Profile__________
>HUANG XIAOQI
>6 April 1989
>Aries
>dancer, ballerina
>Tumble Tots 1991-1992, Pats Schoolhouse 1993-1994 (Dalvey, Protoceratops), Pats Schoolhouse 1995 (Whitley), Henry Park Primary School 1996-2001 (1A,2A,3G,4C,5B,6B), Crescent Girls' School 2002-2005 (keller, 1G2, 2G2, 3C1, 4C1), National Junior College 2006-2007 (og26 solaris, 06S24 terra), National University of Singapore 2007 semester 2 (LSM1103, A7, B5), Nanyang Technological University - Nanyang Business School 2008-2009 (Group B)
>PwC 2008 IAS 7 Team A
>internship may 2009
>HUANG XIAOQI
>6 April 1989
>Aries
>dancer, ballerina
>Tumble Tots 1991-1992, Pats Schoolhouse 1993-1994 (Dalvey, Protoceratops), Pats Schoolhouse 1995 (Whitley), Henry Park Primary School 1996-2001 (1A,2A,3G,4C,5B,6B), Crescent Girls' School 2002-2005 (keller, 1G2, 2G2, 3C1, 4C1), National Junior College 2006-2007 (og26 solaris, 06S24 terra), National University of Singapore 2007 semester 2 (LSM1103, A7, B5), Nanyang Technological University - Nanyang Business School 2008-2009 (Group B)
>PwC 2008 IAS 7 Team A
Likes__________
ballet, dancing, figure skating, shopping, watching romantic comedies and chinese drama serials, blogging, spanish, psychology, hairstyling, piano, baking, most water sports, go karting
Wishlist__________
>PwC audit internship
>1st class honours
>Masters
>Financial Freedom
>perfect eyesight
>white gold heart shaped diamond ring ;)
>lisa harris: my favourite ballet class cd
>songs in wu dong quan cheng (the whole city is dancing: steps)
>a new leotard
>a dance partner
>learn pointe
>sponsorship for driving lessons
>a guinea pig
>a dwarf bunny
>baby pink vaio laptop!
>sasha cohen's autograph
Tag here!__________
Events __________
>practical test 13 march 2009>internship may 2009
Links__________
| chendrawati ong | | sabrina wong |
| qiu xin hui| | tay siang hong |
| jasmine sim| | pauline hwang |
| marcia andriani| | esther teo |
| eileen poh | | yeoh yun jie |
| janice chen (aka tortuga)| | ke cai ling |
| samantha eng| | jean chong |
| ode kakeru| | wang yueh hsin |
| jessica lo| | tsai zhenling |
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Thursday, July 31, 2008
argh. i thought they could do better but they never fail to disappoint. honestly they really make my blood boil.
first time was when they computed wrongly and i wrote an email to inform them about it. and they denied. duh. so they said well you could come down to the dept to sort it out. so i went down and then oh suddenly they realised that yeah they left out something. ok 1st mistake. wasted one and a half hour of my time. i can forgive the error (human nature) but i cant forgive their attitude.
second time was when it was nearing my last day and i had to personally send an email to remind them that my last day was coming and ask whens the deadline to hand in all the forms since they conveniently forgot to send out an email. ok you forgot. i can somewhat let it go.
third time was when i went down personally to hand in the forms so that it gives you time to compute. but oh what happened this time? you lost it. but fortunately, i knew that somehow such a thing could happen so i always kept my own records. thumbs up for me =) they still had the cheek to say oh in this case we would accept a copy. no apologies whatsoever. so i told them okay but please go and zap a copy coz im keeping one in case you guys lose it again.
and if that wasnt enough...you computed wrongly AGAIN. then you say oh its not much of a difference. well if 54 bucks isnt a big difference to you, you could always give it to me you know. coz i freaking came back over a weekend to slog. and that time was when i argued with my parents over my ot-ing hours. yeah so the least you could do is really to erm brush up on your maths??
