tuition teacher is more than happy to see u replying to stimulate my critical thinking and use my gp knowledge so i can do even better on AQ and appreciate gp more. thank you so very much! but dont even dream that i will restrict my thoughts and writing coz of u. i dont even know why u read my blog at wee hours past midnight. wat kind of motive do u have since ur not a friend. stalker?? pervert??
and btw if u have so much free time and enjoy being such a hero...go stop the person who is spreading those untrue rumours around the whole sch. as mentioned earlier untrue stuff then equals real slamming. that damage is very great coz the entire sch knows abt it. including teachers. and they all believe its true. my readers only consist of a relatively small popln. and as u said, multiply the no. i hope ur bird brain can do math though. since ur reasoning and logic seems to have some probs. or maybe u dont even have cephalisation. maybe urs is ganglia. no wait even ganglia is simple cephalisation. and i dont even think u understand wat im talking abt.
neways if u decide to respond some other time, i urge u appear in front of me and stop being a coward, hiding behind froggy's identity. im starting to think the nickname frog is too superior for u. coz frog is in the same phylum as humans. dont act hero when u dont even have the guts to admit what u have said. it makes me wanna laugh. and everyone shares my setiments too. if u think wat u write is valid then u shldnt have reason to hide. nameless creature.
and yup sha. nice one =) wat a vengeful person to say i slam u coz u slam others. go around trying to hurt others coz they have their own opinions that it doesnt like. ya lor this is my blog somemore. but actually i love arguing. for watever reason. it gets my adrenaline gg ;) but not with something that doesnt even have a complete brain. anger only has effect on things like the incomplete brain who cant manage its feelings since it implied that it did feel anger. if its untrue then why feel anger? unless it is true and u dont want it revealed! and wavelength huh? yea im of a different wavelength from most of them hahaha! neways i hope i dont have to take the PSC psychometric test. its like 4 hrs long!
and tats the end of the entire episode since my readers are jealous i devote too much time to the incomplete brain frog. i shall go back to writing more interesting stuff.
cramps. every 30 days i lose 2 days. argh. why must we have menses?!?
yest had lessons from like 8 till 430?!? champagne showed us a model AQ which wrote abt taxonomy. oh oh gilbert lee said i dont have to redo qn 1! yay =) lets keep it this way for the nxt 4. then went for co. coz i didnt go on tues. coz i didnt want to stay back and wait like a fool for 4 long hrs. anyway it was such a waste of time. barely did anything. mr lum kept telling us stories after stories abt his childhood and army life. and i was there like starving. zhi wen told me end at 630 de lor. his info was like wrong. it was supposed to end at 730. grr. then at like 7 i waved to him coz he was opp the room. then he wave back -_-" but in the end he told mr lum i havent had lunch so mr lum let me go and mr lum said nxt time if dun eat lunch cannot come for co. like say so earlier! then i rather starve myself every lunch ;)
oh ya and i realised i forgot to add something else the banker said. he said investing in education is a sure make. come to think of it..yea. provided the person is willing to learn.
the other night i dreamt i was gonna dance at fort canning. they were building this structure with a stage right smack in the middle and i was gg to be on it. how much i miss dancing on stage. soon soon soon. nxt year.
my parents are making me go for another similar talk this sat. and a millionaire talk tonight. argh. its the same content la. they jus dont get it. and they say i dont get it -_-" ok ok i must remind myself to go for the camp with a really open mind. that $1400 better be life changing enough. must learn to enjoy doing weirdo activities with strangers. no i think hypnotism would work better than self-convincing...
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
ah so busy no time to update. so much for the early hols. 24 hrs is never enough. haiz.
after abstaining from shopping....i couldnt resist the spore sale u know. its not the sale thats attractive. but rather the sale gives me a reason to shop ;) on sat night i bought a pair of shoes at tangs then on sun afternoon i bought another pair at john little. 2 pairs in less than 24 hrs. shhh. dun let my dad know or else he'll skin me alive. he thinks i only bought one pair. haha. and i updated my undergarments drawer ;)
sun ballet. tough tough tough. getting tougher and tougher. made to walk on toes. after that i jus wanted to collapse and sleep on the floor. and the jumps made me feel like a frog. but not the blue blood kind with a bird brain. sashays made me feel like a horse galloping but the teacher still said good. maybe she wasnt paying attention. but at least i got praised so many times during class! a lot more than usual! even on my bar work =)) the crescent dance teacher never praised ppl. treat everyone like animals which are non-homo sapiens since humans are animals. i cant imagine missing ballet for the camp. how in the world will i catch up when the pace speeds up every lesson.
yest went to so many banks coz of my grandfather. whole day gone. but at least i got my ULTIMA credit card and my ATM card =)) citibank finally waivered the fee after my dad gave them more money haha! the fee is like $2000 per yr. siao la. its more than 10X more the average cards coz its a millionaire card. i love the black card XD
oh and i sat in for this investment meeting at citibank. this guy talked abt commodities, stocks, cash, some other stuff to my dad then he went on to the technical maths details of how they calculate how much to invest in the risky and safety zone. then i interrupted and asked wat are they selling u?? my dad was like u shld ask that from the start mah! then they laughed. oh wells. then later on after they explained a bit then i was like oh so u pay them to put ur money in the bank? and my dad was like yea! then one of the banker was like win win situation mah.
and i got another intern offered by the board of directors themselves! marketing intern. and its for the pioneer project of a private company. directly under the marketing legend himself! but i get paid in the form of leftover products. oh never mind that.
and i love to leave ppl who challenge me stumped. it feels so darn good. whoever u are, better not let me find out. otherwise u'll suffer a fate worse than u already did ;)
sch today and tomorrow. argh.
