Profile__________
>HUANG XIAOQI
>6 April 1989
>Aries
>dancer, ballerina
>Tumble Tots 1991-1992, Pats Schoolhouse 1993-1994 (Dalvey, Protoceratops), Pats Schoolhouse 1995 (Whitley), Henry Park Primary School 1996-2001 (1A,2A,3G,4C,5B,6B), Crescent Girls' School 2002-2005 (keller, 1G2, 2G2, 3C1, 4C1), National Junior College 2006-2007 (og26 solaris, 06S24 terra), National University of Singapore 2007 semester 2 (LSM1103, A7, B5), Nanyang Technological University - Nanyang Business School 2008-2009 (Group B)
>PwC 2008 IAS 7 Team A
>internship may 2009
>HUANG XIAOQI
>6 April 1989
>Aries
>dancer, ballerina
>Tumble Tots 1991-1992, Pats Schoolhouse 1993-1994 (Dalvey, Protoceratops), Pats Schoolhouse 1995 (Whitley), Henry Park Primary School 1996-2001 (1A,2A,3G,4C,5B,6B), Crescent Girls' School 2002-2005 (keller, 1G2, 2G2, 3C1, 4C1), National Junior College 2006-2007 (og26 solaris, 06S24 terra), National University of Singapore 2007 semester 2 (LSM1103, A7, B5), Nanyang Technological University - Nanyang Business School 2008-2009 (Group B)
>PwC 2008 IAS 7 Team A
Likes__________
ballet, dancing, figure skating, shopping, watching romantic comedies and chinese drama serials, blogging, spanish, psychology, hairstyling, piano, baking, most water sports, go karting
Wishlist__________
>PwC audit internship
>1st class honours
>Masters
>Financial Freedom
>perfect eyesight
>white gold heart shaped diamond ring ;)
>lisa harris: my favourite ballet class cd
>songs in wu dong quan cheng (the whole city is dancing: steps)
>a new leotard
>a dance partner
>learn pointe
>sponsorship for driving lessons
>a guinea pig
>a dwarf bunny
>baby pink vaio laptop!
>sasha cohen's autograph
Tag here!__________
Events __________
>practical test 13 march 2009>internship may 2009
Links__________
| chendrawati ong | | sabrina wong |
| qiu xin hui| | tay siang hong |
| jasmine sim| | pauline hwang |
| marcia andriani| | esther teo |
| eileen poh | | yeoh yun jie |
| janice chen (aka tortuga)| | ke cai ling |
| samantha eng| | jean chong |
| ode kakeru| | wang yueh hsin |
| jessica lo| | tsai zhenling |
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Wednesday, April 30, 2008
totally drained.
been working on super complicated cases since the morning. and lunched in for the third time in the week. li wen noticed that ever since the staff meeting ended, the number of files on my table just keeps going up.
ok hush hush about my plans for tomorrow. it has to be kept a secret. otherwise i will have quite a number of people coming after me heh.
oh i slept in my parents room yesterday. woke up in the middle of the night to find my baby missing. then my dad woke up to go to the bathroom. so when he came out, half asleep, i said papa i cant find my hippo. then he said its here with me. and then he put it on the pillow beside me.
=)
been working on super complicated cases since the morning. and lunched in for the third time in the week. li wen noticed that ever since the staff meeting ended, the number of files on my table just keeps going up.
ok hush hush about my plans for tomorrow. it has to be kept a secret. otherwise i will have quite a number of people coming after me heh.
oh i slept in my parents room yesterday. woke up in the middle of the night to find my baby missing. then my dad woke up to go to the bathroom. so when he came out, half asleep, i said papa i cant find my hippo. then he said its here with me. and then he put it on the pillow beside me.
=)
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
i have a lot of stuff to say but today is not the day to talk about such things.
HAPPY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY
thank you for walking me through the past year.
i never once regretted falling for the most amazing thing on this earth
you made me who i am today, and for that, thank you =)
HAPPY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY
thank you for walking me through the past year.
i never once regretted falling for the most amazing thing on this earth
you made me who i am today, and for that, thank you =)
Sunday, April 27, 2008
just came back from the office. brought work home. havent looked at it and its already almost 10pm. bleh.
ok i got to break my pausing habit after plie. gah.
i just tagged on sha's blog. never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game. likewise never let the fear of getting your heart broken keep you from falling in love again. oh yes i am an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance haha =)
i cant sleep without knowing theres hope
half the night i waste in sighs
in a wakeful doze i sorrow
for the hands, the lips, the eyes,
for the meeting of tomorrow
ok i got to break my pausing habit after plie. gah.
i just tagged on sha's blog. never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game. likewise never let the fear of getting your heart broken keep you from falling in love again. oh yes i am an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance haha =)
i cant sleep without knowing theres hope
half the night i waste in sighs
in a wakeful doze i sorrow
for the hands, the lips, the eyes,
for the meeting of tomorrow
Saturday, April 26, 2008
a cinderella story for the 4th time and you just got to love austin ames =)
my dad always think that shows like these have no substance but they are the ones that keep people like me believing.
crystal is right. in life you can either believe or not believe. and believing is a lot easier.
so im just going to keep believing that someday i will meet my prince halfway across the dance floor and someday i will get my fairytale ending - happily ever after.
the best bits from imdb.com
Fiona: No honey, leave those on! The lawns look a little brown.