and thats not the end. i received a phone call. you gave me some stupid numbers that didnt make any sense to me. then you say oh we cannot delay already we have to get it signed by this morning. im like "yes i understand so can you scan me a copy of your workings and i will verify it immediately so that you get a written confirmation from me instead of a verbal one?" coz i really dont trust them. let alone let them sign on MY behalf OMG. literal chinese translation: i do know how the word "die" is written.
so what if there was another error (very high probability). you are gonna revise? and then you cant issue cheques for amounts under $200? then are you gonna say oh its not a big sum. or are you gonna make me come down again like the other department coz they took so freaking long to process my claim. well if you choose the latter, you will have to reimburse my taxi claims to and fro and compensate me for my time wasted due to your lack of efficiency and well, brains. it is not the least bit unreasonable isnt it?
it got me thinking...didnt that department exist to SOLVE problems? how come they seem to be CREATING problems? and im like SOLVING their PROBLEMS for THEM!?? well then shouldnt you hire me instead of them?
first time was when they computed wrongly and i wrote an email to inform them about it. and they denied. duh. so they said well you could come down to the dept to sort it out. so i went down and then oh suddenly they realised that yeah they left out something. ok 1st mistake. wasted one and a half hour of my time. i can forgive the error (human nature) but i cant forgive their attitude.
second time was when it was nearing my last day and i had to personally send an email to remind them that my last day was coming and ask whens the deadline to hand in all the forms since they conveniently forgot to send out an email. ok you forgot. i can somewhat let it go.
third time was when i went down personally to hand in the forms so that it gives you time to compute. but oh what happened this time? you lost it. but fortunately, i knew that somehow such a thing could happen so i always kept my own records. thumbs up for me =) they still had the cheek to say oh in this case we would accept a copy. no apologies whatsoever. so i told them okay but please go and zap a copy coz im keeping one in case you guys lose it again.
and if that wasnt enough...you computed wrongly AGAIN. then you say oh its not much of a difference. well if 54 bucks isnt a big difference to you, you could always give it to me you know. coz i freaking came back over a weekend to slog. and that time was when i argued with my parents over my ot-ing hours. yeah so the least you could do is really to erm brush up on your maths??
and thats not the end. i received a phone call. you gave me some stupid numbers that didnt make any sense to me. then you say oh we cannot delay already we have to get it signed by this morning. im like "yes i understand so can you scan me a copy of your workings and i will verify it immediately so that you get a written confirmation from me instead of a verbal one?" coz i really dont trust them. let alone let them sign on MY behalf OMG. literal chinese translation: i do know how the word "die" is written.
so what if there was another error (very high probability). you are gonna revise? and then you cant issue cheques for amounts under $200? then are you gonna say oh its not a big sum. or are you gonna make me come down again like the other department coz they took so freaking long to process my claim. well if you choose the latter, you will have to reimburse my taxi claims to and fro and compensate me for my time wasted due to your lack of efficiency and well, brains. it is not the least bit unreasonable isnt it?
it got me thinking...didnt that department exist to SOLVE problems? how come they seem to be CREATING problems? and im like SOLVING their PROBLEMS for THEM!?? well then shouldnt you hire me instead of them?
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
everythings still up in the air =(
love her first two jumps in this! =)
love her first two jumps in this! =)
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
no no Li Wen i havent been slacking. unfortunately. ive been pretty busy actually. i thought work stress was the reason for my interrupted sleep. but nope. gah i really shouldnt touch the sleeping pills. not yet not yet. im not desperate enough to risk amnesia and hallucinations.
the past few days were spent like this:
sat..went for a jog in the morning then tuition tuition till late afternoon. managed to find my sec 2 boy's house on my own! well yeah i got a little lost but i made it in the end =))
sun morning was spent packing away all the stuff i brought back from pwc then met zhenling for lunch and shopping. both of us spent quite a bit haha. went to paris miki to get my trial daily contacts. i got the biweekly ones a couple of weeks back but i lost the left one the very next day. yes. grr. neways sorry dear for all the last minute changes heh.