torture in 9 days =(
after abstaining from shopping....i couldnt resist the spore sale u know. its not the sale thats attractive. but rather the sale gives me a reason to shop ;) on sat night i bought a pair of shoes at tangs then on sun afternoon i bought another pair at john little. 2 pairs in less than 24 hrs. shhh. dun let my dad know or else he'll skin me alive. he thinks i only bought one pair. haha. and i updated my undergarments drawer ;)
sun ballet. tough tough tough. getting tougher and tougher. made to walk on toes. after that i jus wanted to collapse and sleep on the floor. and the jumps made me feel like a frog. but not the blue blood kind with a bird brain. sashays made me feel like a horse galloping but the teacher still said good. maybe she wasnt paying attention. but at least i got praised so many times during class! a lot more than usual! even on my bar work =)) the crescent dance teacher never praised ppl. treat everyone like animals which are non-homo sapiens since humans are animals. i cant imagine missing ballet for the camp. how in the world will i catch up when the pace speeds up every lesson.
yest went to so many banks coz of my grandfather. whole day gone. but at least i got my ULTIMA credit card and my ATM card =)) citibank finally waivered the fee after my dad gave them more money haha! the fee is like $2000 per yr. siao la. its more than 10X more the average cards coz its a millionaire card. i love the black card XD
oh and i sat in for this investment meeting at citibank. this guy talked abt commodities, stocks, cash, some other stuff to my dad then he went on to the technical maths details of how they calculate how much to invest in the risky and safety zone. then i interrupted and asked wat are they selling u?? my dad was like u shld ask that from the start mah! then they laughed. oh wells. then later on after they explained a bit then i was like oh so u pay them to put ur money in the bank? and my dad was like yea! then one of the banker was like win win situation mah.
and i got another intern offered by the board of directors themselves! marketing intern. and its for the pioneer project of a private company. directly under the marketing legend himself! but i get paid in the form of leftover products. oh never mind that.
and i love to leave ppl who challenge me stumped. it feels so darn good. whoever u are, better not let me find out. otherwise u'll suffer a fate worse than u already did ;)
sch today and tomorrow. argh.
torture in 9 days =(
Friday, May 18, 2007
yay! home early coz theres no double phy. thats the beauty of having a HOD of science as ur phy teacher.
mar said i shld state my rights. so here goes. 'i reserve the right to state what i feel about what i've witnessed' according to UN declaration of human rights. article 24. i have the right to rest and leisure, including reasonable limitation of working hours and periodic holidays with pay (which i was greatly denied). and so since my right was taken away by some ppl FIRST (u r prob one of them) then those some ppl including u deserve to have their and your rights taken away. oh btw article 18. i have the right to freedom of thought. article 19. i have the right to freedom of opinion and expression. and watever u said to me in ur tag, u violated article 5. no one shall be subjected to torture or to cruel, inhuman or degrading treatment or pubishment. (includes psycological torture). think abt it. u are quite mean arent u?
i realised i missed a point. "people like u" HAH! someone thinks he or she is of a superior species? someone's a saint huh? u know i think insane is more like it. sounds almost the same yea? oh my gosh thats so hilarious! it's so sad ppl like you only do things for portfolio. "only" huh? didnt ur gp teacher teach u to use qualifying statements? and that theres no absolutes? or u take KI? if u do then shame on u. i dont eat meals coz of my portfolio. im doing ballet not coz of my portfolio. that is real passion for dancing. and thank you very much but i dun sleep and watch tv coz of my portfolio too. ONLY huh? think twice before u speak.
its like this frog in the well crying out "for passion for commitment!" and will anyone be stupid enough to believe it? yea "it" HAHAHAHA! if u get the joke then good for u. oh u never ever did a single thing for ur portfolio? u study coz u love learning? u go to sch coz u love sch rather than home? u love breathing smelling devouring knowledge more than anything else? u love hw coz it enriches ur oh so deprived soul? u love exams coz they make u feel so darn good to sit down for 3 hrs and kill ur brain cells? u love wearing sch uni coz they make u look so darn smart? yea if u did ans yes to all the above, in belief that u never did anything for portfolio's sake EVER, then yea u are of a different species. and ur prob an alien from other planet too. u and only u. i wonder wat ur genome is like. maybe even ur blood is blue.
this person lives in his or her own ideal world. everything done for passion and commitment. i bet breathing the air even if it smells of garbage is also a passion for smelling garbage. eek. theres always needs and wants. and our lives have to be balanced by them. mine is. who wouldnt want to sleep and eat all day and slack around like some royalty with ppl to serve u? if i could i jus wanna sleep, watch tv, dance, eat, slack, fly around the world for life. even a pri sch kid knows good grades are essential. and yet this person of unknown mentality boasts passion and commitment in everything u do since a little for portfolio aint even allowed.
let me tell u this: everyone has dreams to pursue but reality is reality. and so there are some things that are necessary. like it or not. thats life. so open ur eyes, open ur ears and wake up from fantasy. stop dreaming. reality is harsh. and so we have to be practical at times. esp in a country like spore.
btw isnt this my blog? hello blue blooded frog *waves* what are u to ask me to censor my writings, feelings and emotions? yea u heard me right. i said "what" not "who". but if u give me a magic wand which has real power, maybe i will take back watever i said. deal? but i cant guarrantee i wun zap u when i get the chance.
oh btw if u do decide to go around telling others. which i presume u would. then do tell them my side of the story too. dun borrow my art of omission. its copyrighted.
mar said i shld state my rights. so here goes. 'i reserve the right to state what i feel about what i've witnessed' according to UN declaration of human rights. article 24. i have the right to rest and leisure, including reasonable limitation of working hours and periodic holidays with pay (which i was greatly denied). and so since my right was taken away by some ppl FIRST (u r prob one of them) then those some ppl including u deserve to have their and your rights taken away. oh btw article 18. i have the right to freedom of thought. article 19. i have the right to freedom of opinion and expression. and watever u said to me in ur tag, u violated article 5. no one shall be subjected to torture or to cruel, inhuman or degrading treatment or pubishment. (includes psycological torture). think abt it. u are quite mean arent u?