Sam: You know we're supposed to be conserving water! We're in the middle of a drought!
Fiona: Droughts are for poor people, you think J-Lo has a brown lawn? People who use extra water have extra class.
Sam: I'm late
Austin: For what?
Sam: Reality.
Austin: Sam! Okay, I know you think I'm just some...
Sam: Coward? Phony?
Austin: Okay, just listen.
Sam: No, you listen. You turned out to be exactly who I thought you were. I never pretended to be somebody else. It's been me all along. And it was me who was hurt in front of everybody. Look, I didn't come here to yell at you, okay? I know what it feels like to be afraid to show who you are. I was. But not anymore. And the thing is, I don't care what people think about me... because I believe in myself. And I know that things are gonna be okay. But even though I have no family, and no job, and no money for college... it's you that I feel sorry for.
David: Heads up! Yo, five minutes.
Austin: I'm coming!
Sam: I know that guy that sent those emails is somewhere inside of you, but, I can't wait for him... because waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought. Useless and disappointing. [walks away]
Austin: SAM! [punches locker]
Sam: Austin? What are you doing?
Austin: Something I should have done a long time ago.
[he kisses her, it starts to rain, they both look up]
Austin: Sorry I waited for the rain.
Sam: It's okay.
[they continue kissing; shot moves to Carter in stands]
Carter: Huh, you gotta love high school.
they got carter's line wrong. ive watched it four times over. haha
i wrote another post before this but i think i'll keep that one as a draft.
before she spoke to me, i was split into two.
after she spoke to me i was split into four.
though tempted to trust my heart entirely again, this time i made my decision with half my head and half my heart. and im glad it was the right one =)
choose well young one
and i did.
in life you cant be sure but you cant trust your heart entirely either ;)
before she spoke to me, i was split into two.
after she spoke to me i was split into four.
though tempted to trust my heart entirely again, this time i made my decision with half my head and half my heart. and im glad it was the right one =)
choose well young one
and i did.
in life you cant be sure but you cant trust your heart entirely either ;)
eyebags! =(
lets see...
monday..
i rather not talk about it.
but thank you for the crash course =)
tuesday..
darn i cant even recall what happened that day.
oh yea i think i do. i received ntu admission letter.
wednesday..
jp morgan chase. i walked (of course) haha. 5.6km im so proud of myself =) we thought that there would be a bus to bring us to padang but no, we had to WALK there. we werent even 1 km through and we saw people on the other side finishing O_O
went to cafe cartel for dinner until like 10+. there was quite a bit of sick stuff thanks to shaun haha
thursday..
woke up zombified.
supposed to go for smu interview but i called to withdraw my application.
went home early. ok not that early. left the office at 7+. thought i could catch up on my sleep but bleh.
friday..
everyone was like why is your skirt so short? and i told them its a friday, give me a break. haha
michelle bought me lunch =)
met yun wei after work. went to munchy donuts and waited for si min to make the decision haha.
4C1 CLASS GATHERING
less than half the class turned up but it was fun =) esp the part where all of us got into the water (thank god i was wearing a really short dress) and took pics, told lame jokes and talked about the past. i really loved that. and there was so much food i ate so much i think i should starve myself for the next 3 days =(
thanks crystal for hosting us and organising this whole thing =)
sorry girls my mum's timing is just well classic. haha
oh btw crystal you are a genius! whatever you told me last night came out in my horoscope for today hahaha
my back hurts like crazy. thanks to the heels. why did they invent such things? omg did i just say that? no i didnt. hush. haha
i just love waking up on a saturday where you go omg i got to plan something crazy like SHOPPING! (my dad is going to skin me alive when my credit card bill comes. i think it already stands at almost 600 now)
ok ok so no shopping. darn.
lets pack the room. and clear out my inbox. anyway its what i always do when something like this happens.
and did i mention my phone batt is flat and the charger is in the office? grr. that is so sick.
i got to go back to the office on sunday. my in-tray is flooded. and i need my charger.
yea my life revolves around family, friends, ballet, work, tv, shopping and blogging.
in life you can never be sure.
lets see...
monday..
i rather not talk about it.
but thank you for the crash course =)
tuesday..
darn i cant even recall what happened that day.
oh yea i think i do. i received ntu admission letter.
wednesday..
jp morgan chase. i walked (of course) haha. 5.6km im so proud of myself =) we thought that there would be a bus to bring us to padang but no, we had to WALK there. we werent even 1 km through and we saw people on the other side finishing O_O
went to cafe cartel for dinner until like 10+. there was quite a bit of sick stuff thanks to shaun haha
thursday..
woke up zombified.
supposed to go for smu interview but i called to withdraw my application.
went home early. ok not that early. left the office at 7+. thought i could catch up on my sleep but bleh.
friday..
everyone was like why is your skirt so short? and i told them its a friday, give me a break. haha
michelle bought me lunch =)
met yun wei after work. went to munchy donuts and waited for si min to make the decision haha.
