>HUANG XIAOQI
>6 April 1989
>Aries
>dancer, ballerina
>Tumble Tots 1991-1992, Pats Schoolhouse 1993-1994 (Dalvey, Protoceratops), Pats Schoolhouse 1995 (Whitley), Henry Park Primary School 1996-2001 (1A,2A,3G,4C,5B,6B), Crescent Girls' School 2002-2005 (keller, 1G2, 2G2, 3C1, 4C1), National Junior College 2006-2007 (og26 solaris, 06S24 terra), National University of Singapore 2007 semester 2 (LSM1103, A7, B5), Nanyang Technological University - Nanyang Business School 2008-2009 (Group B)
>PwC 2008 IAS 7 Team A
Likes__________
ballet, dancing, figure skating, shopping, watching romantic comedies and chinese drama serials, blogging, spanish, psychology, hairstyling, piano, baking, most water sports, go karting
Wishlist__________
>PwC audit internship
>1st class honours
>Masters
>Financial Freedom
>perfect eyesight
>white gold heart shaped diamond ring ;)
>lisa harris: my favourite ballet class cd
>songs in wu dong quan cheng (the whole city is dancing: steps)
>a new leotard
>a dance partner
>learn pointe
>sponsorship for driving lessons
>a guinea pig
>a dwarf bunny
>baby pink vaio laptop!
>sasha cohen's autograph
Tag here!__________
Events __________
>practical test 13 march 2009>internship may 2009
Links__________
| chendrawati ong | | sabrina wong |
| qiu xin hui| | tay siang hong |
| jasmine sim| | pauline hwang |
| marcia andriani| | esther teo |
| eileen poh | | yeoh yun jie |
| janice chen (aka tortuga)| | ke cai ling |
| samantha eng| | jean chong |
| ode kakeru| | wang yueh hsin |
| jessica lo| | tsai zhenling |
Archives__________
July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009
and what a week i just went through.
stayed in the office until almost 11pm yesterday. havent been oting on fridays. ive always loved oting on fridays. coz u know the next day is sat. its nice to clear stuff and redo your to-do list so that u know whats on for next week heh. i still owe a lot of people a lot of cases oops =X
li wen bought me lunch yesterday! she satisfied 2 of my cravings =)) the jap stall at china square opened a restaurant! ive been craving for their katsu don since forever! and starbucks. i dont know i just had a craving in the morning for starbucks hee. and on the way back we saw a bird bathing in the water fountain area with the sun shining on the water. so carefree...
thurs was like the craziest day ive had in ages. i did like 12 submissions, 6 finalings, 1 draft, 2 amendments, scanning and uploading docs and drafting a bunch of stupid emails. omg. the whole day i was busy running around. shidah was like girl ah when you work do you breathe?? i told her shidah i dont have time to breathe! haha. i think its coz friday was printing of submission status so everyone loaded me with stuff that could get out heh.
and with people leaving, my sametime connect list is getting shorter and shorter. i hate deleting names from that list. its like those green icons will never light up again. and walking past empty tables makes my heart sink. sigh.
yeah thats truly the end.
Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?
I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time
I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?
I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time
I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again
I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time
I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Standin ovation...
Ooooh
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
You look so dumb right now
Standin' outside my house
Tryin' to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
(Please)
Just cut it out
Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
Grab your clothes and get gone
(You better hurry up)
Before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' bout
"Girl, I love you you're the one..."
This just looks like a re-run
(Please)
What else is on?
And don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
And the award for the best liar goes to you
For makin' me believe
That you could be
Faithful to me
Let's hear your speech
oh...
How bout a round of applause?
Standin' ovation...