i realised i missed a point. "people like u" HAH! someone thinks he or she is of a superior species? someone's a saint huh? u know i think insane is more like it. sounds almost the same yea? oh my gosh thats so hilarious! it's so sad ppl like you only do things for portfolio. "only" huh? didnt ur gp teacher teach u to use qualifying statements? and that theres no absolutes? or u take KI? if u do then shame on u. i dont eat meals coz of my portfolio. im doing ballet not coz of my portfolio. that is real passion for dancing. and thank you very much but i dun sleep and watch tv coz of my portfolio too. ONLY huh? think twice before u speak.
its like this frog in the well crying out "for passion for commitment!" and will anyone be stupid enough to believe it? yea "it" HAHAHAHA! if u get the joke then good for u. oh u never ever did a single thing for ur portfolio? u study coz u love learning? u go to sch coz u love sch rather than home? u love breathing smelling devouring knowledge more than anything else? u love hw coz it enriches ur oh so deprived soul? u love exams coz they make u feel so darn good to sit down for 3 hrs and kill ur brain cells? u love wearing sch uni coz they make u look so darn smart? yea if u did ans yes to all the above, in belief that u never did anything for portfolio's sake EVER, then yea u are of a different species. and ur prob an alien from other planet too. u and only u. i wonder wat ur genome is like. maybe even ur blood is blue.
this person lives in his or her own ideal world. everything done for passion and commitment. i bet breathing the air even if it smells of garbage is also a passion for smelling garbage. eek. theres always needs and wants. and our lives have to be balanced by them. mine is. who wouldnt want to sleep and eat all day and slack around like some royalty with ppl to serve u? if i could i jus wanna sleep, watch tv, dance, eat, slack, fly around the world for life. even a pri sch kid knows good grades are essential. and yet this person of unknown mentality boasts passion and commitment in everything u do since a little for portfolio aint even allowed.
let me tell u this: everyone has dreams to pursue but reality is reality. and so there are some things that are necessary. like it or not. thats life. so open ur eyes, open ur ears and wake up from fantasy. stop dreaming. reality is harsh. and so we have to be practical at times. esp in a country like spore.
btw isnt this my blog? hello blue blooded frog *waves* what are u to ask me to censor my writings, feelings and emotions? yea u heard me right. i said "what" not "who". but if u give me a magic wand which has real power, maybe i will take back watever i said. deal? but i cant guarrantee i wun zap u when i get the chance.
oh btw if u do decide to go around telling others. which i presume u would. then do tell them my side of the story too. dun borrow my art of omission. its copyrighted.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
its so funny how some ppl have the guts to criticise other ppls writings yet dun even have the guts to write their name. such coward behaviour. or so committed until only remember co co co and forget his/her name. hahaha! and only read one entry and make so many comments. i mentioned so many times why i joined co. injuried ligament. no more dance and obviously no sports. wat choices am i left? and my sis asked me to join co coz not enough ppl. never read the one where i said i felt guilty for joining co for all the wrong reasons. theres something called archive if ur so involved in co that u dunno anything abt technology.
and not like i hated co right from the start. i used to like chinese music. and still do but less. i did enjoy my concert last year. i did have this long thank you list. its jus that slowly i and some others, all beginners, felt quite left out. and then co became a burden with silly pracs on well earned and deserved hols. then soon hate took over.
duh i dun need syf to get employed. co is so insignificant. and pls go read scholarship criteria. they require active participation in cca. and i have internships offered even before i graduate. but then perhaps u so involved in co only see co co co co. and im not even slamming co. never heard the stuff the malicious person in exco spread? or maybe u are that person. which explains the behaviour. or maybe no friends to tell u abt it. only have an instrument which cant speak. whatever she said, thats real slamming for u. mine is so minor. oh btw ive been correcting those wrong ideas abt co out there by spreading the correct info. so much for my help. get slammed by someone in return.
and i didnt join exco coz i can barely play the instrument. know the word called focus? and when co allowed members to participate in organising the annual concert i jumped at the chance. there u go. someone so committed and yet dunno a thing?? wat a joke man. yea like fine ur so commited to co. standing up for co "oh wow" well im not coz i have tons of other commitments i treasure more, get it? if everything was done for co out of passion then why feel sad when co didnt get gold with honours huh? so much for p-a-s-s-i-o-n. take abstract parts then anyhow scold ppl. twist my words. never seen a more unreasonable person. thats slamming for u in return.
nicely done im so proud of myself =)
caught in downpour today. coz mr tong took so long to come down to mark our attendence. ended up all wet. and i saw 2 baby rats. ok i used to find rats cute. and wish i could bring them home. but after the movie Rats. media influence for u. im kinda scared of them now. i was screaming jus now. and now i find them disgusting. maybe those rats were mutated so they werent as cute.
after bio tutorial wong li lan called me to ask where were we yest during sports day. i told her we hung around outside the library. she asked me until wat time? i replied 4+. technically i didnt lie. we did hang around outside the library and yea it could be until 4+. i didnt say it was spore time right? hahaha. the art of omitting stuff.
last day of official sch tmr. although still have to go back on so many days but jus knowing its officially over is a comfort. and 5 wks isnt long when u have tons of assignments online. like really tons. i know i always exaggerate hw but this time i really mean tons. i swear. and camp. sheesh. and camp follow ups. and online tests. bio and chem. and extra lessons. and many more disgusting pracs to come.
but at least i have ballet every week. im starting to love ballet more and more. never mind if my barwork sucks. at least its only one part of it. and i shall work on it. i found a nice spot at home =) the rest is very enjoyable. unlike dance in crescent when u make mistakes the instructor yells at u. treats the dancers like animals. give them degrading nicknames. my dad says i keep convincing ppl to join ballet, i shld get commission from them hahaha.