4C1 CLASS GATHERING
less than half the class turned up but it was fun =) esp the part where all of us got into the water (thank god i was wearing a really short dress) and took pics, told lame jokes and talked about the past. i really loved that. and there was so much food i ate so much i think i should starve myself for the next 3 days =(
thanks crystal for hosting us and organising this whole thing =)
sorry girls my mum's timing is just well classic. haha
oh btw crystal you are a genius! whatever you told me last night came out in my horoscope for today hahaha
my back hurts like crazy. thanks to the heels. why did they invent such things? omg did i just say that? no i didnt. hush. haha
i just love waking up on a saturday where you go omg i got to plan something crazy like SHOPPING! (my dad is going to skin me alive when my credit card bill comes. i think it already stands at almost 600 now)
ok ok so no shopping. darn.
lets pack the room. and clear out my inbox. anyway its what i always do when something like this happens.
and did i mention my phone batt is flat and the charger is in the office? grr. that is so sick.
i got to go back to the office on sunday. my in-tray is flooded. and i need my charger.
yea my life revolves around family, friends, ballet, work, tv, shopping and blogging.
in life you can never be sure.
Monday, April 21, 2008
ouch. make that two.
i will never wear stilettos again on a monday unless absolutely necessary. my calf muscles hurt from doing pirouettes. and i knocked my head in the bus when i dozed off.
knocked off early. came home thinking well maybe i could take a walk tonight and look at the stars. then i looked up and saw the sky. its going to be a heavy downpour tonight. just the right weather to curl up in bed in front of the tv. oops sorry dear our date, kiv yea? ;)
si min came to my rescue during lunch. i called her and i was like hey most of my girlfriends from the office arent going for lunch! haha
li wen bought me and shidah soya bean milk that acted like a sleeping drug. when she passed us the drinks she told me you know on friday all the managers saw? i was like soi noi too? and she replied of course! then i went oh shit.
in the morning May told me some stuff that was really touching i almost cried. and shidah sat me down and said im telling you this not just as a friend and a collegue but also as a sister.
and sarah was my listening ear and emotional support throughout the whole day. as usual =)
you know when people like them care. they stand by you, they give you advice but they dont push. they tell you ultimately its your decision. and of course they are your eyes too.
you are the strongest when you are yourself.
yes sarah, girlfriends mean the world to us girls. they are always there and they never break your heart.
i will never wear stilettos again on a monday unless absolutely necessary. my calf muscles hurt from doing pirouettes. and i knocked my head in the bus when i dozed off.
knocked off early. came home thinking well maybe i could take a walk tonight and look at the stars. then i looked up and saw the sky. its going to be a heavy downpour tonight. just the right weather to curl up in bed in front of the tv. oops sorry dear our date, kiv yea? ;)
si min came to my rescue during lunch. i called her and i was like hey most of my girlfriends from the office arent going for lunch! haha
li wen bought me and shidah soya bean milk that acted like a sleeping drug. when she passed us the drinks she told me you know on friday all the managers saw? i was like soi noi too? and she replied of course! then i went oh shit.
in the morning May told me some stuff that was really touching i almost cried. and shidah sat me down and said im telling you this not just as a friend and a collegue but also as a sister.
and sarah was my listening ear and emotional support throughout the whole day. as usual =)
you know when people like them care. they stand by you, they give you advice but they dont push. they tell you ultimately its your decision. and of course they are your eyes too.
you are the strongest when you are yourself.
yes sarah, girlfriends mean the world to us girls. they are always there and they never break your heart.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
movies never fail to make my day =)
caught the white chicks on channel 5. i probably went OMG a million times!
yea guys hardly ever realise how much effort we girls put in.
Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me
'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your Precious memories
'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know
I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight
And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I Don't....
Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight
caught the white chicks on channel 5. i probably went OMG a million times!
yea guys hardly ever realise how much effort we girls put in.
Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me
'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your Precious memories
'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know
I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight
And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I Don't....
Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight
PARTY POSTPONED TO 7+!
p.s. boyfriends, spouses and children invited =)
Saturday, April 19, 2008
haha 4th post for the day ;)
sometimes you have to live life one letter at a time.
Gerry Kennedy: What do you want? I know what I want, cause I'm holding it in my hands.
Gerry Kennedy: Every morning I still wake up and the first thing I want to do is to see your face.
Holly Kennedy: I don't want to make any mistakes.
Gerry Kennedy: Then you're in the wrong species, love. Be a duck.
Daniel Connelly: What do women want?
