Profile__________
>HUANG XIAOQI
>6 April 1989
>Aries
>dancer, ballerina
>Tumble Tots 1991-1992, Pats Schoolhouse 1993-1994 (Dalvey, Protoceratops), Pats Schoolhouse 1995 (Whitley), Henry Park Primary School 1996-2001 (1A,2A,3G,4C,5B,6B), Crescent Girls' School 2002-2005 (keller, 1G2, 2G2, 3C1, 4C1), National Junior College 2006-2007 (og26 solaris, 06S24 terra), National University of Singapore 2007 semester 2 (LSM1103, A7, B5), Nanyang Technological University - Nanyang Business School 2008-2009 (Group B)
>PwC 2008 IAS 7 Team A

Likes__________
ballet, dancing, figure skating, shopping, watching romantic comedies and chinese drama serials, blogging, spanish, psychology, hairstyling, piano, baking, most water sports, go karting

Wishlist__________
>PwC audit internship
>1st class honours
>Masters
>Financial Freedom
>perfect eyesight
>white gold heart shaped diamond ring ;)
>lisa harris: my favourite ballet class cd
>songs in wu dong quan cheng (the whole city is dancing: steps)
>a new leotard
>a dance partner
>learn pointe
>sponsorship for driving lessons
>a guinea pig
>a dwarf bunny
>baby pink vaio laptop!
>sasha cohen's autograph

Tag here!__________

Events __________

>practical test 13 march 2009
>internship may 2009

Links__________

| Blogger|

| sis| | bro |

| cousin|

| 06S24| | ang si min |

| chendrawati ong | | sabrina wong |

| ain| | julie ong |

| lu yuan mei | | ivy wong |

| crystal soh| | yu lu |

| tasya| | eunice ho |

| qiu xin hui| | tay siang hong |

| jasmine sim| | pauline hwang |

| marcia andriani| | esther teo |

| jack lim| | ho jia yi |

| eileen poh | | yeoh yun jie |

| janice chen (aka tortuga)| | ke cai ling |

| samantha eng| | jean chong |

| ode kakeru| | wang yueh hsin |

| lim xian yong| | jie lin |

| jessica lo| | tsai zhenling |

| li sha | | teresa tay |

| debra han | | lim peiyi |

Archives__________

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Monday, March 31, 2008

i was watching a drama series on tv.

this girl sat in the cab. her mind kept playing scenes of what happened at her friends house. and each time it replayed, it hurt her even more than the previous time she watched it in her mind. if she had a glass of water in her hands, she would squeeze it so hard, it would shatter and cut her. but no matter how deep the cuts will and can be, it would be insignificant compared to how much her heart hurt.

in her room, she recalled how she went back to her Yamaha school on sunday morning. she sat outside the studios, watching the children play the piano. she thought of how much she wanted to be a kid again. she thought of how tired she was in real life just trying to meet expectations people had of her. but now, she thinks of that memory in a different light. she thought of how she used to be so demanding of others, depending on people so much and expecting even more of those around her.

she changed all of that but it wasnt enough. she was still naive, materialistic and superficial. and now she hates herself for wanting to be a kid again. she hates herself for thinking about going back to being 16 again. she hates herself for not being able to grow up fast enough.

and after all that has happened, all she wants now is to go to the beach and die there. and let her spirit roam free. and hear the sound of the waves for eternity.

i hate that girl on the tv. so much.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 10:44 PM

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Sunday, March 30, 2008

i went back on both sat and sun. li wen will kill me if she finds out =X

thanks a lot for lunch, the cake, the birthday song and everything else you did for me (including teaching me how to use the lighter hahaha). i cant thank you enough =)

i hate to say this but jasmine is right. her tarot cards are so powerful, so accurate. the cards that were drawn came true. she asked me are you sure you want to do this knowing the outcome? i said yes. against all odds, i challenged destiny. i thought i could win but who was i kidding? yes, i failed. i made a few mistakes along the way. one of the biggest mistake anyone could ever make, i made it. although i did it for a very valid reason, it is still just an excuse.

today, i doubted myself.

the worst way anyone can ever hurt me is to accuse me of doing or saying or thinking something that i never once did or said or thought. and to still not believe me when the person who is a living proof did all she could to prove my innocence.

i always knew the importance of trust and communication. but i didnt realise how much they truly mean. and when both break down, thats when everything goes wrong. and then you find yourself in a total mess. like sha asked me, how did you get yourself into so much shit?