But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now...
denise has a really neat house! we played taboo last night. it was hilarious. cows produce cheese -_-" i was in the team with the 4 guys. and i got a card that said PAD. i was like omg no way! i passed that one. hahaha. sarah was the ultimate one. she somehow always got the words haha
thanks for the movies denise! =) and im gonna miss u loads!
went shopping until midnight on tues at club marc at vivo. it was just pure madness. they stayed open for us! and served only us! we ended up eating dinner at like 1am sheesh. haha
oh and theres actually a guy out there who would rather watch charmed than soccer. he said soccer doesnt make sense. i was like thats a girl's mentality! and sarah said his gf will be really lucky coz she doesnt have to lie on the couch and watch him watch soccer haha
but from mid week onwards, life got really sucky. having your personal life brought up during the managers meeting as a management issue. and the whole department talking about it. cant be anything good when all the wrong people get involved. they treat us like KIDS. we can handle our own issues alright!? seriously. my mum didnt even step in. who gave all you disgusting people the right to open your stupid mouths!? go get your own life! idiots.
you cant fight your own destiny no matter how much it might cost. life's too short. so why waste another minute?
Milly: You and my mom have been totally scheming. And and and and now I know exactly why she pushed me on you because she was voting for you. She found you.
Jason: Yeah but that doesn't take anything away from us. What matters is that we did meet, and how good this is between us. And the truth of that...
Milly: The truth. Where is the truth? Where is the truth, because you've been living a lie and I've been lying to you Jason.
Jason: Yeah but that doesn't change anything.
Milly: How does that not change... everything?
Jason: Because you're here. I think you already made your choice. But if it helps I'll say it. Stop seeing him. Then you and I can get closer. Close enough to spend the rest of our lives together. I knew I had you the day I met you.
Milly: How could you know something like that?
Jason: Because you were so nervous you laughed like a hyena, in that beautiful polka-dot dress of yours.
Milly: Really? I'll tell you one thing though. You did not have me the moment that we met because I'm not even sure I like the fact that your staff talked about you behind your back at the dessert table. And excuse me but truth be told I didn't like anything that you ordered for me on our first date except the calamari. And ok fine, yes, it was nice to not have to think for a change. But who wants someone that doesn't think? Look! And sometimes you laugh when I cry, and you say "ha" when I make perfect sense. And never ever in my life have I burnt a chocolate suffle until now, and that in and of itself... oh my god. Should have told me I don't feel like myself around you. And I would have decided that. A long time ago if it weren't for my mother. Because who wants someone who laughs like a hyena in a polka dot dress that my mother made me buy.
Jason: I love that dress.
Milly: Take her out.
when everyone and everything tells you its wrong but somehow some part of your felt there was something right in it. how is that possible?
neways i cleared my desk. i wanted to sit down to do my expense claims but then i realised that darn i dont even have space on my desk to write. i was like how abt the bed? then i thought no way this is so not me. so i was resolved to clear my whole table. now its the neatest my mum has ever seen in the past 5 months. initially it was worse than what it was during exam periods hahaha
so desk cleared up. life cleared up too. i thought about it over and over again after reading my horoscope today. but i know this time im going in the right direction. im not moving off just for the sake of moving off. it has never been this clear to me.
you know sometimes when my parents interfer too much i get very repulsed. but now when both of them tell me that they felt it wasnt right and werent quite pleased but let me go ahead with it, let me get burnt and find out for myself im like why didnt you two say something in the first place?! but then again yes, given my character, even if the whole world were against it i would have still gone ahead with it. thats me. so irrational when it comes to the matters of the heart.
it was all just an illusion.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=dfzEbmBEh_Q
"Over It"
I'm over your lies,
and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,
when you know I'm not okay.
You call me at night,
and I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me,
I know you're not alone.
oh..
That's why
(your eyes)
I'm over it
(your smile)
I'm over it
(realize)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over..
Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on,
it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first,
a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..
I'm over your hands,
and I'm over your mouth.
Trying to drag me down,
and fill me with self-doubt.
oh..
That's why,
(your words)
I'm over it
(so sure)
I'm over it
(I'm not your girl)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over...
Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel,
read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on,
it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first,
a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..
Don't call,
don't come by,
ain't no use,
don't ask me why,
you'll never change,
there'll be no more crying in the rain.
Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel,
read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on,
it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first,
a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..