Holly Kennedy: [whispering] We have no idea what we want.
Daniel Connelly: I knew it!
my dad said if women knew what they wanted they wont be called women -_-"
its a great movie but more appropriate for soneone who has just gone through a breakup because it is about moving on
its not everyday that you find someone who
can give up his dreams for you
says he will be happy just holding you in his arms
would storm the gates of hell for you with just a bucket of water
says "i love you" so many times a day
reads your messages when you pass him your phone
has an elder sister who reads your blog
tells you he is one in a million
calls at 130am to ask what your parents said about you getting home late
messages makes up 70% of your inbox
says you are his favourite work organisation
rolls his eyes in such an adorable way
has a very noisy chain
wears some stupid ugly magnetic ear studs
is so picky about what he eats
never shut his com, leaving you to shut it for him
makes you take down your favourite posts
and forbids you from mentioning his name on your blog
has gotten into trouble because of what you wrote on your blog
complains that your skirt is too short when its not that short
sms you to tell you that he is wearing your favourite pullover
drops by to deliver a slice of choco cake
remember your friends' names
puts the watch his mum gave him for his 12th birthday on your wrist
gives you a neckalce for the night
catches you in your failed pirouette attempt
uses his arm to cushion your head
holds your hand and walk down the streets
ask is this the part where i kiss you
and then say so i should just shut up and kiss you
checks if the manager is looking before he puts his arm around your waist
and lets go of your hand when he sees julia approaching
is passionate about everything you are not
thinks of click five when you think of ballet under the stars
leans over when you look out of the window
likes the way you rest your chin on his chest
turns around to ask if you are tired in between soccer matches
puts other people aside for your sake
says he wants to be the first one you talk to
would rather he is the one at fault when both of you argue
is afraid of breaking your heart
is so concerned about is you even though his heart hurts
you know is always your pillar of support
calls you sunshine
ps i love you
sometimes you have to live life one letter at a time.
Gerry Kennedy: What do you want? I know what I want, cause I'm holding it in my hands.
Gerry Kennedy: Every morning I still wake up and the first thing I want to do is to see your face.
Holly Kennedy: I don't want to make any mistakes.
Gerry Kennedy: Then you're in the wrong species, love. Be a duck.
Daniel Connelly: What do women want?
Holly Kennedy: [whispering] We have no idea what we want.
Daniel Connelly: I knew it!
my dad said if women knew what they wanted they wont be called women -_-"
its a great movie but more appropriate for soneone who has just gone through a breakup because it is about moving on
its not everyday that you find someone who
can give up his dreams for you
says he will be happy just holding you in his arms
would storm the gates of hell for you with just a bucket of water
says "i love you" so many times a day
reads your messages when you pass him your phone
has an elder sister who reads your blog
tells you he is one in a million
calls at 130am to ask what your parents said about you getting home late
messages makes up 70% of your inbox
says you are his favourite work organisation
rolls his eyes in such an adorable way
has a very noisy chain
wears some stupid ugly magnetic ear studs
is so picky about what he eats
never shut his com, leaving you to shut it for him
makes you take down your favourite posts
and forbids you from mentioning his name on your blog
has gotten into trouble because of what you wrote on your blog
complains that your skirt is too short when its not that short
sms you to tell you that he is wearing your favourite pullover
drops by to deliver a slice of choco cake
remember your friends' names
puts the watch his mum gave him for his 12th birthday on your wrist
gives you a neckalce for the night
catches you in your failed pirouette attempt
uses his arm to cushion your head
holds your hand and walk down the streets
ask is this the part where i kiss you
and then say so i should just shut up and kiss you
checks if the manager is looking before he puts his arm around your waist
and lets go of your hand when he sees julia approaching
is passionate about everything you are not
thinks of click five when you think of ballet under the stars
leans over when you look out of the window
likes the way you rest your chin on his chest
turns around to ask if you are tired in between soccer matches
puts other people aside for your sake
says he wants to be the first one you talk to
would rather he is the one at fault when both of you argue
is afraid of breaking your heart
is so concerned about is you even though his heart hurts
you know is always your pillar of support
calls you sunshine
ps i love you
3rd post for the day and i have a feeling it wouldnt be the last one haha. im too lazy to move away from the com heh.
i was really bent on shutting myself in today. it was the second time in my whole life where i felt like i needed space from everyone and everything. i thought i changed the status to appear offline before i signed into msn but somehow i was online. and then the message box popped up. and i knew i couldnt run away. somehow fate just has a way to outplay you huh? but i guess it was for the better so i cant complain haha.
when i switched on my phone just now. i saw your message. i kept reading the last sentence over and over again: "the truth of the matter is, i'm here for you and i want to help you surmount that doubt so please, we can work to resolve this no?" for once i felt such immense support coming from you. and it means a lot to me. thank you =)
time for more crying. ive been wanting to watch ps i love you ever since i saw it on the big screen on orchard road. the trailer captured me. i didnt even notice the green man light up and people walking past me. i just stood there looking at the screen haha.