yea most of the times u get more than what u bargained for. my lifestyle is so badly affected...
and not like i hated co right from the start. i used to like chinese music. and still do but less. i did enjoy my concert last year. i did have this long thank you list. its jus that slowly i and some others, all beginners, felt quite left out. and then co became a burden with silly pracs on well earned and deserved hols. then soon hate took over.
duh i dun need syf to get employed. co is so insignificant. and pls go read scholarship criteria. they require active participation in cca. and i have internships offered even before i graduate. but then perhaps u so involved in co only see co co co co. and im not even slamming co. never heard the stuff the malicious person in exco spread? or maybe u are that person. which explains the behaviour. or maybe no friends to tell u abt it. only have an instrument which cant speak. whatever she said, thats real slamming for u. mine is so minor. oh btw ive been correcting those wrong ideas abt co out there by spreading the correct info. so much for my help. get slammed by someone in return.
and i didnt join exco coz i can barely play the instrument. know the word called focus? and when co allowed members to participate in organising the annual concert i jumped at the chance. there u go. someone so committed and yet dunno a thing?? wat a joke man. yea like fine ur so commited to co. standing up for co "oh wow" well im not coz i have tons of other commitments i treasure more, get it? if everything was done for co out of passion then why feel sad when co didnt get gold with honours huh? so much for p-a-s-s-i-o-n. take abstract parts then anyhow scold ppl. twist my words. never seen a more unreasonable person. thats slamming for u in return.
nicely done im so proud of myself =)
caught in downpour today. coz mr tong took so long to come down to mark our attendence. ended up all wet. and i saw 2 baby rats. ok i used to find rats cute. and wish i could bring them home. but after the movie Rats. media influence for u. im kinda scared of them now. i was screaming jus now. and now i find them disgusting. maybe those rats were mutated so they werent as cute.
after bio tutorial wong li lan called me to ask where were we yest during sports day. i told her we hung around outside the library. she asked me until wat time? i replied 4+. technically i didnt lie. we did hang around outside the library and yea it could be until 4+. i didnt say it was spore time right? hahaha. the art of omitting stuff.
last day of official sch tmr. although still have to go back on so many days but jus knowing its officially over is a comfort. and 5 wks isnt long when u have tons of assignments online. like really tons. i know i always exaggerate hw but this time i really mean tons. i swear. and camp. sheesh. and camp follow ups. and online tests. bio and chem. and extra lessons. and many more disgusting pracs to come.
but at least i have ballet every week. im starting to love ballet more and more. never mind if my barwork sucks. at least its only one part of it. and i shall work on it. i found a nice spot at home =) the rest is very enjoyable. unlike dance in crescent when u make mistakes the instructor yells at u. treats the dancers like animals. give them degrading nicknames. my dad says i keep convincing ppl to join ballet, i shld get commission from them hahaha.
yea most of the times u get more than what u bargained for. my lifestyle is so badly affected...
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
today we sneaked out of sch. it was really really scary =X
was supposed to stay back for sports day. but its such a waste of time. so wan xuan, debra han, sonia and i had a meeting to plan how to sneak out. met wong li lan and she sorta knew we were gonna do that. but she was gg to do sisc stuff. and she took so long to get out of the sch. kept walking around the atrium. all of us were like hurry get on the bus and get out! waited for like half an hr before she left lor. then wan xuan was like cheering. so funny. then we hurridly ran down to parade square. and the security guard was talking to someone so his back was facing us. then this man told us in chinese to hurry up run. so we ran out of school. i'll never want to try that again. my heart cant take it.
enrichment payment was like a mess. my edusave balance only $37+ and can only use $1.55 -_-" then the chinese dance teacher in charge said not enough ppl signed up for the class so wanted us to combine with dance workshop since they also short of ppl. he showed me and this girl the dates and we both said cannot. i think i can make it for at least one of the dates la but i dun wanna do dance workshop. bound to have the western dancers. very stressful to dance with them. and no thanks to hip hop. i had enough of bruises last year.
was supposed to stay back for sports day. but its such a waste of time. so wan xuan, debra han, sonia and i had a meeting to plan how to sneak out. met wong li lan and she sorta knew we were gonna do that. but she was gg to do sisc stuff. and she took so long to get out of the sch. kept walking around the atrium. all of us were like hurry get on the bus and get out! waited for like half an hr before she left lor. then wan xuan was like cheering. so funny. then we hurridly ran down to parade square. and the security guard was talking to someone so his back was facing us. then this man told us in chinese to hurry up run. so we ran out of school. i'll never want to try that again. my heart cant take it.
enrichment payment was like a mess. my edusave balance only $37+ and can only use $1.55 -_-" then the chinese dance teacher in charge said not enough ppl signed up for the class so wanted us to combine with dance workshop since they also short of ppl. he showed me and this girl the dates and we both said cannot. i think i can make it for at least one of the dates la but i dun wanna do dance workshop. bound to have the western dancers. very stressful to dance with them. and no thanks to hip hop. i had enough of bruises last year.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
freak why isnt blogger cured yet? so inefficient. worse than co.
my paternal grandfather moved in today. he spent 34 days in hospital and nobody knew. he fell in the airport and was sent to hospital but he couldnt recall any of our numbers so the hospital couldnt contact us. they didnt let him go home himself coz they were afraid he would fall again. in the end the hospital broke into my grandfather's apartment using address on his IC and found my dad's contact no. my youngest uncle tried contacting him the past few wks but nobody answered the phone. knock on the door also nobody ans. so he thought my grandfather went overseas. i dont know how he ever got that idea.
