it is 650 and my show on channel 8 starts at 7pm. ok i'll see how much i can conjure up today.

i had a pretty bad nightmare last night. this guy killed the daughter of his lover. chopped her legs and tied them below the elevator. and i had to take the elevator so many times. and no, i havent been watching horrors.

chem spa: alcohol stinks and it gives me a headache which results in loss of memory. but there was so much time i nearly fell asleep.

orchard library: i thought seoul gardens opened at 11 but it was 1130. so we went to the library 1st. borrowed books on psychology, making videos, spirit of meditation (buddhism), wine appreciation (another one on my hol list. such a waste if i keep drinking but not appreciating it to the fullest) and image quotient. i asked janice if she needed bks on stress management. and she replied no with a smile. haha..

lunch: targeted time to leave was 430. we left at 330. coz we were so bloated. and towards the end we were wondering if we even ate anything. we tried making omelet but failed and devised ways to get rid of it. one included acting. gosh. janice's the only lucky one besides my family who has tried my soups, cooking and baking. econs, chem, bio stuff sprouted from us even though promos were over and we tried not to say them. we also turned psycho coz of the psychology book we borrowed.

conciousness is but an evolutionary functionalism, a materialistic view of the mind. our conscious world is a grand illusion. in other words, whatever we see is jus an illusion. it is not reality but how we perceive the world to be. and we are all hallucinating.

i told janice that the buns were apples and the plate was not yellow but red. and i wasnt exactly there with her. man...

filming: filiming at crossroads were so tough. and we met njcians. went to hilton and four seasons. four seasons not any less grand than hilton. hilton was too small. four seasons had that nice stairs for me to walk down. the thing is i think ive grown too fat to fit into the gown and my figure is so out of shape i will look like a potato sack in it. gahhh. and the ppl there couldnt make decisions for us to film. what the. had to email. and we are schedule for filming on sat. i dont know if we will make it.

my mum was so darn pro to get me all the equipment coz my dad didnt want to lend me his precious video cam coz he havent downloaded the movies. i quarreled with him over it and i ended off saying u shld have just let me go to the US. im still thinking if i shld bake his cake tmr. im still so angry.

home: i was so tired from carrying all the equipment and books i almost fell asleep on the bus. came home, tried to read the psychology book again but it was really very chim so i gave up. finished the image quotient book. yay! smsed yu lu and finalized to meet her tmr at bugis at 11am.

7:03pm now. i dun want to miss the show la. tonight i got other stuff to do. tmr morning i've set aside time for my katie. verbal diarrhea another day. so sorry my dear readers.

all but a memory can this love become.