i was clearing out my phone's inbox. deleting the messages that i saved and those that just came in today. the messages i kept and treasured. and the messages that were total trash. and when i was done, i was left crying, staring at the emptiest inbox i had seen in the longest time.

so that is what it has been reduced to now. standing far away from me. and watching me in the distant.

and to think, just one week ago, the mouse waved its wand and left us spellbound.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 9:39 PM

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Friday, March 28, 2008

im on mc at home thinking about all my work in the office. i might as well just go in right? sigh.

had vt gathering at sarah's house yesterday. everyone was counting down to 530. we went "clubbing". hahaha. well actually we played some game. it was uh lame but quite funny haha. and all of them ganged up to give me the most obvious name la. made it so easy for them to win. but oh wells denise and mark owe us a forfeit. i kinda remembered denise saying it is partner de. im all for pole dancing hahaha.

oh and im not supposed to say this but we watched lion king 2 last night. didnt finish it coz the guys were dying from it so we switched to just follow law. but shaun was just the ultimate source of entertainment. too bad it was a thurs night.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 11:11 AM

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Monday, March 24, 2008

i barely did anything the whole day in the office. now i finally understand why some companies totally forbid it. it is so disruptive. i couldnt even clock 7 hrs of work today and i was in at 730am and left at 630pm.

it was pouring on my way home. the bus ride was so long coz of the traffic jam. and one of the lights was uh red? sarah said it looked like the red light district. well i thought of the dark room first hahaha.

i need to make a trip down to nj after work tomorrow.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 9:23 PM

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Sunday, March 23, 2008

im finally back home. planned to leave office at 7 but ended up leaving after 830 -_-" at 830 i threw the pile of files onto my table and i was like what am i doing here at 830pm on a sunday night!?? IM GOING HOME!

thats the first time i actually had the courage to do something like that.

but yea really what was i doing in the office at 830pm on a sunday night? its insane. i worked all 3 days of the long weekend. pure madness. im in need of therapy.

why is everyone asking me about applications? like im some kind of guru. which im not haha.

and we have a mouse to thank for all that happened this evening =)

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 9:06 PM

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Saturday, March 22, 2008

im trying to do my applications and my mum cant be bothered to help me check =(

went back to the office yesterday from morning till evening. brought a 4 inch stack of papers home to do sourcing but forgot to bring the sourcing sheets home -_-" im going in on sunday to continue. li wen failed to flood my table last night hahaha. i win =)

when i went back to the office yesterday the security guard stopped me to ask a lot of personal questions. asked for my name, how long have i been working here, how old am i, am i a university intern, am i married or single, do i have a boyfriend O_O my mum and grace said that is because my attire was too sexy but when jx left the office she got asked the same set of questions and she was in jeans so it had nothing to do with my attire. haha

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 4:11 PM

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Friday, March 21, 2008

now is the i feel like burying myself under my comforter moment.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 10:55 PM

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Thursday, March 20, 2008

wasnt in the mood to work the whole day and PETS didnt help a single bit. in fact it added to my stress levels. before i left cindy came to return a file and then she asked me if that whole pile is my in-tray and i replied yea. then she went O_O thats bad! and i laughed. even if i were to work 8 hrs tomorrow i wont be anywhere near completion. and i want to come back on mon to see a totally clean table. yea im gonna keep dreaming haha.

the other day there was a lizzard in my mum's car. wonder how it got in. every time it inched closer i screamed. then my mum told the lizzard "i got to drive and i still have to watch you, you are going to cause an accident you know!" my mum rocks hahaha.

my sis got the overseas attachment. im so happy for her. at least her going without sleep for 32 hours and lagging behind everyone was all worth it. im going to bake her a pizza. i wonder how did she survive 32 hours without sleep. i cant even stay awake for 20 hours!

im going to bring a stuff toy into the office to cheer me on. and wait for yours to accompany mine =)

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 10:11 PM

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Sunday, March 16, 2008

maybe my mum is right.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 9:04 PM

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Saturday, March 15, 2008

我们的爱情是来得那么自然，表面平淡如水其实细水长流。
一点一滴的爱意，溶入在取笑捉弄追逐打闹之中。
虽然没有砰然心动的感觉却别有温馨浪漫。
这样的爱情不是最完美的吗？

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 3:44 PM

im so NOT going back this weekend. i got to keep thinking that way and hope it sits in my mind.

into the peak. and its insane. li wen and i finally met the target cindy set for li wen last week. 30 CS returns. yea we were 1 week late and we had help from someone but it is still satisfying haha.

had party in the office yesterday. the cupcakes were cute. and strawberries with choco. yummy =))

shidah brought some files home yesterday. she was telling cheng zheng that shes not coming back over the weekend. if she did it would seem as though she has no life. and i was like are you hinting i dont have one?? and she replied you have a new life *censored* and gave me a cheeky smile. i was like -_-" maybe i shouldnt have told them the truth. it would have been more fun to keep them guessing. hahaha.

its a crazy period. tax deadlines. uni application deadlines. scholarship deadlines. basic theory test (which i havent studied). im starting to hate april. which i shouldnt and cant.

im gonna change my template.