went to uncle kim's house for bbq on sun night. the otah, crayfish and sweet potato were yummy! =) my mum kept sending back stuff to thomas for recooking hahaha
oh and the stupid ntu website. matriculation started from 10am on mon so i sat in front of my com and opened up all the necessary windows but then the server was down. wth. i called the help desk like 8 times? and it was either unavailable or no one picked up. grr. ended up matriculating successfully only after noon. neways im in group b =( but on the bright side..mines a 3 day week! tues to thurs! but yeah its fully packed from morning till evening. not late afternoon. its EVENING. so i will end up spending mondays and fridays completing tutorials haha.
went to NUH this morning. laser hair removal is really really really expensive. but i guess if i live till 75..it would be uh sorta worth it? hmm.
and weather's been really hot the past few days. had a really bad headache just now. i shall go for a swim later to cool off. didnt shidah say that its the monsoon season now? =(
the past few days were spent like this:
sat..went for a jog in the morning then tuition tuition till late afternoon. managed to find my sec 2 boy's house on my own! well yeah i got a little lost but i made it in the end =))
sun morning was spent packing away all the stuff i brought back from pwc then met zhenling for lunch and shopping. both of us spent quite a bit haha. went to paris miki to get my trial daily contacts. i got the biweekly ones a couple of weeks back but i lost the left one the very next day. yes. grr. neways sorry dear for all the last minute changes heh.
went to uncle kim's house for bbq on sun night. the otah, crayfish and sweet potato were yummy! =) my mum kept sending back stuff to thomas for recooking hahaha
oh and the stupid ntu website. matriculation started from 10am on mon so i sat in front of my com and opened up all the necessary windows but then the server was down. wth. i called the help desk like 8 times? and it was either unavailable or no one picked up. grr. ended up matriculating successfully only after noon. neways im in group b =( but on the bright side..mines a 3 day week! tues to thurs! but yeah its fully packed from morning till evening. not late afternoon. its EVENING. so i will end up spending mondays and fridays completing tutorials haha.
went to NUH this morning. laser hair removal is really really really expensive. but i guess if i live till 75..it would be uh sorta worth it? hmm.
and weather's been really hot the past few days. had a really bad headache just now. i shall go for a swim later to cool off. didnt shidah say that its the monsoon season now? =(
Saturday, July 26, 2008
a 7 month journey (well almost) at pwc. i really love working there. with those amazing people who are more than just colleagues. im gonna miss them loads! =(
had a pretty grand farewell. a lot of people came to give me my farewell present. many thanks to all for the very wonderful and touching card (all of them are guilty of making me cry) and the paris miki vouchers. not to mention all the lunch treats by Li Wen, Anna, Michelle, Shidah and May -HUGS-
Cindy and May said that they are gonna blacklist me in the audit, assurance and corporate tax depts so that i can only go back to personal tax. hahaha.
i spent the whole of yest passing on work heh. and clearance was really so troublesome. but i walked out of pwc building at 8pm last night. pricewaterhouse coopers. thank you so much for the amazing 7 months. i will be back ;)
had a pretty grand farewell. a lot of people came to give me my farewell present. many thanks to all for the very wonderful and touching card (all of them are guilty of making me cry) and the paris miki vouchers. not to mention all the lunch treats by Li Wen, Anna, Michelle, Shidah and May -HUGS-
Cindy and May said that they are gonna blacklist me in the audit, assurance and corporate tax depts so that i can only go back to personal tax. hahaha.
i spent the whole of yest passing on work heh. and clearance was really so troublesome. but i walked out of pwc building at 8pm last night. pricewaterhouse coopers. thank you so much for the amazing 7 months. i will be back ;)
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
when you get to the end, you start to think about the beginning. those fond memories. if only things could always be so simple and innocent. unfortunately, reality is often harsh. times like those come and go. it will never be the same again.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
took mc yest to see the doc. she saw me for 3 min, prescribed antibiotics and charged me 48 bucks for that. geez.