and i promise that somehow i will find a way to pack up my table and wardrobe. seeing the cluttered table and messy wardrobe. it is so not me. im a very organised person. yes i am. haha
this morning..that was probably the highest ive ever been without the help of alcohol. alcohol cant drown your sorrows. dancing can ;)
AND TERESA TAY PLEASE STOP SPAMMING MY MAILBOX!
i was really bent on shutting myself in today. it was the second time in my whole life where i felt like i needed space from everyone and everything. i thought i changed the status to appear offline before i signed into msn but somehow i was online. and then the message box popped up. and i knew i couldnt run away. somehow fate just has a way to outplay you huh? but i guess it was for the better so i cant complain haha.
when i switched on my phone just now. i saw your message. i kept reading the last sentence over and over again: "the truth of the matter is, i'm here for you and i want to help you surmount that doubt so please, we can work to resolve this no?" for once i felt such immense support coming from you. and it means a lot to me. thank you =)
time for more crying. ive been wanting to watch ps i love you ever since i saw it on the big screen on orchard road. the trailer captured me. i didnt even notice the green man light up and people walking past me. i just stood there looking at the screen haha.
and i promise that somehow i will find a way to pack up my table and wardrobe. seeing the cluttered table and messy wardrobe. it is so not me. im a very organised person. yes i am. haha
this morning..that was probably the highest ive ever been without the help of alcohol. alcohol cant drown your sorrows. dancing can ;)
AND TERESA TAY PLEASE STOP SPAMMING MY MAILBOX!
what am i doing again? i feel like taking down the last post. i remembered that when i came back from hell i promised myself i will love myself more than i ever did.
enough of sobbing.
enough of wondering.
enough of the stinky sinking feeling.
i will be uncontactable today.
NO MORE REALITY.
today the world will revolve around ME.
im back to live in my own world ;)
TIME TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY =)
PICTURES!
note: part 1 (taken on 5th april morning so dont worry if you dont see yours haha)
forgive my bad photography skills. i only slept 3 hours that day.
from the darlings =)
time to blast the music and hit the dance floor!
enough of sobbing.
enough of wondering.
enough of the stinky sinking feeling.
i will be uncontactable today.
NO MORE REALITY.
today the world will revolve around ME.
im back to live in my own world ;)
TIME TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY =)
PICTURES!
note: part 1 (taken on 5th april morning so dont worry if you dont see yours haha)
forgive my bad photography skills. i only slept 3 hours that day.
from the darlings =)
the biggest sunflower i ever got
so beautifully wrapped
perlini silver braclet
this is better than the one that caught my eye =)
one more addition to my bed haha
time to blast the music and hit the dance floor!
crystal said boyfriends, spouses and children are invited ;)
i deleted the rest of the 430pm recording in my dvd recorder. i cant watch it anymore. i cried so hard until i choked. i hate tragic endings. why cant every ending be a happy one?
sangeeta banned me from the office this weekend =( every time i close my eyes i see the pile of files on my table. sigh.
party at beach hut last night. we played "ive never" which was hilarious. then dinner. then another game, had to guess the number. and i unfortunately hit the jackpot and had to drink half a glass of wine. denise was like drink slowly ah. haha. and then we took a walk by the beach and the guys almost threw shaun into the sea.
it was actually quite boring but i finally got the chance to take off my shoes, roll up my pants, hear the sound of the waves, walk in the sand and feel the seawater run over my feet. if not for what happened later on, that night would have been perfect.
ive always believed in tarots. and it cant be anything more accurate. i am struggling to find answers to my questions. insecurity is a devil that is taunting me.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
POST 15TH APRIL
what happened was...all of us left at 6+! we are so done with oting ;)
i shall continue another time.
late nights really kill.
what happened was...all of us left at 6+! we are so done with oting ;)
i shall continue another time.
late nights really kill.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
im so exhausted. i almost fell asleep amending the tax returns sook fun passed to me. its been a crazy day. going into the office early in the morning then going for ballet and then back to the office. im aching all over from ballet.
it is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves - William Shakespeare
take a leap of faith.
PLEASE RSVP!
it is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves - William Shakespeare
take a leap of faith.
PLEASE RSVP!