I'm so over it....
I'm over it....
Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel,
read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on,
it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first,
a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..
"Leave (Get Out)"
I've been waiting all day for ya babe
So won't come and sit and talk to me
And tell me how we're gonna be together always
Hope you know that when it's late at night
I hold on to my pillow tight
And think of how you promised me forever
(I never thought that anyone)
Could make me feel this way
(Now that you're here boy all I want)
Is just a chance to say
[Chorus]
Get Out, (leave) right now,
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you were just a waste of time (waste of time)
Tell me why you're looking so confused
When I'm the one who didn't know the truth
How could you ever be so cold
To go behind my back and call my friend
Boy you must have gone and bumped your head
Because you left her number on your phone
(So now after all is said and done)
Maybe I'm the one to blame but
(To think that you could be the one)
Well it didn't work out that way
[Chorus]
I wanted you right here with me but I have no choice you've gotta leave
Because my heart is breakin
'With every word I'm sayin
'I gave up everything I had
On something that just wouldn't last
But I refuse to cry
No tears will fall from these
Eyeee-eeee-eeees
Ooooh, ooooh
Get out
[Chorus x2]
Get out (leave)
You and me
It's too late (too late)
You ohh
Bout her (who, why)
You said that you would treat me right (noooo)
but it was just a waste of time (waste of time)
Ohhhh oh oh oh hoh oh
i went shopping yesterday. i felt very guilty. coz i went to buy stuff which i told myself im not going to buy and i didnt buy stuff which i told myself i should buy. my mum said so you spent so much on things that you didnt have to buy. i was like yeah. again =X haha
ballet today. the guy teacher took over our class again. he really thought too highly of us. half the time we had no idea what we were doing. all i did was try my best to follow what he was doing. i kept flashing teresa the what-the-hell-is-he-doing-look. sheesh. hahaha
my body clock is screwed and my meal times are quite screwed too. i lunch at 12 and i have dinner at almost 10pm =(
so neways i just got home from work. THE CAB DRIVER WAS FLIRTING WITH ME! OMG! he was waiting outside the car for me then i was like sorry sorry! and then after we got in he said he was captivated by my smile. said that it made him feel so energised and my smile will be something he will remember for a really long time. he wonders if he can fall asleep tonight. asked me for my age and i told him 19. and he said he guessed i was 17/18. for once someone guessed my age lower than actual! =)
then he asked if i had a bf. (that wasnt the first time a cab driver asked me this question). so i once again pulled out my fictional bf hahaha. he said i give him the impression that im so gentle, someone who would dote on her husband and boyfriend. he asked if its true. and i was like uh i guess so? then he said theres no i guess so! it is yes! i went uh okay. (thats why my mummy said please find a guy who loves you more than you love him coz you can get way too accommodating when it comes to relationships)
oh then he went on to say there must be a lot of guys wooing me. and i was like uh no such thing. and he didnt believe. he said coz when he first caught a glance of me, it was instant attraction. i was like omg coz i dont believe in love at first sight. my mum does but i think its utter bullshit. the whole ride he kept ranting about how i left him so mesmerised -_-" told me that my smile will make a guy shen hun dian dao. said that if he werent married he wont be able to control himself. i was like omg omg. and i inched closer and closer to the door. was half tempted to msg someone to say if i dont call you in 10 min please dial 999. he said i stole his heart. i was like erm okay...
and he tried to imitate my voice. kept repeating what i said. said he liked my voice too much -_-"
of course before i left he asked me for my number. i knew he would. i was like uh haha no. then he asked me to let him see my hand. and he said something in dialect which i didnt catch. until he said it in chinese. he said hen hao ming hen hao ming (very good life). ahaha yeah i kinda got that by reading my own palm. i just hope everything that is drawn on that pair of hands of mine will come true someday.
someday.
yes mummy i will make sure i make the right choice because like you said, it can be something that will stick with me for the rest of my life.