when i came home on mon to find relatives at home i didnt have a very good feeling abt it. everyone was quite quiet. and they seemed more caring than usual. then they exchanged everyone's numbers. and house and room keys. everyone seemed teary when i asked how come nobody knew? thats why last time i suggested that my dad bring my grandfather home coz he is 90+ and living by himself. but my grandparents cant get along. my aunt says its old couples prob. watever that is. they refuse to talk abt it.
i hope i'll never have to suffer the old couples prob.
spent the whole of yest rearranging furniture. and then went to the hospital. which was really stinking. hate the smell.
enrichment wk activities out. i got everything i signed up for! so lucky! hahaha!
and i injured my back during ballet coz i pushed myself too hard =(
oh ya my parents made me sign up for this camp in june. to do adventure activites and overcome fears and it costs like $1400. already with a $300 discount. i dont want the sun. i dont want lack of sleep. i dont want mud. i dont want heights. i dont want to do those weird activities with strangers. and i dont want to give a speech to 100 ppl at the end of it. argh.
my paternal grandfather moved in today. he spent 34 days in hospital and nobody knew. he fell in the airport and was sent to hospital but he couldnt recall any of our numbers so the hospital couldnt contact us. they didnt let him go home himself coz they were afraid he would fall again. in the end the hospital broke into my grandfather's apartment using address on his IC and found my dad's contact no. my youngest uncle tried contacting him the past few wks but nobody answered the phone. knock on the door also nobody ans. so he thought my grandfather went overseas. i dont know how he ever got that idea.
when i came home on mon to find relatives at home i didnt have a very good feeling abt it. everyone was quite quiet. and they seemed more caring than usual. then they exchanged everyone's numbers. and house and room keys. everyone seemed teary when i asked how come nobody knew? thats why last time i suggested that my dad bring my grandfather home coz he is 90+ and living by himself. but my grandparents cant get along. my aunt says its old couples prob. watever that is. they refuse to talk abt it.
i hope i'll never have to suffer the old couples prob.
spent the whole of yest rearranging furniture. and then went to the hospital. which was really stinking. hate the smell.
enrichment wk activities out. i got everything i signed up for! so lucky! hahaha!
and i injured my back during ballet coz i pushed myself too hard =(
oh ya my parents made me sign up for this camp in june. to do adventure activites and overcome fears and it costs like $1400. already with a $300 discount. i dont want the sun. i dont want lack of sleep. i dont want mud. i dont want heights. i dont want to do those weird activities with strangers. and i dont want to give a speech to 100 ppl at the end of it. argh.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
i want the SAAB aero X concept car and a house with a garage big enough for it. that space shuttle like car got me dreaming u see =) but for now all i want is to go out on a private yatch, watch the sunset, drink champagne and dive into the deep blue ocean. i always wanted to swim in the ocean but theres sharks, jelly fish with nematocysts etc. i always wonder will the sharks really bite? i know the jellyfish will sting. coz i did get stung before.
im aching like nuts. at least its the last time.
im aching like nuts. at least its the last time.
Friday, May 11, 2007
theres this stupid server problem which affects my posting. grr.
neways njco got gold. hc and tj got gold with honours. oh wells i didnt expect njco to get gold with honours anyway. gold wouldnt have been a problem since gold standard is quite low. i said that since the begining of the year. and even when we went on stage i still believed we wun get gold with honours although other ppl had so much hope. so i went onto stage smiling coz i already knew wat we would get. but i hoped we would get into syf presentation. i know that will kill but it'll look good on my portfolio. but sadly no syf presentation. oh wells now i jus hope there wun be pracs this coming wk and june pracs wun be so frequent. july concert has so many songs. syf play 2 le i prac until wanna die le. sigh.
no more late night pracs till 9+pm then being back at sch in less than 10 hrs. no more sat pracs. no more sun pracs. no more public hol pracs. no more pracs on off-in-lieus. no more pracs on half days. yea im jus bluffing myself. but it makes me happier so i rather believe in it.
sch ended at 1230 today. no double phy. YES! but theres gg to be e lecture on alternating current. eek. but if i suffer frm insomnia over the next 5 wks i will have something to turn to ;)
oh oh i did 5 stations today. worse than last year la but still gold. mr tong was so strict with my incline pull ups! i heard that the ppl who did napfa on the sat scheduled for napfa had a very easy time. didnt have to reach the bar. go up a little can le. and didnt have to straighten arms. coz those taking down the scores werent nj teachers. ppl who couldnt even do 3 ended up with scores of like 15-20+. so unfair! mr tong watched my every pull up so closely. the 1st one i didnt fully extend then not counted. then halfway (coz in the morning was raining so it was wet) i slipped a little and my leg moved so he didnt count that either. wat the freak. only 1 thing was gg through my mind at that time and that was my usual gold award slipping away. but i made it thanks to sonia and jie lin who accompanied me throughout the entire 5 stations! sonia felt so sorry for me that my incline standards were so tough.
and then sit and reach wasted sia. i couldnt cheat. tried to but mr tong discovered. argh. i didnt do my max and that made me so disappointed. coz i felt that the metal thing was quite far so i thought i prob hit the 60 mark le so dont bother gg all the way. but i was only at 58 leh! 2cm short which could have been done without much effort! mr tong was shaking his head and said i did until like so easy like that. then jie lin asked mr tong if can redo then mr tong was like u A++++ already still want to redo for wat?! u want to go to 70 is it?
uh how abt something called satisfaction of hitting the 60cm mark which i always wanted to? oh maybe jus for fun...towards the end of the year i shall go do sit and reach to see if those ballet classes did help hahaha!
standing broad jump. it was wet. had a crash landing =( sit ups. mr tong said my elbow touch any part of my thighs can le. i didnt know leh. i always thought it was elbow touch knees lor. now then i found out. so wasted sia. so i ended up extending my arms more than anything XD i only do sit ups once a year and that is during napfa. and i requested that he informs me when its 40s so i can speed up. when it was 40s i was at 29 or something. hurridly did the last 3 and told him can le. heh.