Saturday, April 12, 2008
i miss my couch potato life haha. li wen is right. suddenly so happening. i hope my social battery doesnt run out soon. at least not before the 26th. 4 consecutive late fri nights. ive survived 2. another 2 more to go. haha.
gathered at shaun's house last night. ive always prefered watching people play such games than play them myself. the last i played was uh playstation theme hospital? that was a really long time ago. pri school. haha. i hope jx took some shots of denise playing the boxing game hahaha. president evil was so gruesome but shaun -_-"
got home at 115am. 1 hr 15 min late. so my dad revised my curfew. now its 11pm =(
oh and 4C1 CLASS GATHERING ON 25TH NIGHT! venue not confirmed. for more information please contact crsytal. C1 people please spread the word! =)
dont really feel like talking today so i shall upload photos. im quite lag. these are some of the dec 2007 photos haha.
she shan - le meridien
gathered at shaun's house last night. ive always prefered watching people play such games than play them myself. the last i played was uh playstation theme hospital? that was a really long time ago. pri school. haha. i hope jx took some shots of denise playing the boxing game hahaha. president evil was so gruesome but shaun -_-"
got home at 115am. 1 hr 15 min late. so my dad revised my curfew. now its 11pm =(
oh and 4C1 CLASS GATHERING ON 25TH NIGHT! venue not confirmed. for more information please contact crsytal. C1 people please spread the word! =)
i missed the last episode =(
dont really feel like talking today so i shall upload photos. im quite lag. these are some of the dec 2007 photos haha.
she shan - le meridien
i love this bathtub like crazy. i went around the suite collected all the roses, plucked off the petals and added them to my bath =)
Sunday, April 06, 2008
morning world =)
i have never woken up so contented before.
thank you for the most amazing birthday eve. i will never lose sight of my dreams again. and when i cant find myself, i know just where to look.
i reached home slightly before 130am. and just before i could climb into bed, my parents came back. then my dad came up and asked you just got home? i replied yea? then my mum asked what time did you get home? i said just? she was like WHAT!?? and to avoid further questioning, i pulled my comforter over my head. haha. but i had to do a lot of explaining just now. so i turned 19 and the first present they gave me was.....a curfew -_-"
but its all worth it. 8 hours spent having dinner, walking down the streets, roaming around the malls, driving around and lying in the car talking about everything and nothing. so simple yet so divine. and time flew past just like that. im your favourite work organisation haha.
and to all those who messaged me happy birthday. thank you =)
im still thinking of my birthday wish. everything seems so trivial when you already have the world.
ive only slept 8 hours in the past 51 hours. yawns.
the only wish i can think of now is for this to last for as long as humanely possible.
i have never woken up so contented before.
thank you for the most amazing birthday eve. i will never lose sight of my dreams again. and when i cant find myself, i know just where to look.
i reached home slightly before 130am. and just before i could climb into bed, my parents came back. then my dad came up and asked you just got home? i replied yea? then my mum asked what time did you get home? i said just? she was like WHAT!?? and to avoid further questioning, i pulled my comforter over my head. haha. but i had to do a lot of explaining just now. so i turned 19 and the first present they gave me was.....a curfew -_-"
but its all worth it. 8 hours spent having dinner, walking down the streets, roaming around the malls, driving around and lying in the car talking about everything and nothing. so simple yet so divine. and time flew past just like that. im your favourite work organisation haha.
and to all those who messaged me happy birthday. thank you =)
im still thinking of my birthday wish. everything seems so trivial when you already have the world.
ive only slept 8 hours in the past 51 hours. yawns.
the only wish i can think of now is for this to last for as long as humanely possible.
Saturday, April 05, 2008
i got home at 3+am this morning and im here blogging because i cant sleep. i only slept for 3 hours. i knew this would happen. sigh.
i have never ever been out alone so late. or rather, "early".
this post is going to sound really jumbled up. forgive me. ive only slept 3 hours.
i planned to leave the office at 11pm but i went back later than expected and spent quite a bit of time chatting with Shidah and May so by the time i finished my fri's pile of work it was already morning. so i decided that i would just work through the night until 4am instead of going home for 6 hours then coming back again.
i heard strange noises in the toilet at 2+am and started to imagine things. i was so freaked out. i went back to my desk and blasted music so that i couldnt hear anything else haha.
i did say one of these days i would work till 2am didnt i? and i did =)
met the girls for dinner. the "plan" was to meet at 615 but we ended up meeting at 645 because they went to get flowers for me! aww so sweet! the biggest sunflower ive ever seen! and so beautifully wrapped! im gonna take pics of it and upload it here. and then at the restuarant chen took out the perlini silver bracelet they bought for me. after that we went for dessert but i shall not mention what we had for dessert. then chen left to meet her sis and we went to the swings. that place is so romantic at night. i love those girls to bits! thanks darlings! =)
oh my mum just called me down. she gave me 2 roses. wrapped separately. one pink and one red =)
i just love flowers! haha.
alright i dont think i'll be able to sleep at all. i can just admire the flowers for the rest of the day =)
shidah was telling me about what her husband gave her on one of the valentines days. his company brought them to a veg farm. after work she met him at the mrt station. and he came. with this really big bag. she opened it up. and guess what? VEGETABLES! he told her to bring it home and give it to her mum to cook. OMG O_O thats really a classic. if i were her i would be so mad and so amused, i wouldnt know whether i should cry or laugh. haha.