neways had a pretty eventful day today. started off with tuition at 1030. and my p2 boy's mum told me that tuition shortened to 1 hr only when i got there. like wth. i take a bus and a train and then another bus to get to the ulu location. i wont do it for 1 hr. if she does it again im gonna tell her the min i do is 1.5 hr. for 1 hr she can go find someone else coz my fixed cost and time cost are way too high and i cannot guarantee anything with just an hr a wk. and i absolutely abhore last minute notifications. i had to change my sec 2 tuition from 2pm to 1pm and i hate changing tuition session last minute esp when its the first lesson. grr.
and i was supposed to alight at beauty world but i went all the way to nj. and i was like isnt KAP the other direction? did i erm miss the bus stop like a really long time ago?? so by the time i got there it was almost 130. but my sec 2 boy is a really really nice boy. on fri night i asked him what topics would he like me to go through since its the first lesson and he said algebra and linear graph. so i did a mindmap on algebra for him and he said actually thank you! my p2 boy doesnt thank me so i was quite amazed haha. and he goes teacher teacher teacher or miss huang. i feel kinda old when he calls me that coz my p2 boy calls me by my name. hmm maybe thats why my p2 boy doesnt really give me as much respect as my sec 2 boy does.
then my mum came to pick me to go watch the dark knight. someone asked me to watch that on thurs night. and i was like come on its batman its not my type of movie. but i must say i was really impressed by the dark knight. though i feel its a pity that the bad guy becomes the hero and the good guy has to take the blame =( but its definitely a show worth watching. a lot of unexpected twists in it. you really dont know whats going to happen next. well provided you dont read all the spoilers. granted that i went in there only knowing that its a batman show heh.
i really wanted to go for a swim tonight but thanks to the usual thing, there goes my plan. bleh. though i think i will settle for a night in after being out the whole day.
you know i grew up thinking that im going to get my masters. but now im asking myself why do i need a masters? then i think shit if i werent doing my masters i should have taken double degree acc and biz. and its too late for that. maybe i should just stop thinking and stick to the plan. i never really liked change coz it comes with uncertainty and with that, risk. and i dont like taking unnecessary risk that i havent really gotten down to calculating the standard deviation.
ok i sound really crappy today. so i better stop here haha
neways had a pretty eventful day today. started off with tuition at 1030. and my p2 boy's mum told me that tuition shortened to 1 hr only when i got there. like wth. i take a bus and a train and then another bus to get to the ulu location. i wont do it for 1 hr. if she does it again im gonna tell her the min i do is 1.5 hr. for 1 hr she can go find someone else coz my fixed cost and time cost are way too high and i cannot guarantee anything with just an hr a wk. and i absolutely abhore last minute notifications. i had to change my sec 2 tuition from 2pm to 1pm and i hate changing tuition session last minute esp when its the first lesson. grr.
and i was supposed to alight at beauty world but i went all the way to nj. and i was like isnt KAP the other direction? did i erm miss the bus stop like a really long time ago?? so by the time i got there it was almost 130. but my sec 2 boy is a really really nice boy. on fri night i asked him what topics would he like me to go through since its the first lesson and he said algebra and linear graph. so i did a mindmap on algebra for him and he said actually thank you! my p2 boy doesnt thank me so i was quite amazed haha. and he goes teacher teacher teacher or miss huang. i feel kinda old when he calls me that coz my p2 boy calls me by my name. hmm maybe thats why my p2 boy doesnt really give me as much respect as my sec 2 boy does.
then my mum came to pick me to go watch the dark knight. someone asked me to watch that on thurs night. and i was like come on its batman its not my type of movie. but i must say i was really impressed by the dark knight. though i feel its a pity that the bad guy becomes the hero and the good guy has to take the blame =( but its definitely a show worth watching. a lot of unexpected twists in it. you really dont know whats going to happen next. well provided you dont read all the spoilers. granted that i went in there only knowing that its a batman show heh.