oh then shuttle run was in the gym coz track was wet. some stupid teacher made the 1st marking horizontally in the gym so there wasnt space for crash landing so towards the end i had to slow down before crashing into the wall. dumb idea. mr tong went to measure another marking for me with lots of space for crash landing. but he starts the stop watch when he says start leh. other teachers start when u start lor. i ended with a split in the air. dunno if that helped or worsened my timing. doesnt really matter since i still got gold.
no more napfa for the rest of my life wahahahahaha! thats something worth celebrating!! =)
neways njco got gold. hc and tj got gold with honours. oh wells i didnt expect njco to get gold with honours anyway. gold wouldnt have been a problem since gold standard is quite low. i said that since the begining of the year. and even when we went on stage i still believed we wun get gold with honours although other ppl had so much hope. so i went onto stage smiling coz i already knew wat we would get. but i hoped we would get into syf presentation. i know that will kill but it'll look good on my portfolio. but sadly no syf presentation. oh wells now i jus hope there wun be pracs this coming wk and june pracs wun be so frequent. july concert has so many songs. syf play 2 le i prac until wanna die le. sigh.
no more late night pracs till 9+pm then being back at sch in less than 10 hrs. no more sat pracs. no more sun pracs. no more public hol pracs. no more pracs on off-in-lieus. no more pracs on half days. yea im jus bluffing myself. but it makes me happier so i rather believe in it.
sch ended at 1230 today. no double phy. YES! but theres gg to be e lecture on alternating current. eek. but if i suffer frm insomnia over the next 5 wks i will have something to turn to ;)
oh oh i did 5 stations today. worse than last year la but still gold. mr tong was so strict with my incline pull ups! i heard that the ppl who did napfa on the sat scheduled for napfa had a very easy time. didnt have to reach the bar. go up a little can le. and didnt have to straighten arms. coz those taking down the scores werent nj teachers. ppl who couldnt even do 3 ended up with scores of like 15-20+. so unfair! mr tong watched my every pull up so closely. the 1st one i didnt fully extend then not counted. then halfway (coz in the morning was raining so it was wet) i slipped a little and my leg moved so he didnt count that either. wat the freak. only 1 thing was gg through my mind at that time and that was my usual gold award slipping away. but i made it thanks to sonia and jie lin who accompanied me throughout the entire 5 stations! sonia felt so sorry for me that my incline standards were so tough.
and then sit and reach wasted sia. i couldnt cheat. tried to but mr tong discovered. argh. i didnt do my max and that made me so disappointed. coz i felt that the metal thing was quite far so i thought i prob hit the 60 mark le so dont bother gg all the way. but i was only at 58 leh! 2cm short which could have been done without much effort! mr tong was shaking his head and said i did until like so easy like that. then jie lin asked mr tong if can redo then mr tong was like u A++++ already still want to redo for wat?! u want to go to 70 is it?
uh how abt something called satisfaction of hitting the 60cm mark which i always wanted to? oh maybe jus for fun...towards the end of the year i shall go do sit and reach to see if those ballet classes did help hahaha!
standing broad jump. it was wet. had a crash landing =( sit ups. mr tong said my elbow touch any part of my thighs can le. i didnt know leh. i always thought it was elbow touch knees lor. now then i found out. so wasted sia. so i ended up extending my arms more than anything XD i only do sit ups once a year and that is during napfa. and i requested that he informs me when its 40s so i can speed up. when it was 40s i was at 29 or something. hurridly did the last 3 and told him can le. heh.
oh then shuttle run was in the gym coz track was wet. some stupid teacher made the 1st marking horizontally in the gym so there wasnt space for crash landing so towards the end i had to slow down before crashing into the wall. dumb idea. mr tong went to measure another marking for me with lots of space for crash landing. but he starts the stop watch when he says start leh. other teachers start when u start lor. i ended with a split in the air. dunno if that helped or worsened my timing. doesnt really matter since i still got gold.
no more napfa for the rest of my life wahahahahaha! thats something worth celebrating!! =)
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
yea its tmr but im not feeling anything. i think even if i stepped onto stage tmr i still wun feel anything. 3rd syf.
for my 1st syf i sang. that syf meant a lot to me. coz i didnt have to think abt my portfolio. i did it coz i loved choir. when i heard that we got silver i was really sad.
for my 2nd syf i danced. i was nervous when i went onto the stage. we prayed to the four walls before we started. something crescent dancers did. and after the dance a lot of ppl were crying over the mistakes they made. as for me, i couldnt wait for it to be over. and after tat i quit dance. quit the most amazing thing in my life. i only got to know abt the results like a month after the syf hahaha. gold. but it didnt mean anything to me.
for this 3rd syf im gonna play an instrument. and the thing is...i dont even feel the least bit anxious. totally indifferent.
jus now when zi wei scolded co he cried in front of the entire orchestra. that was scary. imgaine an 18 yr old guy crying in front of 80+ ppl. i rather he yelled/screamed...jus not cry. coz when i see ppl crying i feel like crying too. no thats not the real reason. haha i dunno...i cant really describe how i felt. a bit guilty perhaps? for joining co for all the wrong reasons u can think of.
and tmr we are supposed to go back to nj after syf then go back to SCH. but im not gg back to SCH from nj. zi wei asked me how come i dun want to hear the results? i didnt ans him. coz i didnt know how to put it across to make me sound less evil? but its coz i dont feel anything for this syf. thats why. and i dunno how to freaking come home from SCH. and i really dun want to go through the trauma of changing mrt lines. and walk across half the spore in court shoes and stockings. cant imagine that.
for my 1st syf i sang. that syf meant a lot to me. coz i didnt have to think abt my portfolio. i did it coz i loved choir. when i heard that we got silver i was really sad.