i was on half day leave yesterday morning. went for the BTT. i only opened denise's book at 845pm on thurs night. and i closed it at 10pm and went to sleep at 1030 coz i was really really tired. and of course i panicked in the morning. pei tsung came to meet me. brought me a big present and a small present. i knew he would go back to get the necklace for me haha. thank you =)
i was really scared during the BTT. and the touch screen is so freaking insensitive. i could almost...alright i will leave it at that. haha.
went back to nj to pick up the appraisal. then came back to the office at 12 but i was doing personal stuff. and when anna came to find me i told her what jx told her seniors. im still on leave. you cant see me. hahaha.
oh pwc gave out ice cream yesterday. they say the value us. choco ice cream =) but the best part wasnt about how the ice cream tasted. it was how i got the ice cream and how it felt like to be eating the ice cream with my friends.
i wanted to blog about this on wed night but didnt really have the time. i just wanted to say HELLO WORLD IM BACK! IM REALLY BACK! IM ME AGAIN! i wanted so much to yell out of the window IM BACK! when sha called me on wed night i was like im the girl who cant stop dreaming about ballet again. she asked me if it felt good. i was like you got to be kidding! it feels GREAT! i almost sang into the phone. hahaha. in a span of 2 weeks i went up to heaven and i went down to hell and now im just thankful to be back to earth again. like she said, when you hit the bottom, there is only one way, and that is up.
2 weeks ago i looked at the posters in my room. and i wondered whose dreams were those. 1 week ago i talked to sarah about my ideals. and i realised i didnt have any.
someone tried to change me. i did change. and i lost myself in that process. and well the most amazing thing was that i woke up on wed morning as myself again. that girl who lived in my body for the whole of feb and march was so hurt she just died. i woke up as the girl i was back in jan. and what happened during feb and march..i couldnt remember. those memories. good and bad. all got erased. because those werent my memories.
i took a walk on wed night. i looked up in the sky. there wasnt any stars. but i smiled because the night never seemed so beautiful. it never felt so great to be myself again.
i woke up on thurs morning. i looked into my bathroom mirror. and for once in a very long time, i saw my own reflection. it never felt so great. and i almost screamed at my maid in the morning for somethingtrivial but i ended up laughing instead because i knew i was back. and when i gossiped about nj guys with adeline over lunch i was like im so back and i know it!
i missed myself so much. and i think my friends around me all missed me too. the real me. and im just so glad to be back! it feels like i have never wanted anything more in the world than to be myself again. it just feels so right to be myself again.
well that girl finished her story. its about time i started writing my own story. but someday i will write that girl's story for her. afterall she lived in my body for 2 months. and im pretty sure its even better than what you watch on tv.
no wonder on wed both of us felt that something was wrong. it felt like everything that we had just died. and yes it did. because that girl died.
yes ive lost 2 months but im not going to look backwards anymore. its a new beginning. and im standing at the beginning with you again. and it does feel real this time.
Stay with me
don't fall asleep too soon
the angels can wait
for a moment
come real close
forget the world outside
tonight we're alone
it's finally you and i
oooohhh...
it wasnt meant to feel like this
oooohhh...
not without you
cause when i look at my life
how the pieces fall into place
it just wouldn't rhyme
without you
when i see how my path
seem's to end up before your face
the state of my heart
the place where we are
is written in the stars
don't be afraid
i'll be right by your side
through the laughter and pain
together we're bound to fly
oooohhh...
i wasn't meant to love like this
not without you
cause when i look at my life
how the pieces fall into place
it just wouldn't rhyme
without you
when i see how my path
seem's to end up before your face
the state of my heart
the place where we are
is written in the stars
made a few mistakes, yeah
like sometimes we do
been through lot of heartache
but i made it back to you
cause when i look at my life (yeah)
how the pieces fall into place (into place)
it just wouldn't rhyme
without you (without you)
when i see how my path
seem's to end up before your face
the state of my heart
the place where we are
is written in the stars
look at my lifehow the pieces fall into place
it just wouldn't rhyme
without you
when i see how my path
seem's to end up before your face
the state of my heart
the place where we are
is written in the stars
the state of my heart
the place where we are
is written in the stars
and to all the friends who have been there for me, guiding me through the darkest period of my life. thank you. thank you so much.
i have never ever been out alone so late. or rather, "early".
this post is going to sound really jumbled up. forgive me. ive only slept 3 hours.
i planned to leave the office at 11pm but i went back later than expected and spent quite a bit of time chatting with Shidah and May so by the time i finished my fri's pile of work it was already morning. so i decided that i would just work through the night until 4am instead of going home for 6 hours then coming back again.
i heard strange noises in the toilet at 2+am and started to imagine things. i was so freaked out. i went back to my desk and blasted music so that i couldnt hear anything else haha.