i really wanted to go for a swim tonight but thanks to the usual thing, there goes my plan. bleh. though i think i will settle for a night in after being out the whole day.
you know i grew up thinking that im going to get my masters. but now im asking myself why do i need a masters? then i think shit if i werent doing my masters i should have taken double degree acc and biz. and its too late for that. maybe i should just stop thinking and stick to the plan. i never really liked change coz it comes with uncertainty and with that, risk. and i dont like taking unnecessary risk that i havent really gotten down to calculating the standard deviation.
ok i sound really crappy today. so i better stop here haha
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
forget it im just gonna wait for the next big sale. i dont need that vs dress. i have my pretty white dress from japan. i just need to hold that thought and keep it there.
NOOOOOOOO HOW COULD I MISS IT
ok voice at the back of my head shut up please.
work is piling up and im not the least bit bothered. kinda unusual. neways HR confirmed that my mc cannot supersede my unpaid leave. grr. stupid policy. funny thing is i can work like crazy and not fall sick but when i go on a vacation, i end up falling sick. it makes me wonder if work is my health supplements or something.
and and the mangers wont be in tomorrow! im leaving at 530 sharp ;)
NOOOOOOOO HOW COULD I MISS IT
ok voice at the back of my head shut up please.
work is piling up and im not the least bit bothered. kinda unusual. neways HR confirmed that my mc cannot supersede my unpaid leave. grr. stupid policy. funny thing is i can work like crazy and not fall sick but when i go on a vacation, i end up falling sick. it makes me wonder if work is my health supplements or something.
and and the mangers wont be in tomorrow! im leaving at 530 sharp ;)
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
i was flipping through my calendar. did i miss a month or was i too busy i forgot to mark the dates? and my blog shows no records. argh.
its nightfall and im wondering how i spent my day. doesnt sound too good does it?
beyond the reason why and it just aint right
its nightfall and im wondering how i spent my day. doesnt sound too good does it?
beyond the reason why and it just aint right
Monday, July 14, 2008
made a huge mistake to go to work today. now i feel really horrible. people were like are u sick? coz u look sick? ok crap i feel like shit. i think im gonna mc tomorrow. anyway they gave me so many sick leave. but i maxed out my medical claim already so i made full use of that thanks to the heart scan thing haha.
i had my eye on this really nice vs white and pink bra and now its gone and im sad coz if i hadnt ding-dong-ed around, i would have gotten it. regrets regrets SIGH =(
i had my eye on this really nice vs white and pink bra and now its gone and im sad coz if i hadnt ding-dong-ed around, i would have gotten it. regrets regrets SIGH =(
Sunday, July 13, 2008
li wen is right. now i dont have the mood to go back to work. im thinking if i should extend my mc since im still sick. but nah its only 10 more working days. i think i shall hang on haha.
spent last night reading up on sec 2 geog, math and science. everything seems so foreign. i dont even remember taking geog in sec 2 =X
AND HAPPY 21ST SIS! =) no more signing of parental consent forms. im a little jealous haha
spent last night reading up on sec 2 geog, math and science. everything seems so foreign. i dont even remember taking geog in sec 2 =X
AND HAPPY 21ST SIS! =) no more signing of parental consent forms. im a little jealous haha
Saturday, July 12, 2008
geez i lost the pills the doc gave me yest. im pretty sure i left them on my table but after i was done packing my room, they were gone. argh.
this morning when i saw my p2 boy's 23 words essay i could feel my heart bleeding. i hope my solution to that worked. but he is having problems with division and i dont have a cure for that besides memorising the entire multiplication table. i taught him the grouping technique but it doesnt work. i got to think of something else. im sure theres some way.
anyways i think this is a pretty cute conversation (a little censored):
the girl: so you wanna go on hurting? did i get that right? or which part did i not understand?