for my 2nd syf i danced. i was nervous when i went onto the stage. we prayed to the four walls before we started. something crescent dancers did. and after the dance a lot of ppl were crying over the mistakes they made. as for me, i couldnt wait for it to be over. and after tat i quit dance. quit the most amazing thing in my life. i only got to know abt the results like a month after the syf hahaha. gold. but it didnt mean anything to me.
for this 3rd syf im gonna play an instrument. and the thing is...i dont even feel the least bit anxious. totally indifferent.
jus now when zi wei scolded co he cried in front of the entire orchestra. that was scary. imgaine an 18 yr old guy crying in front of 80+ ppl. i rather he yelled/screamed...jus not cry. coz when i see ppl crying i feel like crying too. no thats not the real reason. haha i dunno...i cant really describe how i felt. a bit guilty perhaps? for joining co for all the wrong reasons u can think of.
and tmr we are supposed to go back to nj after syf then go back to SCH. but im not gg back to SCH from nj. zi wei asked me how come i dun want to hear the results? i didnt ans him. coz i didnt know how to put it across to make me sound less evil? but its coz i dont feel anything for this syf. thats why. and i dunno how to freaking come home from SCH. and i really dun want to go through the trauma of changing mrt lines. and walk across half the spore in court shoes and stockings. cant imagine that.
Saturday, May 05, 2007
i wonder if this post works. it looks weird on my com.
i need magic to help me with hw. 6 chem tutorials. 1 math tutorial. 1 phy tutorial. eek. 1 bio tutorial. 5 econs essays.
did 2.4 yest in the rain. not drizzle. the rain was quite heavy but run-able. mr tong scolded us in the morning for no apparent reason. i didnt say im not gonna run in the rain what. btw im running during my free period? and wasnt i the one who reminded u the night before that im gonna run on fri morning? he was scolding this girl before he scolded us so i think its that girl's fault. she ran with us later on. and she walked. made me tired la. so i was like telling myself dun look at her. dun look at her. look at janice in front. sonia was pacing me and encouraging me to keep going. 15:10 =) even better than last yr's timing. whee im happy =) thanks a lot to janice and sonia who ran with me during their free periods too =) after i finished my run, the sun came out. then after i changed to go for maths, it poured like nuts. it seems like the weather softened jus for me =)
i really wanna say this but i dun think i shld say it so openly so i shall say it abstractly. she always gong bao si chou lor. cant stand her cant stand her. i keep asking myself why did i ever vote for her into the exco. i dunno. sometimes i think that last time she wasnt like that. she wasnt as (i hardly use this word) bitchy. if everyone has an issue with her then its obviously her fault right? yea i have an issue with her too and she told the entire world. watever. after aug i shall never haf to see her again. thats something im looking forward to. never mind prelims. jus knowing theres no more her and no more co would be of great comfort =)
at first i was still thinking maybe i was kinda harsh. but now i dont think so. if shes so mean to try and kick someone out of syf using an invalid excuse jus because that someone scolded her before then she really deserved whatever the scolding from that someone and from me. btw the scoldings were valid. and then she didnt want the most suitable candidate to be the most impt person (shou xi) on stage on syf coz she has an issue with him. and then she goes around sch telling everyone that the exco does nothing. she does everything by herself. and everyone listens to her only. HAH!
like sheesh get a life will u? stop creating problems for everyone can?
most ppl from our section now ignore her. yesterday she sat by herself in the corner looking pitiful but hardly anyone pitied her. and the exco is trying to cover it up and pretend nothing ever happened. they jus want to avoid the issue. i have no idea why. i prefer to tackle the prob and strip her frm power.
but then theres always something good that comes out from everything bad. and that is true love being proven. im touched. so touched. this guy was willing to give up his syf. and he is gonna play solo. jus for someone.
gives me reason to believe that fairytales do come true.
i need magic to help me with hw. 6 chem tutorials. 1 math tutorial. 1 phy tutorial. eek. 1 bio tutorial. 5 econs essays.
did 2.4 yest in the rain. not drizzle. the rain was quite heavy but run-able. mr tong scolded us in the morning for no apparent reason. i didnt say im not gonna run in the rain what. btw im running during my free period? and wasnt i the one who reminded u the night before that im gonna run on fri morning? he was scolding this girl before he scolded us so i think its that girl's fault. she ran with us later on. and she walked. made me tired la. so i was like telling myself dun look at her. dun look at her. look at janice in front. sonia was pacing me and encouraging me to keep going. 15:10 =) even better than last yr's timing. whee im happy =) thanks a lot to janice and sonia who ran with me during their free periods too =) after i finished my run, the sun came out. then after i changed to go for maths, it poured like nuts. it seems like the weather softened jus for me =)
i really wanna say this but i dun think i shld say it so openly so i shall say it abstractly. she always gong bao si chou lor. cant stand her cant stand her. i keep asking myself why did i ever vote for her into the exco. i dunno. sometimes i think that last time she wasnt like that. she wasnt as (i hardly use this word) bitchy. if everyone has an issue with her then its obviously her fault right? yea i have an issue with her too and she told the entire world. watever. after aug i shall never haf to see her again. thats something im looking forward to. never mind prelims. jus knowing theres no more her and no more co would be of great comfort =)
at first i was still thinking maybe i was kinda harsh. but now i dont think so. if shes so mean to try and kick someone out of syf using an invalid excuse jus because that someone scolded her before then she really deserved whatever the scolding from that someone and from me. btw the scoldings were valid. and then she didnt want the most suitable candidate to be the most impt person (shou xi) on stage on syf coz she has an issue with him. and then she goes around sch telling everyone that the exco does nothing. she does everything by herself. and everyone listens to her only. HAH!
like sheesh get a life will u? stop creating problems for everyone can?
most ppl from our section now ignore her. yesterday she sat by herself in the corner looking pitiful but hardly anyone pitied her. and the exco is trying to cover it up and pretend nothing ever happened. they jus want to avoid the issue. i have no idea why. i prefer to tackle the prob and strip her frm power.