i did say one of these days i would work till 2am didnt i? and i did =)
met the girls for dinner. the "plan" was to meet at 615 but we ended up meeting at 645 because they went to get flowers for me! aww so sweet! the biggest sunflower ive ever seen! and so beautifully wrapped! im gonna take pics of it and upload it here. and then at the restuarant chen took out the perlini silver bracelet they bought for me. after that we went for dessert but i shall not mention what we had for dessert. then chen left to meet her sis and we went to the swings. that place is so romantic at night. i love those girls to bits! thanks darlings! =)
oh my mum just called me down. she gave me 2 roses. wrapped separately. one pink and one red =)
i just love flowers! haha.
alright i dont think i'll be able to sleep at all. i can just admire the flowers for the rest of the day =)
shidah was telling me about what her husband gave her on one of the valentines days. his company brought them to a veg farm. after work she met him at the mrt station. and he came. with this really big bag. she opened it up. and guess what? VEGETABLES! he told her to bring it home and give it to her mum to cook. OMG O_O thats really a classic. if i were her i would be so mad and so amused, i wouldnt know whether i should cry or laugh. haha.
i was on half day leave yesterday morning. went for the BTT. i only opened denise's book at 845pm on thurs night. and i closed it at 10pm and went to sleep at 1030 coz i was really really tired. and of course i panicked in the morning. pei tsung came to meet me. brought me a big present and a small present. i knew he would go back to get the necklace for me haha. thank you =)
i was really scared during the BTT. and the touch screen is so freaking insensitive. i could almost...alright i will leave it at that. haha.
went back to nj to pick up the appraisal. then came back to the office at 12 but i was doing personal stuff. and when anna came to find me i told her what jx told her seniors. im still on leave. you cant see me. hahaha.
oh pwc gave out ice cream yesterday. they say the value us. choco ice cream =) but the best part wasnt about how the ice cream tasted. it was how i got the ice cream and how it felt like to be eating the ice cream with my friends.
i wanted to blog about this on wed night but didnt really have the time. i just wanted to say HELLO WORLD IM BACK! IM REALLY BACK! IM ME AGAIN! i wanted so much to yell out of the window IM BACK! when sha called me on wed night i was like im the girl who cant stop dreaming about ballet again. she asked me if it felt good. i was like you got to be kidding! it feels GREAT! i almost sang into the phone. hahaha. in a span of 2 weeks i went up to heaven and i went down to hell and now im just thankful to be back to earth again. like she said, when you hit the bottom, there is only one way, and that is up.
2 weeks ago i looked at the posters in my room. and i wondered whose dreams were those. 1 week ago i talked to sarah about my ideals. and i realised i didnt have any.
someone tried to change me. i did change. and i lost myself in that process. and well the most amazing thing was that i woke up on wed morning as myself again. that girl who lived in my body for the whole of feb and march was so hurt she just died. i woke up as the girl i was back in jan. and what happened during feb and march..i couldnt remember. those memories. good and bad. all got erased. because those werent my memories.
i took a walk on wed night. i looked up in the sky. there wasnt any stars. but i smiled because the night never seemed so beautiful. it never felt so great to be myself again.
i woke up on thurs morning. i looked into my bathroom mirror. and for once in a very long time, i saw my own reflection. it never felt so great. and i almost screamed at my maid in the morning for something
i missed myself so much. and i think my friends around me all missed me too. the real me. and im just so glad to be back! it feels like i have never wanted anything more in the world than to be myself again. it just feels so right to be myself again.
well that girl finished her story. its about time i started writing my own story. but someday i will write that girl's story for her. afterall she lived in my body for 2 months. and im pretty sure its even better than what you watch on tv.
no wonder on wed both of us felt that something was wrong. it felt like everything that we had just died. and yes it did. because that girl died.
yes ive lost 2 months but im not going to look backwards anymore. its a new beginning. and im standing at the beginning with you again. and it does feel real this time.
Stay with me
don't fall asleep too soon
the angels can wait
for a moment
come real close
forget the world outside
tonight we're alone
it's finally you and i
oooohhh...
it wasnt meant to feel like this
oooohhh...
not without you
cause when i look at my life
how the pieces fall into place
it just wouldn't rhyme
without you
when i see how my path
seem's to end up before your face
the state of my heart
the place where we are
is written in the stars
don't be afraid
i'll be right by your side
through the laughter and pain
together we're bound to fly
oooohhh...
i wasn't meant to love like this
not without you
cause when i look at my life
how the pieces fall into place
it just wouldn't rhyme
without you
when i see how my path
seem's to end up before your face
the state of my heart
the place where we are
is written in the stars
made a few mistakes, yeah
like sometimes we do
been through lot of heartache
but i made it back to you
cause when i look at my life (yeah)
how the pieces fall into place (into place)
it just wouldn't rhyme
without you (without you)
when i see how my path
seem's to end up before your face
the state of my heart
the place where we are
is written in the stars
look at my lifehow the pieces fall into place
it just wouldn't rhyme
without you
when i see how my path
seem's to end up before your face
the state of my heart
the place where we are
is written in the stars
the state of my heart
the place where we are
is written in the stars
and to all the friends who have been there for me, guiding me through the darkest period of my life. thank you. thank you so much.