the boy: yup haha
the girl: [the boy's name] which part of i love you do you not understand
the boy: love
this morning when i saw my p2 boy's 23 words essay i could feel my heart bleeding. i hope my solution to that worked. but he is having problems with division and i dont have a cure for that besides memorising the entire multiplication table. i taught him the grouping technique but it doesnt work. i got to think of something else. im sure theres some way.
anyways i think this is a pretty cute conversation (a little censored):
the girl: so you wanna go on hurting? did i get that right? or which part did i not understand?
the boy: yup haha
the girl: [the boy's name] which part of i love you do you not understand
the boy: love
Friday, July 11, 2008
im back in sg. and sick. on unpaid leave. and i dont think mc supersedes leave. argh. this sucks. i have 7 days sick leave left and i cant clear any. grr.
japan was basically shopping, eating, sightsee =) but the things there were much more ex than i imagined.
oh and they have a very well connected and complex transport system there. in such a big country its so easy to move around. makes me think that its such a small city here but its so difficult to move around and all they do is raise erp prices. like theres only 1 solution. and japan's buses and trains are much smoother. and i thought since ours was developed later it should be better.
ok ok so in short, day 1 was mostly flying. watched a movie called "21" on the plane. its about exceptionally intelligent students from MIT, trained by their prof to count cards and brought to las vegas to well make money. and yes Ben, its dazzling enough =)
landed at 240pm japan time (1 hour ahead of sg time). took the train from narita airport to shinagawa. rested for a bit then went to harajuku at night. shopping and dinner. yups.
day 2 was spent at shinjuku. walked quite a bit and happened to bump into a korean town. they had this supermarket which sells costumes in boxes. each one is about 6,000 yen. reminded me of the movie "a cinderella story" darn i love her dress but neways i bought myself a pretty pretty white dress later on!! =) and we went to the lifestyle entertainment centre at night. the red light district. hahaha.
and on day 3 we went to odaiba. took loads of pics at tokyo bay. and i bought a bag at aqua city! =) we went back to the hotel to put down our shopping. or rather, my shopping. and then we went back to harajuku to see the meiji shrine. its so amazing that despite the hustle and bustle of life, theres such a serene place right smack in the middle.
and on the last day, we woke up really really early to go to the fish market but we missed the auction coz we were too late =( then we walked around ginza which was surprisingly dull compared to harajuku and shinjuku. ginza was like another orchard road.
japan was basically shopping, eating, sightsee =) but the things there were much more ex than i imagined.
oh and they have a very well connected and complex transport system there. in such a big country its so easy to move around. makes me think that its such a small city here but its so difficult to move around and all they do is raise erp prices. like theres only 1 solution. and japan's buses and trains are much smoother. and i thought since ours was developed later it should be better.
ok ok so in short, day 1 was mostly flying. watched a movie called "21" on the plane. its about exceptionally intelligent students from MIT, trained by their prof to count cards and brought to las vegas to well make money. and yes Ben, its dazzling enough =)
landed at 240pm japan time (1 hour ahead of sg time). took the train from narita airport to shinagawa. rested for a bit then went to harajuku at night. shopping and dinner. yups.
day 2 was spent at shinjuku. walked quite a bit and happened to bump into a korean town. they had this supermarket which sells costumes in boxes. each one is about 6,000 yen. reminded me of the movie "a cinderella story" darn i love her dress but neways i bought myself a pretty pretty white dress later on!! =) and we went to the lifestyle entertainment centre at night. the red light district. hahaha.
and on day 3 we went to odaiba. took loads of pics at tokyo bay. and i bought a bag at aqua city! =) we went back to the hotel to put down our shopping. or rather, my shopping. and then we went back to harajuku to see the meiji shrine. its so amazing that despite the hustle and bustle of life, theres such a serene place right smack in the middle.
and on the last day, we woke up really really early to go to the fish market but we missed the auction coz we were too late =( then we walked around ginza which was surprisingly dull compared to harajuku and shinjuku. ginza was like another orchard road.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
6 july 2008
im 19 years and 3 months old. thats 9 more months to the big TWENTY. omg i feel so old =(
3 months ago i woke up feeling that my soul could detach itself from my body. i felt like i was floating. thank you for making all that happen. although 3 months is not a very long time, it is long enough to change so many things.