but then theres always something good that comes out from everything bad. and that is true love being proven. im touched. so touched. this guy was willing to give up his syf. and he is gonna play solo. jus for someone.
gives me reason to believe that fairytales do come true.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
ahhh been so busy its been pure madness!
pe was cancelled today =) im not supposed to be here. im supposed to be doing my 2 chem tutorials due tmr. actually i got 6 chem tutorials on the waiting list. and its only chem. argh. somehow im starting to hate my best science subj =X
ballet at SDT. it was so run down compared to what i had in mind. afterall its singapore dance theatre and the most pro adult ballet sch here. thats why i paid so much for it. but what i got was not even aircon, it was open air with fans. the class before us was this grp of young girls having full dress rehearsal. they ate half an hr into our lesson. but the teacher made it up later on and we had half an hr of free ballet show. so no complaints from me ;) those girls were so pro. how they jump into the air with their legs almost touching their heads. and all smiles while dancing. they were doing contemporary dance mixed with some ballet.
and the bar at SDT was so high. we did bar work. and after i lifted my leg onto the bar, leg cramps came within seconds. like i barely started class la. our teacher is like rubber band hahaha! and she really walks like a duck. hopefully since im already past puberty, ballet wun make me walk like a duck. even if it means a graceful duck. and i think im the youngest in the class. most are in their 20s. theres 30s and 40s. im prob the only one below 20.
went back for co on a freaking public hol with an injured wrist. i didnt want to go. parents forced me. hmm nxt time i shall not tell them anything. the tendon's inflammed coz of bio spa. the 1 hr writing 10 sides of an A4 sized paper. coz of my elbow injury i position my hand very unnaturally and so i strained my wrist. great.
SCH rehearsal was ok. nothing much except the bus to SCH was so stuffy i was suffering frm a bit of motion sickness. no i dont feel the adrenaline. its CO not dance. yea.
2.4 tmr. pls dont rain. i cant think of another slot to do this. i really really need to get it over with a gold. i dont even know when im gonna take 5 stations. prob after syf. dun want to risk another injury. shao min was asking me to stop ballet till after syf. no way la! never! co and ballet. of course ballet!
hw's been piling up like nuts. im tired too. but at least happier with dance back in my life now. cant wait for co to leave me forever. aug pls come soon!
oh and i love to see so many tags when i havent updated for so many days =)
tag replies:
chen: dear if u go for co on a public hol which is so utterly boring and having not so nice ppl around then u wun enjoy it either!
sha: hey thanks! yup we shall go ice skating during enrichment week! dance on ice! ultra hot and cool XD
jl: hahaha saw someone dating in sch huh? heh. thanks! and good luck to u and that someone ;)
mar: hot pink leotard is nice ok! u waited until 2000 ah? they drove me nuts at 100+ already hahaha! sorry mar, been busy. havent seen u around online. havent signed in for days actually =(
crystal: hey! commitment to something u like is great but when commitment becomes a burden, its a burden. u didnt reply to my tag on ur blog!
pe was cancelled today =) im not supposed to be here. im supposed to be doing my 2 chem tutorials due tmr. actually i got 6 chem tutorials on the waiting list. and its only chem. argh. somehow im starting to hate my best science subj =X
ballet at SDT. it was so run down compared to what i had in mind. afterall its singapore dance theatre and the most pro adult ballet sch here. thats why i paid so much for it. but what i got was not even aircon, it was open air with fans. the class before us was this grp of young girls having full dress rehearsal. they ate half an hr into our lesson. but the teacher made it up later on and we had half an hr of free ballet show. so no complaints from me ;) those girls were so pro. how they jump into the air with their legs almost touching their heads. and all smiles while dancing. they were doing contemporary dance mixed with some ballet.
and the bar at SDT was so high. we did bar work. and after i lifted my leg onto the bar, leg cramps came within seconds. like i barely started class la. our teacher is like rubber band hahaha! and she really walks like a duck. hopefully since im already past puberty, ballet wun make me walk like a duck. even if it means a graceful duck. and i think im the youngest in the class. most are in their 20s. theres 30s and 40s. im prob the only one below 20.
went back for co on a freaking public hol with an injured wrist. i didnt want to go. parents forced me. hmm nxt time i shall not tell them anything. the tendon's inflammed coz of bio spa. the 1 hr writing 10 sides of an A4 sized paper. coz of my elbow injury i position my hand very unnaturally and so i strained my wrist. great.
SCH rehearsal was ok. nothing much except the bus to SCH was so stuffy i was suffering frm a bit of motion sickness. no i dont feel the adrenaline. its CO not dance. yea.
2.4 tmr. pls dont rain. i cant think of another slot to do this. i really really need to get it over with a gold. i dont even know when im gonna take 5 stations. prob after syf. dun want to risk another injury. shao min was asking me to stop ballet till after syf. no way la! never! co and ballet. of course ballet!
hw's been piling up like nuts. im tired too. but at least happier with dance back in my life now. cant wait for co to leave me forever. aug pls come soon!
oh and i love to see so many tags when i havent updated for so many days =)
tag replies:
chen: dear if u go for co on a public hol which is so utterly boring and having not so nice ppl around then u wun enjoy it either!
sha: hey thanks! yup we shall go ice skating during enrichment week! dance on ice! ultra hot and cool XD
jl: hahaha saw someone dating in sch huh? heh. thanks! and good luck to u and that someone ;)
mar: hot pink leotard is nice ok! u waited until 2000 ah? they drove me nuts at 100+ already hahaha! sorry mar, been busy. havent seen u around online. havent signed in for days actually =(
crystal: hey! commitment to something u like is great but when commitment becomes a burden, its a burden. u didnt reply to my tag on ur blog!