~love as an equation, has a very big standard deviation.
(by yours truly. it's copyright haha)

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 9:21 AM

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Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh 'cause It's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night


He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do


Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause


He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do


So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight


He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The Only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing don't know why I do
He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into...


Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

how do you define one in the absence of the other when the other means nothing without its counterpart

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 8:54 PM

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Sunday, March 09, 2008

it has been exhausting. i havent really digested the whole week's events yet. i hardly nap. let alone sleep for 2 hrs! but i slept until so shiok from 5-7pm i felt like i didnt want to wake up. i could just sleep till the next morning heh. now im gonna have problems sleeping tonight =(

i arrived at SDT quite early this morning. saw a bit of the jazz ballet =)) ballet is getting tougher and tougher. pirouette en dehors en dedans. geez i got to prac really hard.


my best is never enough for you.


on wed i was up till 1am sourcing.


should i believe in magic in your eyes?

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 9:38 PM

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Tuesday, March 04, 2008

I WANT TO WATCH STEP UP 2!

i didnt know they had a sequel! but the preview for SDT is on 11th march. weekday. sigh.

i left the office at 11 last night. li wen told me soi noi went to tell cindy that im ot-ing too much and wanted her to cut my workload. they want a min number of returns a week and they arent approving of our ot. thats contradictory. i dont possess magic. good thing theres a meeting tomorrow.

my dad never bothers what time i go home unless my mum's not in spore. a few months ago i went to watch swanlake and he messaged me to ask what time im coming home. and yest he messaged at 1050pm to ask the same question. but i didnt read and at 1120pm he called me to ask where i was. and well he kinda scolded me for staying in the office so late =X

i was so tired today i didnt know what i did and what was going on the whole day.

oh the other day i cabbed home and the taxi driver was playing the theme song of the 430pm channel 8 drama. i was like uncle i know that song! he said a lot of ppl asked him about it before. i missed the recent 3 episodes =(

i had such a nice dream this morning i refused to wake up. that was desert after such an amazing monday. who said mondays are always blue?

As results this friday. i dont feel like going back to see my results. i really can live the rest of my life not knowing what i got. and we got to apply for leave. that is so unfair!

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 7:51 PM

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Sunday, March 02, 2008

当世界 不知不觉的变了

有时候 我怀念以前的我

作的梦 虽然远远的

想像是 一种快乐

拥有了 同时也失去什麼

而眷恋 原来会带来软弱

你让我在雾里成熟 心开始曲折

我不想舍得 不想懂得

是谁惹谁 言不由衷

说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错

怕抱不紧什麼

我不想舍得 不想懂得

谁说割爱 才更深刻

彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷

能握著手就是 感动的

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 9:48 PM

i watched bee movie this morning and barry is awfully cute! haha.

ballet today was a lot better than last week =) i must find time to practise pirouette this week. i hope i dont have to stay back too late since nokia is almost done and i did a lot of sourcing on sat. i stayed till almost 1130pm last night! i cant wait to see li wen's expression tmr. 2 piles of files sitting on her desk. all my master pieces ;)

cs internal meeting tmr. 2 hours long O_O and the cs allocation holders finally decided to fill up my not-authorised b1 and efiling notification box so i will have to send out stuff to cs and iras this coming week. i absolutely hate typing letters.

i suddenly feel like i miss my h3 biodiversity changi beach trip so much. i want to go out to see again and catch specimens. unfortunately im not very certain of the prospects of marine biology and i dont really like to mix dreams with reality so i guess i'll still take accounting.

and i didnt know that i was the last to know that everybody else knew. but to those who tried to protect me from getting hurt, thank you so much. it really means a lot to me to know that i have friends like you all. friends that really care even though we've only met 2 months ago.

alright i should sleep early tonight. its not healthy sleeping at 2am and waking up at 7.

XiaoQi ______ Dreams are dancing on a melody at 5:41 PM

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