funny thing is my dad was reading the papers and he started talking about chances in life. you only have once chance. theres no room for regrets. he said if you pick the wrong career, the wrong boyfriend, the wrong husband...you have to pay for your it for the rest of your life. you make the wrong move in this chess game and your next 60 steps will all be wrong. i remembered there was a chinese compre passage on this. 人生无法重来过。
choices have consequences.
ok enough feeling moody. im supposed to be excited about my japan trip but im not as excited as i imagined i would be. maybe its coz my knee is acting up and i have ballet later. or maybe its coz i just found out that i misunderstood what my sis said. you cant choose group a or group b when you matriculate. ntu will allocate. NOOOOOO i dont wanna do organisational behaviour in my first sem =(
6am flight. i got to drag myself out of bed at 330am. and before i fly off, i have to clear up the emotional mess that was created. im not going to japan thinking about stuff thats already been settled. thats not the right start for a holiday.
im 19 years and 3 months old. thats 9 more months to the big TWENTY. omg i feel so old =(
3 months ago i woke up feeling that my soul could detach itself from my body. i felt like i was floating. thank you for making all that happen. although 3 months is not a very long time, it is long enough to change so many things.
funny thing is my dad was reading the papers and he started talking about chances in life. you only have once chance. theres no room for regrets. he said if you pick the wrong career, the wrong boyfriend, the wrong husband...you have to pay for your it for the rest of your life. you make the wrong move in this chess game and your next 60 steps will all be wrong. i remembered there was a chinese compre passage on this. 人生无法重来过。
choices have consequences.
ok enough feeling moody. im supposed to be excited about my japan trip but im not as excited as i imagined i would be. maybe its coz my knee is acting up and i have ballet later. or maybe its coz i just found out that i misunderstood what my sis said. you cant choose group a or group b when you matriculate. ntu will allocate. NOOOOOO i dont wanna do organisational behaviour in my first sem =(
6am flight. i got to drag myself out of bed at 330am. and before i fly off, i have to clear up the emotional mess that was created. im not going to japan thinking about stuff thats already been settled. thats not the right start for a holiday.
Saturday, July 05, 2008
i just got home from work. gosh im so tired. and i still have quite a number of files left. need to go back tomorrow. sigh. i havent even packed my luggage. SIGH.
i was looking through my songs just now. and i came across the song called always be my baby. wasnt love supposed to be simple? i like you, you like me, lets get together kind of thing? but no. far from that. who knew that being in love meant losing myself and so many other things in my life. yes it came to that. and i had to choose. i gave up the song bird. i made a selfish decision to give up what we had for everything else that defines me. the thing called love is something nice to have but its something i can do without for now. i once had the courage to close my eyes and jump, not knowig where i would land. but that was the past. now i cant. too many things are holding me back, preventing me from taking that leap of faith. so much so that i rather believe that the cards were wrong. you were two weeks too late. one regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time. there's no use looking back or wondering how it could be now or might have been. i once sent a message that said ps i love you. this time im gonna say ps i did love you once but too many things happened between us and theres no going back.
i was looking through my songs just now. and i came across the song called always be my baby. wasnt love supposed to be simple? i like you, you like me, lets get together kind of thing? but no. far from that. who knew that being in love meant losing myself and so many other things in my life. yes it came to that. and i had to choose. i gave up the song bird. i made a selfish decision to give up what we had for everything else that defines me. the thing called love is something nice to have but its something i can do without for now. i once had the courage to close my eyes and jump, not knowig where i would land. but that was the past. now i cant. too many things are holding me back, preventing me from taking that leap of faith. so much so that i rather believe that the cards were wrong. you were two weeks too late. one regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time. there's no use looking back or wondering how it could be now or might have been. i once sent a message that said ps i love you. this time im gonna say ps i did love you once but too many things happened between us and theres no going back.