well at least that encounter wasnt half as bad as the one i had the other day. i was walking to the office in my fav brown dress and this guy who drove past, wound down his window to wolf whistle at me. guys who wolf whistle disgust me. totally. they give me this really crude impression.
ok im just going to cut it short. really short.
i hate mondays. i always feel blue on mondays.
oh and i made dinner for my mum last night. it was my first attempt at a full dinner. and it was a success =) shepherd's pie, pizza, potato wedges, chips, red wine, almond jelly. yummy yummy =))
alright im really not in the mood to yak now.
quoting mar: the day we all can think with our heads instead of our hearts the world will be some instant utopia.
let me recall this week's events. my brain isnt exactly working after sleeping for only 5 hours.
it rained this morning at almost 4 am. lightning went on for a really long time. and i kept getting flashes of what happened which left me guilt ridden.
I RAN INTO MR SITO AND HIS GF! OMG!
so anyways i ot-ed a lot this week. i think i ot-ed every single day except wed where i went to watch elton john's concert. sorry i couldnt appreciate it. i was telling sarah i should have given her my ticket. i almost dozed off =X hey i was tired from rushing tax returns the whole day alright? but i enjoyed the last bit. when he sang "your song" i was like MUMMY! OMG! and she asked you like this song? i went YEAH! haha my mum's fav was crocodile rock. the song she sang in school. too bad elton john didnt sing can you feel the love tonight.
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that its done
I hope you dont mind
I hope you dont mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while youre in the world
i cant believe she actually suggested that. its so ridiculous! how can that be enough? now its already far from enough and she wants us to reduce it! i almost exploded when she went on and on about it. grr.
oh and i saw josephine (manager) on the train haha.
so anyways when i got into the car, i placed my cup (containing hot water) beside me. and yeah it slipped. so i was like hot hot hot whats that?!? my butt! -_-"
shopping trip was a failure yesterday =( im so done with shopping in town. its not the first time this has happened. grr. but thanks dear. for shopping with me until we were both so dead tired haha and i love the present =)
see the funny thing is i went out shopping with my pri school bestfriend and we ran into our pri school classmate jade! omg O_O its a small small world ;)
i absolutely hate the process of editing new templates. pratiwi says its easier than doing tax returns but haha no i think tax returns are so much easier to get over with heh. fingers crossed i will get it done by the end today coz im always in this sluggish mode after ballet. teresa said it would be better if our class were at night then we could just go home and zzz hahaha
i was running through my music archives last night. and i couldnt help but laugh at this part:
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
haha i think i must have looked like some cracked nut laughing in the middle of the road with my ears plugged!
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
i must stress that not all songs i put on my blog reflect my feelings.
left office at 535 today. its been a really long time since i left that early!
wasnt in the condition to work and the office was so empty so all the more i didnt have the mood to work. it was only one day but i missed my seniors like crazy haha
and i realised they arrange their soft copies in the exact same way O_O
a nice lazy friday night. i was out really late for the past 4 friday nights. could really use a change.
i succeeded only to fail yet again. sigh. thats why during moments like those, i dont want to stop because i know that when i stop i might never find that feeling back again. it happened twice this year. to 2 different aspects of my life.
ok i got to stop feeling crappy. afterall its SHOPPING day tomorrow =)
yeah i was supposed to sleep early but ended up watching tv till 1am. i will uh aim to sleep early tonight. ahem. yes. hee
omg i am so freaking tempted. im hyperventilating. breathe in. breathe out. they are so not stopping me this time round. retail therapy always works like magic. even just the thought of it makes me high ;)
darn im such a shopaholic. and theres no cure. which isnt a bad thing right? or is it?
victoria secret is just too alluring for my own good. and no mar, im not looking at hot undies. im looking at the sexy tops and dresses haha
http://www2.victoriassecret.com/commerce/application?namespace=moreInfo&prnbr=8N-218082&cgnbr=OSCLODRSDAY&moreInfoInd=largeView&dispMode=STANDARD&buttonClicked=btn_lg_view&selColor=
*melts*